From Beast to Beauty

Eps. 04 Suicide.

Until I took my bag that fell off earlier and got out of the toilet. I walked slowly and limply down the hallway of the classroom. Now the school looks lonely because the students have gone home as well as the teachers. Maybe there are only people in charge of cleaning the school area and security guards who are still in the school. I walked while looking forward and my gaze was blank. My eyes started to look glassy.

" Lina if you were alive, if I had a problem you would be by my side.." Mumbles.

" Lina I miss you. You used to say that I had a problem you told me to sing, right? to pour it all out..iya right Lina?" Mumbled again.

I used to have one friend who was loyal to me Her name was Alina Nova Diandra. He was always by my side and we were friends since Elementary School, he accepted my flaws and always cheered me on. But unfortunately on May 5 during Lina's 8th grade Junior High, Lina died from heart attack that she suffered since childhood. Since then I have always been alone.

My mind started to think of my best friend Lina I walked without direction while imagining Lina. then I started singing like Lina's message before she died.

" Risa when you have a problem and I'm not there and there's no one by your side then please. That way I'm always in your heart "

Lina's message before she died to me. Then I reflexively sang while imagining the figure of Lina who was always by my side.

🎵You laugh when I meet you

And you still do it🎵

🎵Remember when I was your precious eye

Your focus is still the best place I've ever been🎵

🎵But nothing stays the same

Refs :

Oh someday and might🎵

🎵Cross the road when we are on the same side

Just to skip "How are you?" " I am doing fine"🎵

🎵But I will love you my whole life

And this heart won't erase you🎵

🎵This heart won't erase you

I sing songs like Lina used to sing them if I had a problem.

"Hiks..hiks..hiks "Corn.

'Why am I doomed with a face that is ugly and imperfect like sister Rena...I want to live my normal life... I've always been bullied what's my fault?' My mind is interrupted between my cries.

Then without me realizing I was on the roof of the school, I opened the door to the roof of the school and walked forward slowly, fill my mind empty I continue to walk until only a few meters away I can fall down and plus the roof of the school that there is no barrier.so just step forward continue I can fall

downwards. This is the roof of the top floor school of Brawijaya High School anyone who falls from the top of this building will surely die because the head that can be hit very hard.

When a few centimeters I could fall from the top floor I had a chance to say something.

" Lina I'll catch up with you.and I'm sorry Mom's father and sister Rene also hope you guys are happy always "Say me softly.

Then one more step I can fall from the top floor. Suddenly someone pulled my hand from behind so hard that I fell backwards.

BRUKK...

" Heyy Elo don't papa "Say someone. Yet I only faintly heard it because my mind had been blank.

"Heyy Elo wants to die what? elo is stupid, yes, what is the stain" he said again. My tears broke again.

" It even cries out "he said.

" I'M SICK OF BEING TREATED LIKE THAT!!!I'M SICK OF BEING BULLIED ON CHARGES AT KATAIN I'M SICK OF BEING AVOIDED CONSTANTLY!!! EVEN I AM SICK OF THIS LIFE!!!HYX...HICK..." I said while shouting.

" I'M SICK OF IT BEING SO SICK... UNTIL I FEEL LIKE DYING!!!" Say it again.

" IT'S NOT FAIR... WHY AM I DESTINED TO BE LIKE THIS...I JUST WANT A NORMAL LIFE!!!HICK..." I said while shouting loudly enough.

Then someone hugged me. he took me into his arms.I had time to think when was the last time I felt warm in the hug.

" Cry as much as possible get all the "Whispers into my ears.

I immediately cried as hard as it was even more so. But people I didn't know kept hugging me and even stroking my hair that was still wet from being drowned in the WC earlier.

Eps. 04 Suicide is over...

To be continued....