
Jordan stared at the piece of divorce petition that Gaby managed to find with a bitter feeling. Especially when he saw Gaby's happy face when handing over the paper, it felt broken already his heart. But he also did not want to lose the beautiful woman who always filled the space of his heart.
" I'm sorry to disappoint you, Ge. But the divorce papers were already expired. "
Gaby who was smiling happily now turned gloomy. A few seconds ago he seemed to find a way to a future without Jordan. But why is it always like this? God gave him endless false hope. How long will he be toyed with such a fate? is there really no way to live a decent life without Jordan?
" Ge, "Jordan grabs Gaby's still hanging hands unmoved. If Gaby had signed that day, it would have been all but destroyed and they would not have returned to the dark starting point without any direction. But life is life that has a director of all life. Happiness or suffering will come and go. It's just that Gaby's grief is so deep that she can no longer accept warm feelings. Because at the end of it God again only makes him have hope without any real evidence.
" Then submit again. " Say Gaby with a flat look.
Jordan tightened his hand that was tightly grasping Gaby's hand.
" I'm sorry, Ge. I'm not gonna do that. I know it's hard on you, but I swore I'd love you all my life. I swore that there would be no more jerk Jordan that time. Just trust me once. "
Perhaps, the physical and verbal abuse Jordan once committed could be for him to forgive. But a real betrayal in his eyes, not even with just one girl. And even more painful was the death of his son, which he believed was Jordan's act made him unable to apologize.
" I don't want to be with you anymore. Please let me go. " Pinta Gaby is expressionless that Jordan can't read.
" I'm sorry, Ge. I can't let you go. "
Gaby clenched her hands tightly. Perhaps all this time he had dissolved too deeply with grief that he did not have the courage to rebel. But ever since he got to know Nino, slowly the desire for his life rose up and gave rise to courage.
" Why can't it?! huh uh?! do you still have the face to always look at me? don't you hate that dirty you are?! "
Jordan was silent, not that he could not answer. It was just that Gaby's angry gaze was so clearly visible, let alone her voice to the point of shaking as if holding back a cry while holding back anger. All of Gaby's words immediately dropped Jordan from her confidence so sure would be able to gain Gaby's trust again.
" Sorry Ge.... "
What else but sorry? of course only that word could represent the whole feeling of guilt and regret that Jordan felt. Know, indeed he knew the word sorry up to a million times he said, it would not be possible to eliminate the pain felt by Gaby because of his actions. But as a man and a husband he can only give in and I'm sorry he can always say.
" I'm sorry? sorry for which mistake?! hit me? curse me? kick me? cheating with a lot of women? or kill my son? "
Jordan was silent without being able to answer. Can we be sorry to represent so many mistakes he has made? could it be with just one word of apology to treat the wound he brutally gave Gaby? can one word of apology make Gaby let go of her son? Nah! of course not. If Jordan explains that he was not the cause of the accident, isn't it the same that he also took part so that the fateful incident occurred?
If only I would put my ego aside and drive you to the hospital, if only I hadn't pretended not to care about you, all your hatred and your pain wouldn't have been this severe. And our son, must still be alive in your womb. Whether I or not was the cause of the accident, but I am the defendant of all the wrongs that caused you this pain and the loss of our son. Sorry, Ge.
" If you want to make amends, then let me go and never appear before me. "
Jordan looked at Gaby's bead eyes which clearly she was so serious about. Suddenly the pain rippled from his heart to spread throughout the body to hear Gaby's request as his redeemer. But she loves Gaby so much and parting ways with Gaby is impossible right now.
" Of all my mistakes, which one is the hardest for you to forgive? "
Jordan stared at Gaby's bead eyes which still seemed to be blazing with anger.
Jordan was speechless with a difficult look to understand.
" Just a kid? we can still have it again. " Jordan was still expressionless.
" I wouldn't want to have a son from a dirty man like you! " Now Gaby can no longer hold back her tears that have been held back from a while ago.
Jordan returns silent as he recalls the stupid things he did in front of Gaby with his assistant and Selena. Right, he was indeed so ridiculous and disgusting. But all he did was to add pain to Gaby's heart.
" I'm dirty, but I'm not that dirty, Ge. "
Gaby gritted in disbelief. Maybe Jordan thinks he's a baby who's just gonna believe that lie-filled remark.
" Don't forget, I've heard your voice and your lady in this room a lot. "
Jordan was silent. Right, he's done it a few times with his assistant.
" I already have no reason to hang out with someone like you. I also have no feelings other than hate. So just let me go. And be a responsible man by marrying Selena. "
Jordan is upset and disappointed by Gaby's words. Maybe he was a jerk, but he was really in a difficult phase to accept reality and could not control himself who was blindly at that time.
" Now go back to Selena. I'll pack my clothes. "
Just as Gaby's body turned around, Jordan's arm was now tightly hugging her. And started whispering words in Gaby's ear.
" Don't order me to marry Selena. "
" You must be responsible for all your actions. That baby is your baby, you should take good care of him. Otherwise, I will avenge my son's death by killing your baby. "
" Just do it. "
A resentful Gaby tries to break away and it succeeds with just one rebellious move. But that disgusting smile was real on Jordan's face.
" If you can't love me like you used to, then I'll be the one you hate the most so you'll always be by my side even if your intentions are to kill me. " Jordan grabs Gaby's wrist and leads her to the bed and slams her body there.
" What are you doing?! " Gaby Protest.
" I will make mistakes and take responsibility afterwards. That's according to your advice, right? "
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