Fake Love !!

Strange Feelings

CHAPTER 19

Pov Mutia's

The day is passed with the burden of the mind, forced by such short circumstances. A very short life after my father's death. Mentally destructive, but my brother Fadil and I survived because of the message that my father once said.

"Staying forward despite being very challenging ".

This world feels stopped, when I have to be ready to accept the harsh reality, left behind a father with a mother situation does not care for his children. I want my father back, but he'll never come back and it's impossible just a dream, wanting to have a father, like everyone else's father. A father who can hear my hopes and worries.

******

"Usually someone is upset with the life faced because they feel disappointed or the effort undertaken so far ends in vain. This sense of disappointment can increase when people around you do not provide support or even throw negative comments that drop you.

Yep, life is not always happy. Sometimes we have to learn what it means to be disappointed. Feelings of sadness and disappointment are also important for our lives, it can provide a lesson about the views of others and also a sense of sincere acceptance of results. Because not all the results we receive will be in accordance with what we imagine.

Even so, do not let us or you feel like the only one who suffers the most lives on this earth. You are not alone, many people also feel unfair in life. You can feel sad, disappointed, even cry.

Expressing feelings can relieve stress and also minimize the risk of depression. Tell your problem to a friend, psychologist, or someone you believe can provide positive energy."

Signed, Mutia August 30, 2014

I write just to spill a little bit of a stifled taste in the heart.

This night of*** was so empty, like my empty heart hehe.. When I wanted to get out of class to breathe a little air, my steps were held back because of the familiar voice coming to class.

"Again to what is this?"  Bngkit Ustad.

"Learn ustad.." replied my friend.

"Where are you going mut?" Ask ustad Bngkit to me.

Finally I undo my intention to go out, I sit down again.

Why did you arrive my heart gk because.

Ustad got up telling us to tear the paper and prepare a pencil or pen, when he was told to draw a cat. I don't know what that means. But ift Bngkit is very fond of random making the santri comfortable to make whether it is while studying or consulting. For ordinary physical. Not good looking is not bad.

After drawing the cats one by one examined by him. When it's my turn.

"You're kind, dramatic, easy to think of." Ustad Rise.

"Huh??" My words don't believe.

So did all my friends read her cat pictures by her.

"Must be strong in the life of Mutia." Say it again.

I don't know what this strange feeling is, why it feels like the heart wants to be dislodged.

Teeett....

Doorbell ***night is done. Remembering my laundry a lot, I hurriedly cleaned the book with my stationery.

When you want to step..

Buggh !!

"Squealing my feet" I said softly.

Stumbling??" Ask ustad Rise, some friends laugh at me. Malunye....

"Ga papa tad, . excuse me" I said and passed.

"Mut. wait, stay with napa" Afteri chased after me.

"I want to wash this, you usually have to grab a faucet." I said and half ran.

"Badaqi na'am (after you yes )" Afni said from a distance.

I made a circle ok like the index finger met the thumb of the hand.

"Ck. mutia unloadi, hadehhh vow of shame on the me, why use the show hit the chair all the way"

Along the way to the dormitory, I was constantly talking to myself how embarrassed I was, why should everything hit the chair there was a wake up anyway.

Santri santri saw me who like the way to talk to himself.they may see I ngomng rich gini must have thought I was stressed.haha.. In part why I was able to see that in front of the Ustad rise, very strange feelings. Huft calm down, I need to calm down.

Arriving at the dormitory, I also happened to hold the gate key, making it easy for me to break through to the bathroom to occupy the water faucet.

I put the bucket that I have named, so that the santri who wants to interject can see my name first. All equipment I give the name as big as possible, so as not to happen scoop scoop, or the term take without permission. It can also be called stealing.

In the boarding house who quickly he can get. Because the bathroom faucet is not much, and there was a struggle with each other, waiting in line, even ever to fight because of the seizure of the bathroom or faucet.

"Awwww.wrt..." I said when suddenly someone pulled my hand hard enough and made me take 3 steps back.

"I'm here first!!" Mia raised her voice. Mia my classmate the new student.

That's where I can see who's pulling my hand. I'm not a weak man to bluff. And his bluff doesn't scare me. Here we were noisy, so some santri turned to us.

"Limadza ukhti? (why ukhty ? )" asked Afni who appeared at the main door of the bathroom and approached me.

"Ana prefix huna afni, hadha alrajul yuthir dajatan!! (i'm here first, you know, this is a fuss!! ) I said annoyed.

"Afwan ya Mia, Mutia prefix. Labasa anti tobur ba'di." (sorry yes Mia, Mutia first, ga papa ya ya ngantri after me.) Saying calmly.

Mia stomped her feet, upset then she went somewhere. Maybe go to mars.huft.

Honestly, I don't know what caused Mia to hate me, and this isn't the first time I've been treated like this, even a few days ago my bed was made wet by her.

I told the afni to call thisayah, to help me wash clothes, the three of us have their own parts, such as washing clothes, ironing only Afni, because Afni strong stay up. Sometimes we work together.

I almost forgot my shirt. I also included a shahidah dress shirt for me to wash, but was separated because there was blood scabies wound.

Thank God until now I wash the martyr's clothes, I did not contract the slightest thing about the pain even I never smell fishy or pus. All that is said by people I patis so that Allah SWT keep my sense of smell and strengthen my endurance.

Finish washing me and thisayah carries the bucket to the fourth floor clothesline. Outside the base of the shekali from the first floor up to the fourth floor, blum the stairs are lumyan long.

"Heavy weight.bentar stop first" I said.

"Ha. ha. ha. ha. tired ye. yuk cap cus.." said inayah. We returned to lift the bucket and arrived at the 4 hours of santriwati.

Huft. quite loh if every day must be gout.

Me and thisayah hang clothes, sometimes we joke and seriously to finish quickly. After drying my clothes and Innayah mengju Afni who was ironing.

As usual we stayed in the clothesline, accompanying Afni. All kinds of snacks and drinks have been prepared so that we do not sleep, but still we finally fell asleep until Afteri woke me and Innayah.