Heart Agreement

63

In the evening, Deren and Violet are in Violet's care room in silence and Violet has just had dinner with Deren's help of course. Not that Violet can't eat on her own but that Deren won't allow it.

"Cool!" Call Violet.

Deren who was sitting on the sofa immediately approached Violet upon hearing the call, "What's wrong? Is anyone sick or do you need anything?" Ask Deren gently.

Violet shook her head and just stared at Deren, I don't know what she wanted to say she had forgotten but one thing is for sure she wanted to look at her husband and want to be with Deren before their divorce. Ready not to be ready Violet has started to prepare herself to face her separation with her husband. But before that she wanted to be with her husband in this short time at least after parting there was something she remembered about her husband being together. She would keep her own love and keep her husband's name in the deepest corner of her heart, at least that's all she could take away.

Deren who saw his wife was just silent and looked at him with an unreadable gaze just silent and sat down and ventured to hold his wife's hand. Violet who was held by her husband just smiled because honestly it gave a little comfort in her heart. Why did Violet just realize that all this time she was comfortable with everything that her husband did. Why when it will all be over.

"Vio!" Deren said softly trying to open the conversation to break the silence between them.

Violet was silent and just looked at her husband as if waiting for what her husband wanted to say, "Vio, I want to apologize to you for having you treated here. It has brought back your trauma of water again. Forgive me for neglecting to take care of you and forgive me for getting you dragged into my troubles. Forgive me for being insensitive to your feelings, not realizing that this marriage makes you feel like hell. I promise you that once you're healed I'll give you your freedom. Forget about our agreement to part when our marriage is half a year old, I will hasten our separation because I do not want to make you tormented again. I will fix everything and if possible please forgive all my mistakes. I really didn't mean to make you tormented. Again forgive me." Deren.

Violet who heard that immediately her tears dripped but she was immediately wiped away because she did not want to be seen by Deren and fortunately Deren did not realize it either. I want him to say that that's not what he wants but his tongue is like a joke to say that.

"Well, if that's the best. Get me out of this marriage." Violet said grievously. Believe me that's not what his heart wants to say but somehow that sentence came out. I don't know why he's so selfish about his feelings. I don't know why his heart and logic don't match. It was like Violet was sewing her own mouth so that she would no longer say something that made her feel hurt.

Deren who heard Violet's words just kept silent and ventured to look at Violet to see if there was a lie in her words but again he could not read what was on his wife's mind. Is it that smart a woman hides what she feels.

Violet who heard that grimaced and could only massage her chest to make Deren whose mind was split apart stand up, "What's wrong? Is your chest hurting again? I'll call the doctor." Deren said worriedly.

"I just want to rest. Leave me." replied Violet again did not match her heart because the truth is what her heart wanted with the man but somehow she was very difficult to admit her feelings. For Violet to abstain from expressing love early because it made her pride as a woman hurt. In addition, she is also afraid if she expresses her feelings but it turns out that Deren does not love her. Moreover, there is the presence of a woman among them, a beautiful woman and also sexy and mature and working as a model that of course can not be compared with her who is just an ordinary woman. The more thought of it the more it makes his head dizzy and his heart feels very painful.

"Well, I won't bother you anymore. You rest well and if you need anything call me, I'll rest on the couch. You'll heal fast." Deren clasped Violet's hand tightly before letting go and she went towards the sofa.

Violet who grips Deren's hand on the loose feels something missing and is unwilling. Moreover, hearing Deren's words made her even more sad, "I'll heal faster, I know you can't wait to part with me and marry your lover. I will not be a hindrance to you. I know you wanted this parting so badly but why are you dragging me." Violet cried. He immediately tilted his body and cried in silence. She was very unwilling to accept this but still pretended to be strong to hide the wounds in her heart because she did not want to make her mother and sister worry about her. Let her keep it all to herself because more important than that is how she will explain the divorce to her mother and sister.

Violet who was tired of crying ended up sleeping even though it was difficult for her to sleep. Violet was not tired from being sick from drowning but tired from her wounded mind.

***

Two days passed, Violet returned to the Mansion using her vespas. Violet was discharged from the hospital yesterday but she did not go straight back to the Mansion and preferred to stay at her house with her mother to calm her heart before preparing to accept what was to come his life.

This afternoon he decided to return to the Mansion even though his mother was still forbidden to return let alone bring his own vehicle earlier was not Violet's name if not stubborn. Anggi's mother was finally only able to agree to her daughter's request because she knew Violet would not give up so easily and would definitely terrorize her if not allowed. In addition, Anggi's mother also knew that her daughter was married which she could not prohibit if she wanted to go home to her husband but one thing that made her confused was Violet who refused to be picked up by Deren go back and prefer to drive your own Vespanya.

It was here that Violet stood in a magnificent building that she had occupied for five months and only five days ago she had stayed but she had longed for it. Somehow he used to be very comfortable in his home but now he feels more comfortable living in this place.