Friends of the Future
a crowded park yet feels empty
Today in the park...
Although five...
Walaupun taman ini ramai tapi ntah kenapa aku merasa bahwa aku disini sendiri...
I am here again alone sitting in a semi-circular chair enjoying the wind and the quiet atmosphere of the park that is not so broad while listening to the song To my youth the song is very comfortable if you listen in a quiet place like this without tears falling hahaha I cried it turns out sorry for myself because I am too fragile and always take you to the most painful point sorry yes...
What do I imagine here until I cry if I disappear someday do you want to wait for me until I come back?I want to go somewhere that can show me people's sadness" and people's happiness" and I'm in the middle of that place one side of me is happy and the other one is sad this feeling is what?A fantasy?No. This is not a place full of fantasy, this place is full of reality...
The afternoon sun has appeared now so beautiful but not as beautiful as the story of my life, I am only a poet and amateur writer who feels the bitterness of life and I wrote it in this book,you know when the sun shows the light I feel happy and also sad,I was happy because the sunlight illuminated my life for at least 12 hours while sad because people I knew from friends to family were not my eyes...
The sun was actually far away but with its rays it could light up all over the place, while my friends and family were close but they became the moon instead of my eyes, becoming ice that scared me to ask and talk...
At this height I want to fall because I want to feel a miracle that is without feeling...
Whether it's a sense of love pleasure or whatever it is I want to feel it like a statue made by humans there is no sense of empathy if it is damaged and the fragments hit others and can be damaged at any time it is desirable that the owner can be replaced if the owner is tired of how happy my life is like it has no heart...
My heart has become a rock now, I know someone who says he doesn't have a heart but I think he still has it even if not completely,he's a man who is easy to change like the weather that is now bright and now dark may want to rain...
**all of a sudden it rains very heavily people are running around looking for a place to shelter from the heavy rain...
while me?I just sat quietly in that semi-circle enjoying the rain...
*some people are talking about me
"what is he doing in the rain like this?"
"is he heartbroken?"
"he's gone mad"
yes I'm crazy!my inner
someone came up to me holding an umbrella so I wouldn't rain...
I looked up and he smiled...
"why are you here?, why not take shelter?"ask him to me...
"why do you care about me?why not like humans who can only talk like them (no empathy)" I asked him...
"hahaha I know what you're feeling so just relax I'm not like the human you're saying it is" she replied with a laugh...
"you**"I replied with a sniffle...
"a broken heart?"his tan...
"you kept asking, you irritated me" you answered in a resentful tone...
you imagine in the middle of the heavy rain there are people who ask continuously and pretentiously do you not feel irritated?...
"can't he just shut up?"my inner
"hehehe sorry, oh yeah what's your name?"he asked again...
I just rolled my eyeballs (lazy)...
"introduce my name Gio" he said...
"bizarre male basics"my inner...
"you don't want to tell me your name?"he asks...
"Vina" I answered accordingly
"a good name, but not as good as my name" he replied with the PD
"let's take shelter!"bring
"yes" I replied lazily*
title: a strange man
(1-November-2020)
Lubuk Pakam, North Sumatra
