HEALING THE PAST'S

HEARTS

The past makes me think about the future.

Can the future reveal the past ?

Sanders~ Ferry

The compulsion that made me unable to evade, not accepting the circumstances proved I could not make peace even though I wanted to.

I want to forget the pain of letting her sweet memories, but I'm too attached to not be captivated.

It's not that I can't change, but my ego makes me even worse.

Can I treat this feeling even if it hurts too much?

~Ferry Sanders~

I'm the one who came for your future, who you didn't care about at the beginning, but let me erase the wounds of the past and leave the beauty alone.

Asyila syadzana~

Loving you is not my original purpose, but getting to know you makes me want to have you, whether it's true that I just want to know, but the more I realize the pain, makes me realize that I really love you.

How to make your despair a taste for me.

Asyila syadzana~

Brukk ! Suddenly dark, Jerry Sanders was surprised to wake up from his dream, the dream has become his daily food for 3 years,the shadow that makes him unable to sleep and eat comfortably.But so many memories that even became his candlestick to be forgotten.Hati is so empty and dark makes him a Ferry more silent and little laugh.

On the sidelines he laughed and let out tears, that pain was when he remembered it.

Ferry saw the clock shows at 9 pm it turns out he fell asleep after the magrib, he also woke up into the bathroom washing his face in the sink,looking at the glass appearance is so messy and red eyes.He has tried hard so far, he has been trying hard so far,but still his desire does not match his heart that so misses the person he can only meet in his nightmare.Dering phone reads,Ferry out of the bathroom took his cellphone in the nightstand, and the phone rang,someone so important in his life, Jerry picked up the phone immediately.

"Ferry tomorrow finished from the office back home to mama's house, there's a friend of mama's children want mama to know you, her children are beautiful, well, polite and continue to pity again, want ya son!"

Her mother said with great caution, "Well, Ferry told my mother several times, The ferry is not interested in anyone and everyone is mah",Ferry is so upset with his mother who is fond of matchmaking him,"But Fer, mama has promised anyway you should meet first with her children temen mama, mama gamau tau, kalo no mama does not want to talk to you again"his mother whines,"Yes dehh,but just meet ya ma, do not expect more", said ferry half sincerely."okedeh, tomorrow at home mom at 4 pm yes son "his mother said with a happy tone.

The conversation ended, Ferry had to accept the reality at the age of his 32 must always accept his mother's babble about a mate.But currently Ferry is not interested and does not want to get married, but now Ferry is not interested and does not want to get married,but he could not refuse his mother's request either.

Ferry introduced himself briefly and immediately began the lesson.

The students did not dare to ask for more than to accept and undergo classes sincerely, although only this time they met with the lecturer who immediately started the lesson at the first meeting.

Two classes went well the clock showed at 13.40 wib, and the time for Ferry to go home he checked his phone notifications, a message was seen.

Mama

Ferry do not forget to go straight to the house finished !!

Ferry simply replied with a thumb sign emot.he immediately pulled the car out of the parking lot and drove to his parents' house.

30 Minutes passed by the ferry entered the gate of his parents' house, there were two foreign cars parked there, why earlier than the specified schedule,Ferry is also confused if it is just a regular meeting why it should be as crowded and artistic as it is.

But he put the confusion aside and was even more curious about what his mother planned.

Ferry entered and gave greetings, but to his surprise he saw not only his parents who were there but the parents of the woman who had been promised to meet there,what makes the ferry confused is his grandmother who was very difficult to get out of the village was there at that time.

Ferry greeted one by one the old man, only one who he did not salami, who else if not a woman who looks much younger than him.he just glanced and sat next to his grandmother.

Ferry said"tumben grandma, usually don't want to come here, love the same chicken rather than his grandson"."Kan granddaughter grandma want to have a wife yes grandma should participate dong, her children are good fer, you must like, kalo you gasuka should also like, anyway grandma wants you the same her, grandmother is old fer, just like her,want to see you get married, have children, you have to make peace with your past, think about your future too."grandmother said that with a sad and earnest face.

Ferry was silent not knowing what to say.

Her mother introduced her to a woman and a man who her grandmother said would be her father-in-law, even the ferry was not interested and could not believe if she could get married,but at this time he only followed the plot first.his mother also introduced her to the woman who he had first seen on that day, which turned out to be named Alisya, who was named,no doubt Alisya is beautiful with a veil that matches her dress, she does look good as her mother said, but it does not move the heart of Ferry to have the intention of getting married.

The conversation went too far to the extent of the application that was not even approved by Ferry, he increasingly felt strange and spontaneously pulled his mother's arm into another room.

He spoke a little angry "Ma, the ferry has said, why is there a grandmother, and the discussion to the extent of all proposals, if Ferry has not agreed, Alisya also does not seem to want to stay", mama replied slowly,"Fer mama please yes, you just want to marry Alisya mama want to see you happy, have a companion for the future, do not stick in your past, not mama tell you to forget the massalu son, son,just mama doesn't want you to dissolve in sadness, you still have a future, you need a good companion, and all of that is in Alisya","But ma, she's still very young,what is in him, the most childish" he said, "you will know after you know him son, anyway mama gamau know, Alisya has agreed and you should agree that you love your mama, mama,Consider yourself a mate mama and this is indeed forced, how many years did mama give you the confidence to choose your own partner but nil, so for this time mama please, and this is the final decision mama and do not argue, so for this time mama please,marriage will also be done as soon as possible, you do not receive a reason for void other than you have a prospective wife of your own choice." said mama final.

Even Ferry was unable to answer because if his mother had said so he had to obey his mother's wishes, even if he did not comply, his mother would continue to look for ways to achieve her wishes.

Ferry still standing some distance away has not dared to go back to the gathering place of the two families.