Hatti... Find your Love

A Decision - 1

Love.why should it happen.

You left me here

Love.why there is suffering.

If hope is focused on liking

Is this heart that is too fragile

Or a sense that persists without being told

My heart you let hurt

You go and I'm miserable

 

A girl was crying because of the hurt she felt. Abandoned by the one who first made his heart tremble, but the first time so great love arrived - suddenly incised such a deep wound.

A girl named Syafana kept shedding her tears. Crying in solitude. It is not easy for her as a young girl who survives not to love, but the bigger she tries to avoid the first love that is present just like that. But the happiness that has been knitted with the person he received his love must be buried away leaving a huge wound. Not only is love fought for by him but his future is always fought for.

Here, in the lake he recalled how his struggle to reach a dream for his future and also the love that was present in the prose of his journey.

...Flashbacks...

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*Success Day*

"Fana..." Three friends hugged tightly. Shafana, Aya and Tia. Today is their graduation day. Early school friends make them so familiar.

"Alhamdulillah.it is time to think about continuing the future. Achieving the ideals for world success and the afterlife" Syafana smiled gently to his friends.

"What are your plans, Fana?" ask Aya.

"I'll work while I'm in college. I have to fight hard for my future"

"We're proud of you Fan. You're really great." Tia held out two thumbs at Fana.

"Hey take a look.. The poor boy seems to have graduated. I can continue to college. You poor man." suddenly a woman came.

"Heh grandma drop by. Disturb people. That's my mouth guarded. If not glue just use the glue of rats all" snapped Tia.

"Oh yeah, you two just shut up. Your poor friend is good to be a pemb*tu aja in the cave. Heh.. Syaphane. How's it? Lue wants cave cooperation. Later cave of big salary love"

"Heh.. Niken the grandmother drop by peyot, my beautiful and sweet friend does not need money loe. There must be a lot better work. She's smart, beautiful, good again. Isn't it Fana?" Aya did not want to lose commenting.

"Udahlah. I don't want to make a fuss. But what Niken said was true. I am a poor man. Not the same as he's the son of a man's father." Syafana tried to mediate.

"Fana, but this little granny has gone too far. His mouth should indeed be tainted with level 30." said Tia.

"Hahhah." Aya spoke while having a discussion.

Niken looked cynically. He never liked Syafana. Syafana liked many of his friends. His simplicity amazed him all. He looked back at Syafana.

"Heh.he only admitted himself if he was poor and did not deserve high ideals. Proud to have poor parents huh? What do I expect from my parents' work? Eating is hard, especially in college. Huh .. not realising." Niken deliberately spoke spicy like that. He was most pleased to insult Syafana. All this time there was no satisfaction in insulting. Moreover, all this time Syafana just silent not responding. So he assumed Mana was afraid of him. Shafana is lazy to argue. For him there is no point in replying to Niken's insults.

But when his parents called his blood instantly boiling. Niken's words just now were like waking up a sleeping lioness.

He stared intently at Niken, his jaw hardening. With a clenched hand holding in anger he walked towards Niken. The cold aura of Syafana made the person standing there shudder in horror. Niken who was surprised by the deadly gaze of Shafana started to be afraid. His courage was lost. He took a few steps back. Right in front of Niken he gripped tightly niken chin. Aya and Tia just gawked in watching.

"You can insult me. But don't insult both my parents. They are my life. Dare you ruin my life, I will not forgive you. I said I was poor. But I have the right to aspire. Neither you nor anyone else would dare to interfere in my life. I've never been afraid of you. Once again you try to get involved with my life, then I will make you regret your whole life or I will tear your mouth. You understand grandma's dropping by?" The trembling Niken simply nodded with a pale face. He was really scared to see Syafana.

Shafana took off her grip and then took her two friends home.

"Gee .. Mortal should have beaten the attached grandmother before" said Tia

" let's go home"

"jeez, it turns out that he was also horrified if he was angry. I don't want to deal with him anymore. I was really scared. What if he really rips my sexy mouth off? oh no.." bathin Niken.

He hurried home and took his bag.

 

Arriving at the house Syafana found his parents were in the family room.

"Assalamu'alaikum's chat... Mothers.... Fathering... Beautiful shafana home nich..."

"Wa'alaikumsalam."

"Hehehe. Fana's father and mother were very good, Fana passed...." Shafana handed over the proof of her graduation to father happily.

"Great little girl this father"

"Dad, Fana was big. 18 years old lo.." Syafana.

"Yes, my mother's beloved is already big" Mother gently stroked Fana's hair. Fana smiled and struggled spoiled at her mother.

"Fana, are you planning to go to college, son?"syafana's father asked seriously to his beloved daughter.

" Dad, sorry. Is there a fee for Fana College?" Shafana asked her father heartily.

His father took a deep breath and let go slowly. As a child Syafana knew very well the condition of his family. College is certainly expensive. But Syafana was determined that he would stay in college and would work to earn money.

Coming from a simple family did make him difficult. He knows very well the condition of his parents. He and his older brother Joe are used to being independent from childhood. Moreover, his brother was busy with the thesis. And it takes a lot of money.

He had thought about everything for a long time. He will work as a private teacher in a family. The family has children who are still in primary school. Both of his parents are busy, so Syafana will be a companion teacher to them.

Yes, Shafana has made a decision. He will work for the family. Fortunately he will live directly there and his house is not too far from his college later, so he can reduce the cost.

"Dad, Shafana will work while in college. Ahead of the lecture Syafana a sense of salary and savings Syafana 3 years will be enough for the cost of college entrance.

Shafana will continue to study. " Syafana explained to her father.

"Where's son?" his mother asked worried.

"Mom, Shafana will work as a private teacher for the children of the Yuni Mother's family."

"Mother Yuni?"

"Yes. And Fana will also live there

It's close to campus"

"Are you sincere, dear? forgive us, son."

"Syafana is very sincere. Even Fana was happy. Dad and Mom don't worry.."

"Sister supports you deck. Later after finishing the trial exam and passing, you will immediately look for work. And brother who will fight for you." Suddenly his brother Joe approached Syafana and fondled his sister's hair.

"Sister? just got home, huh?"

"Yes. Dad, mom. Joe's thesis is on acc. Waiting for the exam schedule. Please pray that it will be good."

"certain son. We're proud to have you."

Kriyuuk.

Everyone looked at Syafana. Syafana is just a crybaby.

"Yes, eat yuk. There will be another fainting drama" mother smiled.

"ah.mom.." whined Fana while hugging her mother.

"Start the disease." Joe scrambles - random hair his sister.

"Joe, already. Quickly clean - clean and eat"

"Yes, lady.." Joe and Fana are together.

"Hahahahaha." they laughed. Fathers and mothers just shake their heads to see the behavior of their children.

 

Despite the difficulties in terms of money, can not make Syafana just bury his dream. He must increase his knowledge. It has an intelligent brain, a sweet and gentle face, and a spirit that stays on. That's what Syafana is. Many were amazed by him. A girl who understands her parents. He did not want to force his will just like that. For him, his parents were everything. He will obey them. Including to keep the heart and keep a distance with men. You can only be friends. That is what his mother always told him. Although many like it, but he always tried to be ordinary. He will try to neutralize the taste that is in his heart. Yes, a cheerful attitude, indifferent and easy to get along with make Fana much liked and liked by his friends. The teachers also liked him because Fana was a smart one. His friendly and helpful smile makes him widely known and hesitant both in the school environment, and at home.

It is sad that he often feels when his friends can do what they like. You can buy anything as they want. But that thought was immediately put aside. He reminded himself to always think positively and always be passionate in living life. You should always be grateful. Just smile sincerely.

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As agreed, that day Shafana packed clothes and other necessities. For the sake of reaching his mind - he must be strong to part with his parents.

"Mother, please pray Syafana yes hopefully everything is smooth" Syafana told her mother.

"Yes son, be diligent in learning, do good, respect your adoptive parents, and most importantly walk the path that our religion has set." said his mother tearfully.

Syafana nodded with a puddle of her tears. Then he hugged his father.

"Dad, forgive Fana because from tomorrow Fana can not make father coffee again" he said.

Dad stroked Syafana's hair and smiled, "It's okay, son. Learn diligently, reach your ideals. I'm sorry I haven't been able to make you happy."

"Dad don't apologize, Fana will be happy father and mother after success later" said Fana with enthusiasm.

"Son, if our economy is better, then go home. Work is enough."

"Ok dad.. Hehe."

Finally, Syafana left with her brother. Arriving at his adoptive family home after sitting for a while Syafana's brother named Joe pamit home.

"Please deck yourself. If there's anything - what's fast khabari brother. Remember, don't get too close to men. You are our precious pearl. Once you get a decent job, you won't let it get you hard anymore. Brother promise." said Joe while hugging his beloved sister.

"Ready feet" said Syafana, putting her index and middle fingers against her.

After her sister came home, Syafana went back into the house to meet her adoptive family.

"Syafana, this is your room. You'll sleep with Ibuk's daughter. Name's Shabrina. It just so happens that she is Ibuk's only daughter. This is Arka's sister. This is Mr. Hendra's husband. This is Ibuk's sister Kak Hesti and her 1-year-old son Seima."

Shafana smiled and shook hands with all of them.

"But Fana did not know the name of Ibuk" asked Syafana

"Call me Ibuk Yuni."

"Good buk."

"Yes, then you rest first. Shabrina, let's take sister Fana to the room and continue studying."

"Yes Mom. Brother Fana, let's go to the room, "Shabrina then to the room followed by Syafana.

Arriving in Shabrina's room shows her a wardrobe for Syafana. Shafana immediately cleaned her clothes.

Shabrina smiled and continued to study.

After she was done with her clothes, Shafana approached Shabrina.

"Shabrina, can you help me?" ask Fana.

Shabrina smiled, "for now no sister, tomorrow shubuh aja sak. Each completion of the prayer is usually Shabrina setor memorized the verse".

"Alright, don't hesitate to be with your sister".

" Good sister, Shabrina is glad there's a sister. So there's a friend for Shabrina, too. Brother must be at home here yes, because Shabrina already directly loves her brother" explained Shabrina.

Syafana smiled and hugged Shabrina, then she gently rubbed Shabrina's hair.

"Sister is also directly dear to Shabrina. Brother will always love Shabrina and the others."

"Thank you, brother"

"Same - equally dear" said Fana while hugging Shabrina.

Finally Fana fell asleep in the bed while watching Shabrina. He hoped it would be easy - hopefully everything would be smooth, because his ideals would just start.

Syafana then took her hp.

tut tut tut tut tut

"Assalamu'alaikum darling"

"Wa'alaikumsalam, Man. Fana has arrived. Fana kangen's".

"Propay ya darling later if our economy has improved, Fana go home again yes son"

"Yes,bu. Greetings kangen Fana with dad ya"

"Well baby. good - good there yes"

" Yes,bu. Close the phone first. Assalamu'alaikum ma'am"

"Wa'alaikum greetings dear." Fana closed her phone.

Shabrina, who had finished studying, kept the book and approached Syafana.

"sister"

"Yes Shabrina, what's the deck?"

"mmmm, I guess you'll feel at home right here?"

"Why did Shabrina ask like that?"

"Shabrina likes her sister. So Shabrina doesn't want to be left behind by sister"

"Mmmm, you can't promise until when you can work here, but you will definitely be a good sister" Shafana smiled as she rubbed Shabrina's hair. Shabrina smiled.

"May Shabrina hug sister?"

"Byeah, here dear" shafana spread out both hands. Sharina immediately hugged Fana.

"It's safe to be in my sister's arms. I know that Shabrina is the eldest. So from now on, sister Fana is Shabrina's sister huh?"

"Alright, from now on you'll be the eldest" they both laughed cheerfully. It is very easy for Syafana to be immediately liked by his adoptive sister because yes Syafana does have a loving and friendly nature.

"Shabrina, it's too late now. So we go to sleep so that tomorrow we don't wake up late."

"Ok, sis. tomorrow please wake up Shabrina quickly huh sis. Shabrina wants to memorize the verse and nyetor first same sister"

"Alright, tomorrow's gonna wake you up. Good night and don't forget to pray before you go to bed"

"Yes my brother"

Finally they slept soundly while hugging..

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