Handsomeness Hide's

Eps. 2. Every Second My Heart Thumped

That night showed at 01:00 in the morning. Juna has not been able to close his eyes because his mental condition is getting worse and worse.

People say, being super beautiful or super handsome becomes the hopes and dreams of many people. In droves among all those who do plastic surgery on his face, his body to the part that is difficult to see in order to form the desired physique. But in fact, that fact was dismissed by Juna who from birth, he has the greatest gift of having a super duper handsome stature.

Being the perfect man in view supported by his social status at the top, does not make himself happy. The rejection of love to the women who pursue him makes him so depressed that he is unable to make friends with women. he felt he could not bear it if he continued to reject the women he hoped to be good friends with.

Why do friendships end in love, especially for men and women? why can't it be if friendship is just friendship?

That is Juna's life. Even Juna himself was unable to manage the situation and conditions when he was struck by the dilemma.

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Tok.dok......

The sound of knocking on the door from outside. Makes Juna aghast. As Juna's daydreams ran out, he immediately stepped towards the door of his room and opened the lock.

"Mother? why did mom wake up? it's late at night." worried Juna to his elderly mother.

"Mom won't calm down before I talk to you. You've always been moody lately. Anyway, I want to talk." Said firmly.

Juna certainly could not refuse the request of the mother.with a heavy heart, he let his mother into his room.

"All right, let's go in, ma'am." Juna said respecting his mother.

The mother took out her smartphone from her pocket. He tinkered with the smartphone screen to find something. Juna was amazed by his mother. Occasionally Juna bowed lethargic.

The smiling mother knots reading messages in her smartphone.

"Juna, do you know this guy? it's been a week, chat with mom and send a lot of photos of you on campus."

"No, ma'am, you better turn off the chat and don't listen to unknown messages.I don't want you to be distracted." Juna advised his mother.

"They're saying your fans.it's okay, son. I understand. You should be happy and not moody like this." said his mother strengthened Juna. Actually, the mother has a slightly arrogant temperament in the affairs of her child's romance.

Hearing that made Juna even more lethargic. Juna was silent, speechless. His eyes were slightly swollen from lack of sleep. Occasionally he plays his finger to relieve his anxiety. "Mom knows, people say good looks will make someone better, but why don't I?"

Hearing Juna's statement the mother was shocked. He tried to smile and guess Juna's feelings.

"Don't that, son. You are the greatest gift in our lives. You are handsome because of our family descendants who are indeed beautiful-looking people!" Answer the mother lightly.

"Why should you look good at Mom? why can't you make a sincere friend? even if it wasn't for good looks maybe I would have lived better?!" juna began to get upset.

The mother looked at him with a beautiful heart. He knows Juna's character is very principled and innocent.

"Juna, what's up? do you feel at home in a new college? want to move again? I feel like you have a problem, please tell me. Don't blame your good looks, son." He tried to advise.

"Can I be not handsome??? if I could, then I'd do it and I'd have a normal life like everyone else." Juna started to get excited.

"Mother...why can't I make a sincere friend? let alone getting a lover who loves me for who I am..." Juna started to open up all the feelings he harbored. He shed tears that even he was unaware of.

The mother felt sad to see Juna's attitude that seemed frustrated.he felt he had to do something to eliminate that feeling in Juna.

"I'm sorry, at the age of 21, I can't be mature.I can't even handle the girls." said Juna resigned.

"It's not your fault, son. I really understand what you feel. Now it's up to you, what you want to do. But don't do anything stupid and to the detriment of your own life." His mother's advice was to pat him on the shoulder and leave Juna smiling.

"You're our only child, so mom and dad won't pressure you or limit your life. Live the way you want and find your own happiness. One thing to remember, don't forget your job to replace your father at CeSt (a big company engaged in Garment)." Said the mother with certainty and believed that Juna would be fine after the conversation.

Juna nodded and smiled. "thank you very much mother.." said Juna calmly.

The mother finally returned to her room, and Juna started to be alone again. It also dissolves in the daydream.

"Handsome \= Not handsome,

Beautiful \= Not beautiful,

Rich \= Not rich

Smart \= Not smart.

That is the law of nature. There's always the opposite.why don't I think like that long ago!!!!" Juna said like he got a fresh breeze. The result of his reverie and theory.

After he got the brilliant idea, Juna quickly headed for his study table. Without thinking, he opened his laptop. He looked very serious and was looking for something in there. Every second his heart pounded as if he were trying to get himself out of a cage, he struggled to breathe the air of freedom. Her beautiful eyes were unceasingly staring at the laptop screen. His hands seemed to have been very flexible holding the mouse and laptop keyboard.

"Yes.this is my choice!" He murmured with certainty and certainty.

Juna looked at various online shops selling cheap and slightly less good clothes. "Yes! I can use it!" Juna. He also rushed to his special clothing room and searched for the right clothes and accessories or supporting mailing lists.

"While I can use this jacket! yes this does not look flashy! yep! exactly!" yell again.

A lot of time spent in the room, in the end he was sleepy and shed tears. Juna immediately looked at the wall clock in his room.

"It's 3 o'clock in the morning." he murmured limp.

After that he got out of his chair and immediately headed to the bed. Rushing to sleep because the lecture time will start in the morning around 08.00.

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"I hope, in the morning, it will be a new beginning for me."

- Juna