
"I know, I'm not an attractive woman in your eyes, maybe even in the eyes of others, I admit, I'm a careless girl. But you know, all this time I've always tried to be the moon for you, who always try to shine your dark, trying to always be there for you, even when you never consider my presence there. I know, you know how I feel. Yes, Aditya, you are right, I love you, my love is vast, even beyond the vastness of the ocean. I never asked you to repay my race. But in fact, just to allow me to love you seems reluctant. Aditya, please allow me to just love you. Give me a chance, I'm sure I can make you love me"
"Hey! what are you gonna say?" Aditya waved in front of Maudy.
Maudy also realized from his delusion. Maudy wants to tell Aditya what he really feels. But he realized when he did that, he would only get hurt again. Maudy tries hard to remember the bad things Aditya has, but everything is free, no matter how hard he tries. The more he thought about it, the more he loved Aditya.
"Ee-ee, sorry. (silent for a moment) hmmmm ... I stopped, yes I stopped here, I know you understand what I mean" Maudy's eyes glazed over and kept trying hard.
Hearing Maudy's words, Aditya did not know to be happy or sad. All he knew at this moment was that his heart was very sick, like it had been pierced by a sharp thorn. As if not believing this will happen, unwillingly, the person he loves decides to stop loving him. Aditya tries hard to cover up his feelings, by staying calm.
"Hmm? she mean? stopped?"
"Yes, I stopped being a prankster in your life, I stopped stalking you, I stopped admiring you (and her tears fell down) ..... I stopped loving you"
Finally the long-simmering tears flowed down her cheeks, Maudy wiped the tears with her fingers and left Aditya dead.
Aditya was speechless lamenting the current state of affairs, his heart filled with doubt and hope, as he gazed towards the girl he loved walking away from him, who either he would return or not. Aditya's wounds should be more painful, because he can only hold what he feels.
His mind was flashback, considering how he felt when he saw Maudy first come to the coffee shop. His unique way of enjoying coffee is able to make Aditya smile and start to pay attention to it, until finally starting to admire it.
***
Along the way Maudy is just pensive, in fact she's not even ready, accepting the fact that she has to stay away from the people she loves.
"Eyy, shits! sampe neng, daydreaming, new tau kambet, don't be weird luu" While lowering the glass helmet Maudy.
Maudy realized from his delusion "haha, don't dong na, stop by first don't you?"
"No, thank you, it's a malem"
Maudy walked toward the door slowly, pulled out the key in her totebag, and opened the door.
"Eh, dy" said Diana as she shouted to Maudy. Maudy looked at Diana. "Excite yes, what you did earlier already" gave a thumbs up and smiled.'
Maudy did not reply, she only smiled lightly back at Diana's words. Maudy was very upset that night, she looked dazed and lost her spirit. He felt that this world was unfair, in his heart wondering why life was so hard for a fat person like him. Even to love someone cannot.
Maudy cried loudly with her face covered in pillows.
Soon, it rained, as if knowing his heart and also sad for him. That night, Maudy's mind was very unsettled and became unsettled. He wanted to end his life because he felt his life was meaningless.
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[Diana: I keep your mind up, are you okay? I know you must be sad again beb, but once in a while don't ever blame yourself huh! especially until you want to end your life, your Inget is valuable, Remember there are parents who always love you, and remember there is always me who is ready always ready you bother hehehehe. Do not sleep malem-malem, if only enough! goodnightt].
"The child is like a psychic, yes, know what I think" Maudy said in his heart. After reading the message from Diana Maudy opened the Aditya whatsapp contact she kept yesterday, looking at her profile photo, continue to monitor the last seen (last seen) in her heart deepest hope aditya immediately contact her and apologize.
"Well, that's impossible, I still hope! ayoo maudy you can, you can, you can" put down the phone and try to make a little peace with his heart. Maudy finally fell asleep with her eyes open.
***
While closing the door of Rendi's shop Aditya's friend invites Aditya to chat.
"Bro, I'm so grateful, has a rare species of tea like lo. Hard to guess, I'm aja this yes who has been the same day, like you have failed to understand you deh. I guess ni ya, lo it's like the fat screech, from your view to him, lo attitude, let alone fitting he fainted yesterday, you freaked out so much bro. But your attitude was like a difference, no longer understand. My advice bro, if you like it, just say it, later lo nyesal. First yes" walked towards his parked vehicle not far from where they were standing.
Aditya was silent to Rendi's words, but did not respond to the words of his friend. Aditya daydreams all the way, all he thinks about is Maudy. Aditya then turned the road further to get to his house, where the road would pass through Maudy boarding. He was very worried about Maudy's current state.
His heart was devastated, seeing Maudy's tears falling because of him. Aditya feels very guilty about it. He thought, how could he be the reason, why the girl he loved was crying, he was very sorry about that, but what Aditya was doing right now was not without reason.
***
Upon Aditya's arrival at home he is greeted by his younger sister Selly. Aditya lives alone with his sister, both of his parents died as a result of an accident. Now all responsibility passes on Aditya's shoulders as the firstborn.
"Abang, why?" with an astonished face Selly asked Aditya
"why, what?" aditya answered while stroking his sister's head.
"so bad, like a breakup, or maybe not....."
"don't-don't what?" looking at Selly with a serious face
"hehe, there's no bang. Why did you get home 10 minutes late? lest the street brother yes same girl who was painted in the room of the brother. What's the name forget, hmmmm"
"Maudy"
"Yep, that's right. Brother Maudy".