Happy Ideals

chapter 10

in the middle of the crowd of night market visitors who passed by. Nindita and Mila were already queuing in front of the egg roll merchant, according to Mila itung-itung nostalgic at elementary school.

"nin.... when SD you have been exposed to Ndak??" ask Mila.

"yes ever mil.. your question ono-ono ae...

I'm from the baby until now living in the village, in this village exactly.. telor gulung is certainly not a foreign snack for me" said Nindi.

"yes I guess you Ndak never eat ndog gulung nin.. you are a child e juragan, sugih Treasure seven derivatives, ten climbs. I think you can eat food roadside that loh..." mila said

"hus.. lambe mu mil.. my father ndak as rich as iku, until 7 derivative 10 climbs.. rich road to mountain ae.. if about the food of my mother free only.. just so you know that bates" said Nindita in a soft voice like a whisper. for fear of her conversation with Mila sounded people, embarrassed thought he.

"always low.once skyrocketed nin times" said nindi while raising down next to his bow.

"i don't want to go to the moon miles.so I don't need a rocket.

"hahaha this child of Bu Yuningsih is indeed the best" Mila said with a laugh.

"boboboonnn.." sounding right from behind. turns out there is an arum suddenly behind them.

"wahhhh... there is an angel of heaven e Panji as well, here".

"you're miles anyway" said arum cynically

"weladala.

"sebell poll me to you milaa" said Arum while pecking.

"suutttttt... in the pending first deliberation.... continued at home aja yes.... telor rolls already in hand, now we want to buy let alone...??" said Nindi, who was standing in the middle of Arum and the mile, lifting up one pelastic which was almost full of rolled eggs in its tent.

"wah already done pesenan kita nin" said Mila happy.

"too fun musyawarah you are the same Arum yes .. until you realize our pesenan already so" continued Nindita. while Mila and Arum laughed stiffly.

while in a house that is quite large, a couple was talking on the back porch of the house, while looking at the beautiful garden with dim lights.

"mas you know very well, it's easy for me to accept Tini in our household. by thinking over and over again. convince my heart if this is the way of Gusti that I have to live, by thinking over and over again, convince my heart that you can be fair to me, Tini and the kids.I always believe in myself, if I can, and I can afford to be in this position".. said Bu Yuningsih calmly.

"but when I saw Nindita's tears,... Nindita pratiwi, the child I bear, I was born. a few dozen years ago. but what I saw in his eyes was a lot of disappointment" said Bu Yuningsih while wiping his tears that he could not resist

"i think Nindita's attitude has been excessive yuni. I know, he may feel I'm not fair with him. I'm more attention to the coals. but I think the age of coals more need attention than me... Nindita has grown up, she should understand my attitude, not even feel I love the coals" said Mr. Sutomo

"Nindita ndak asked to be born in our family mas.. maybe if you can choose, he does not want to be among us". pause Bu yuningsih, while breathing deep air into his lungs..

"Nindita does look bigger than coals, but nindi is still a child mas. getting happiness is her right, little Nindi who is very spoiled as her father until sometimes who just want to play alone with her father. which you often say, Nindita has great pity for her brother ember, need a father for this and that. "said Bu Yuningsih with a trembling voice holding back tears.

"i think, the mas say Nindita's attitude has been excessive.it's the overflow of a child's patience, which he keeps from small. Until now this big nindi, I think he can not, Ndak, make always be a preacher according to what you want, nindi is also a child who still desperately needs a father figure, and his affection... yang Ndak can be forced to become a figure that suits your wishes mas.." said Bu Yuningsih, who could not resist his crying.

"Yuni... if I spend more time together nindi how the same coals??.. ema also my child is still a child too.. do I have to be indifferent to the same coals" said mr. Tomo.

"i don't mean to tell the father indifferent the same embers.just the father must be more assertive with Tini, the father must also be able to put himself.. please focus the same in this house. anyway I'm the same nindi also Ndak never disturb you if again the same Tini. " said Bu Yuning.

"little monk Yun. di does not understand yet. if I have to focus the same here when I stay in him. so you also have to be aware if sometimes I ask you to go there, or he who stopped by here." said Mr. Tomo

"when Nindita 8 years you have to understand the situation. Now embers are 10 years old... nindita's heart has been wounded since childhood mas.

"yuni.. please do not cry so. ma'af right I Yun... I will try to be better again.

"i feel like I failed mas. I feel like I failed to be a mother. I can't give Nindi the right to be happy "bu Yuni's crying is getting worse.

"i was in charge of my choice 8 years ago.when I chose to stay with you and accept Tini. I should also think about the good and bad of all the possibilities I would face... until finally now my son Nindita who grew full of wounds.I am a failed mother mas.. failed once" said Bu Yuningsih in a weak voice, in the arms of Pak Sutomo. until finally Bu Yuningsih was unconscious.

"Yun.. please wake up... yuni... !! Yuningsih !!" father tomo shouted, patting his wife's cheek gently.