GAZELS

Disappointment Himself

Ashana P.O.V

The days went well. I don't believe it, it's been a year since the departure of Ammi and Appa who until now have no news. The search for the authorities has been stopped, and at this time both of my parents are pronounced dead.

It hurts but what can I do. I can only get all the escorts and people I've worked with to find my parents. Even Delvin was looking for my parents.

This morning, I went back to what I had been doing for a year.

Geck! Geck! Geck!

The door opened, and Delvin walked in with a smile on his face and food in his hand.

"Darling, you haven't had breakfast yet, have you? Let's eat first. I don't want you to relapse" Delvin said as he opened his food box.

"Yes by, I'll eat okay. What are you here for? What is college? It's the fifth semester. Are you sure you don't want to go to college?" ask me. "No, I went to college online.

"Certain hotel? You're not handling that?" ask me again which makes Delvin sigh. "You want me to go, just say it. Don't do everything like that. I'm leaving" said Delvin.

I was immediately speechless to see my fiancee who suddenly became annoyed just because I asked like that.

"Darling? Hey? By?" call me but Delvin's been a long way. I ran straight after him. Because I'm wearing Heels, my legs can't run fast. Immediately, I removed the heels I was wearing.

"Stupid Heels! **** Off!" I was running after Delvin.

When I got to the front of the elevator, I pressed the button in a hurry. Until I finally fell silent when I heard a whistle right from behind me.

"That's a big deal you ran away from her. Good thing I don't have heels" said the man. When I looked, it was Delvin.

I hugged her tightly. He also returned my embrace. "Why chase me, Na?" delvin asked, which surprised me.

The na? The na? Who'sis that? Does he know my true identity?

"Na? Who's that by?" ask me to pretend to be confused. "Ashana. Gania Ashana Khan." Answer Delvin. I was immediately shocked when I heard him mention the name of my real identity.

"Why are you surprised, baby? Your name is Gazel, right?" his words made me silent. I could see his cynical smile and his glare looking at me sharply.

"Could-can his gw in deceit same girl model kayak lo. God fucking. I'm disappointed in you!" delvin said while crying with his cynical smile.

"Vin, can I explain okay. From the beginning I also wanted to be honest but-" said I was immediately cut by him.

"But I'm afraid of hurting you. Is that what you're gonna say? You have hurt me, Shana! You've earned my trust!" he said, clutching my cheek and violently throwing it away.

I began to cry and could only be silent to see the man I loved crying because of my lies.

"Gw is your fiancee, Vin. I have the same Gazel. But my name is different." I said. "Shut the****off! I just love Gazel. Not for Ashana. I have lied in gw. How many scams are there?" her question only made me cry.

"Right! I must have been lo cry because you have been living with someone you do not love. You just until nyamar like this is definitely a feeling you also disguise. Ha ha! Stupid, I'm!" he said while laughing.

I chose to hold her hand even though she kept throwing my hand. "Don't hold me. You're not Gazel. I'll be angry" said Delvin, crying.

"Vin, dengerin. Other than the identity I've been hiding, everything that's happening is not a lie. The feelings, the heart, and all the memories are not lies." I said quietly while holding my cry.

"I feel so bad to see your face, Shana! GODDAMN IT!" Umpat.

Bruk!!

He punched the wall right near my head. I could only cry and she hugged me.

"Originally you know, Na. First time I love the girl. And now the first time I can't know someone I love. Okay, I'm saying goodbye. I'm a part of all your life's affairs. I'm saying goodbye!" the word I answered the arm.

"Vin, Stay please. I Need You." I said as I hugged her with tears. He hugged me back and stroked my hair gently.

"Gw needs time. It's not easy to believe the same. But I tried. Now, I need some alone time. Thank you for being someone valuable to me even if it's full of lies. Now, I'm free of all ties. You're not a girlfriend, not even a future wife. I'm free from all our relationships okay. You should be able to continue well even though I am not next to you. You must know, the soul mate will come at the right time. You believe in god, right? You have to believe everything you want" she said, which made me cry.

"Gw farewell." said he let go of our embrace.

The elevator door opened, and he entered the elevator. While I can only cry bitterly while staring at the closed elevator.

Trudgingly, I stepped into the room and saw a bucket of flowers and two boxes of food. I also took the flower bucket, my gaze shifted when I saw there was a letter in it.

- On Letter

Hello dear, I think this is the last letter I can give you. The truth that I felt was a lie all along. Why sweetheart? Is that hard to be honest with me? It's okay, I'm saying goodbye. I hope you can be fine without me next to you. Love You, Gazel a.k.a Ashana.

From Delvin

the End Letter

My tears started to drip. My chest felt tight, considering that right now, his trust was gone.

Immediately, I called my three best friends. Withstanding the cries, sura ringing sounded. And finally, one by one my best friends picked up the phone from me.

"Hallo, Na? Why beb?" asked Flora who made me cry immediately.

"Na? The shana? Lo why na? Na dong Na replied, don't cry Na." Youra said in panic. "Guys, all of it's ancur!" I said while holding back the cry.

"Destroyed? What destroyed Na? Why lo?" ask Bella. "Delvin." I said slowly. "Why Delvin Na?" ask Youra.

"He knows my identity!" I said while crying. "What does he do, Na?" ask Bella.

"He was disappointed, Bell. He's crying, he's angry. He was disappointed just like me. He even said that he was free from all ties between me and him." I said while crying sobbing.

"Let me talk to Delvin. You calm yourself down." said Youra. "Don't, he's disappointed as much as that's his right. I can't ask him to come back, because I'm sick of him." I replied while crying slowly.

"We're there" said Flora. "Mmhhhh I can't guys mmmhhh gw again ah outside" said Bella who made me confused. Why child?

"Jaudah if that. We both got together. I'll take Hiko. Flo, bring Arthur. Let's clear to them. If you can get Lucio. Let there be no more misunderstandings" Youra said.

After my phone connection turned off, I looked at the two boxes that Delvin had brought. I saw above the boxes a letter. When I opened it was written 'Don't forget to eat dear. I don't want you to get sick. Love You's.'

My crying is getting louder. It feels so sad, doesn't it? At times like this, the people I love leave me. The ammi? Appa? Where're y'all? Shana needs you!