Family Burden

beginnings...

This is my second pregnancy with my first child who is still very toddler, yes, I did not delay pregnancy but it was not expected so soon because my fertility and my husband's gala were good.. I do not regret this as well as the blessing and mercy of Allah I am grateful because there are many women out there who want children. From the beginning of my marriage my husband and I decided to choose to live with my parents, more precisely my father because my mother was abroad for so long that my husband and I decided stay with him until we have a baby does not feel almost 2 years more we live with my father, he said, our life is very simple and happy my husband and I have a joint business that is a business that sells design and printing services such as wedding invitation, screen printing, souvenirs, banner printing, photos etc.. it was not realized that I was pregnant again, this second pregnancy only realized when the gestational age had entered the 2nd trimester should either be surprised or not until the battery asked for advice to one of my friends named imelda " say, I'm pregnant again "what did I say to her? (Surprised him) Oh Allah besti (called him if he called me) really?? He replied. "yes, at first I did not expect but a few weeks ago I thought and worried because I was late in the month I finally tried to buy a test pack, it turns out line two ". " Alhamdulillah besti congratulations yaa "welcome thrown from imelda my friend. " But I'm confused say, yes how not to confuse my first child is not even 1 year". " Thank you, besti, I know it's a little heavy but rest assured God will know you can". Imelda my best friend encouraged me not to go down, I finally delivered this news to my husband. " Sister, call me to my husband "yes baby "he replied, I didn't say anything at first but showed him a test pack, "is this dear" ask me whether he pretended not to understand or want me to say directly . I breathed big because it was a little heavy saying "I'm pregnant again bang ". I answered, then he shut up and let out a long sigh as well, I don't know what he's thinking, "you sure baby". Ask "iya bang, that's already my brother saw the test pack evidence for himself". I was afraid that she would be angry because she couldn't keep from getting pregnant again because our first child was a child, but what's on my mind is not entirely my fault either and I don't know if there's a surprise like this, finally we accept this fortune God willing we can live it because God's destiny is never wrong, I don't know I'm always afraid I will not be able to finance my son2 because actually this self is not ready. The next day my husband and I planned to go to the house of in-laws to tell them this news, at first they were just as shocked as we were , but this is also called unexpected sustenance and they end up also happy to accept this pregnancy, she said, but there was a decision that made this heart a little disappointed because the decision was to leave my father and have to stay with my father-in-law on the grounds that no one was looking after me while pregnant like this because there was none the female parents in my parents' house, not unwilling to live with the in-laws, but the bond of a child and a parent if they want to separate even though the distance is not far also must be sad, too, there was a sense of relief also because my husband was also happy to live with his parents, in the third year of our marriage, we had lived with my husband's parents, he said, the business we built is still running somewhat lonely because of the sudden world uproar due to the virus named CORONA virus, our efforts are a little quiet even several times for our needs are helped by their parents. Pregnancy entering the 4th month thank God goes well, the situation at home in-laws is also good just no obstacles, no obstacles, but there is something strange with this stomach and people around also feel because the size of the stomach is greater than the time of pregnancy of the first child even though the gestational age is still 4 months. I tepis their words from the examination results midwife said my content is healthy just no problem. Up to 2 months passed the stomach feels heavy because it will enter the 3rd trimester me and my husband plans to do an ultrasound examination because he really wants to know the gender of our child later, and my husband plans to do the ultrasound examination, the doctor I went to was still the same as the doctor who handled our first child,