FADED Alum In My Love Story

From A Friend Who Hates Turning Into A Person Who Is Very Loved

And this is my story....

When I first entered Junior High, I started to grow up. But I was still naive at the time. I am still afraid of the environment around my school. Never mind the school environment, my classroom environment is still scared. Want to hang out with my classmates I am still embarrassed.(haha.cupu really yes I :) .) . But mostly that is. The 7th grade disciple was likely still shy.

But as time went on, I've started adapting to everything. I also started to have a crush on my upperclassman. I'm starting to get memen maen. Because at that time I was very innocent, I also got a quiet peace . Name's Rima. I'm everywhere the same as him. To the library, to the bathroom, to the field, to the mushola, the subject where he is. But I'm the same she rarely goes to the cafeteria or out of school for snacks. He rarely wants to be taken with him. And I well.in accordance with him, all ngirit money... But sometimes I also invite him to jail even though he does not want to but I force it.

"Rim, I haven't had breakfast."

"You're a snack alone, I don't want any more snacks because of it , later I also have to pay for motor parking"

"Let's just remember I paid for your snacks"

"Not bothering, I don't want to bother people". Said Rima.

He was that guy, kind of stubborn. But he's a smart kid. He got the first-place finish in my class.

Besides Rima, I actually also have 5 main themes, they are Anita,Andila, Axl Vika, Sabrina, and Khoirriyah. I'm friends with them but not very close. They are all good to me too. But there's something I don't like yet. Emm...name in secret yes..:) .

At the end of semester 2 there is a class exam. My grades are all above KKM and I am also still listed in the top 10. I was nervous whether I would go to the same class or not. I always prayed that I would still be in the same class and still be in the same class. But God does not want my prayers. Yes... TINGG.. I entered a different class .

" Well I'm in class here anyway, my grades are still good all, anyway my grades are the same my grades are still bugging my grades, yes I was in class here, after all, and he even went to class there "a protest in my heart.

Not only am I shocked by this unfair class division. My other friends were in shock too. Including Danu. Even though he was a general 2nd champion in the 7th class.

"What class are you in, Dan?", I asked Danu.

"A.a.a.a..I'm in Class B". Danu said with a stammering tone.

" When are you in which class?".

" Loh, how our fate is the same, even though you are a general champion, even here".

" Yes, I don't know either".

We can only go with all of this. Our class guardian has also explained that the division of the superior class this year is divided into 2 classes. I can only accept the teacher's decision. There's no problem I'm also in class B, 'cause most of my new class is my first class in grade 7. So I don't have to adapt much anymore to the new themes.

I'm in 8th grade and I'm starting to be confident. I'm kind of getting brave, chatty, and stuff. I also know her name is LOVE . Not only me, the other friends also know what love is. Well.just be taught that all of them already have HP, including me. HP has changed the personalities of us all. And because HP is also we all have felt what is love, romance, injury, broken heart huh....

I told you a little about how bad I was in 8th grade . I seem to be only made poly class by my friends . How not?! I just need them fit again hard. Just used as a shelter curhatan they doang. Da... I can keep a secret, so they all believe in me, if I don't leak their secrets. But the good part is not, if they have finished venting, I live so.I sometimes also do not have the theme. I'm alone. I'm lonely. I'm going there in peacocks. Come there at campa'in. Haahh . But I can still be patient with them, because they are my best friends.

Back to the laptop....

I'm in 8th grade already dares to date. Even if it's forbidden, but I'm still desperate. That's why I was dating her in secret. Haha.bandel very gw :v. I was dating a guy I knew through WA. I don't know why or how I didn't know at first. As I recall I created a group in WA and I added a lot of contacts to that group. Including the guy who was my girlfriend. I made that group because I was so stupid. I was put into the group not clear. And I made a group that was not clear either. Worse I make a group up to 4× , all names and contacts I enter into the group are the same. I'm ashamed of being amazing. I was bullied and checked into a group. OMG.. I was stupid (. But because of that group I also know AAN SETIWAN. He's really nice. I also often chatan with him. He made me feel comfortable. And well.we both like each other, so we finally dated.

At the beginning I dated Aan , there was already an awkwardness that was not sure . My HP is dead. We have difficulty communicating. And I'm confused about what to do. Luckily, there was my aunt. I pinch my aunt's HP to go to Aan if my HP is broken. I chatted him first.

"p"

"Hi An. Here I am Wardani, I'm sorry I just told you".

" You know how you're new online anyway, where am I worried about you, you disappear without news to me, continue this new hp kmu number?"

" Oh, I'm sorry I didn't know you, but I'm dead, and this is my aunt's number, this is my aunt's number"

"Hp your aunt in love with you?"

" No... I just pinjem doang bentar"

" Lah, how do we keep communicating if you die?"

" It will be easy later, I have a friend named Anita Febriana, you communicate with me through her alone, I believe in her".

" But I don't know her number, and I keep getting her number from where to try?"

"Emm..gimana ya....oh yes you have WA Atik right? You ask her, she has her number Anita, she's Atik's friend too".

" Yes, it will be easy. I'll ask Anita's WA to Atik".

"Okay, thank you, later I wait for your news, I want to go back first hpnya, already asked aunty this is about, already yes bay..."

" Yes, take good care of yourself.."

"Yes...".

Our conversation was enough to get there 'cause auntie's already got me back in. Tomorrow I meet in Anita and ask her for help. Thank goodness he wanted to help me. Thanks to him I was able to communicate again with Aan. I've been communicating with Aan for almost a month through Anita. Until finally Aan came home also from his monitor. I really want him to come home. She's auto making sure I meet .

The first time I met Aan, I ngajakin Anita same Tatik. Tatik is also my best friend. We also know for a long time. Although different from school but he is fun to play with.

Back to my meeting with Aan. I met Aan on the side of the road. I was nervous when he came from the opposite direction. OMG really handsome ^v^. That was my first meeting with a girlfriend. I was confused to say what he was. I seemed to melt with her charm. I swear I can't talk. He was also a pendiem. But sometimes he also asked me questions, but not much. After her question is finished well diem-diem an again. Because we just met maybe first, so still in shame hehe....

Aan was alone, and the three of me. Hah..had I brought temen, so I still no one is sure to chat. I'm the same they both laugh laugh indistinctly. Pick the leaves, pull the grass, well the tree is there-there's just the behavior of the three of us. Hmm the name is also still reasonable hehe....

"Aduuhhhh." cried Anita.

" You why nit?" tanya Tatik's.

" My hand is hit by a wooden thorn, sick...."

When playing twig Anita got thorn. Just a small wound, the blood didn't come out much either. But he insisted on buying plaster.

" Oilah is just a wound that is spoiled very, have already wiped his blood using your shirt, ntar also clog his blood". I'm between their conversations .

" Don't want, I want it in the plaster wrap, it hurts or even just a small wound, Come on Tik you anterin I'm looking for plaster, this was your fault too."

" What am I really nit...?" tatik sahut.

" Eh..eh..eh..you both want to leave me here alone, evil very you both.

" Iiihh...who said we want to leave you alone, there is still Aan, after all we only care...." . they played gas just left me with Aan.

" Eeehh.... Lu spielo yahhh." I shouted at them because they were some distance away.

There's not a word between the two of us. Anita Sama Tatik also long time no nongol-nongol .

" So he said just for a moment, how long they were, anyway" I muttered in my heart.

After a long time of waiting for their arrival, they finally returned as well. At that time Anita said that her boyfriend wanted to nyusulin us. He just became , so I was the one who told Anita to accept her boyfriend, so she did not play the big boy. Haha...

" Eh, my boyfriend is coming here, how?"

I was originally sitting, immediately stood up and answered Anita's question "Yes justin her here, all hafalin look on her face, you just met her once, you just met her once, I must have forgotten his face"

" Yes too, you asked him to come here..."

" Yes bawelll...."

Anita just so it . He's the same as his ex's deket friend. His name is Shafiul Kurnianto Brotherhood. He is handsome but unfortunately he is short. Sama Anita aja still high Anita, hehe.maaf yah fiul does not mean ngledek really, just tell her reality aja :) . But what can be said, the name is also love, not look physical is yes....

Because I'm getting tired of peacin, Aan said he wanted to go pick up the meeting.

" Hmm.bentar I'd like to pick up my friend first huh,"

" Take where ? Not far?,"

Ask Aan.

"Well, you're careful, yeah,"

Aan just threw a little smile at me and finally she left behind the three of us. We are just plonga-plongo kayak kebo there is nothing we have to do. Nungguin girlfriend Anita also long time no dateng. And instead of us joining them, I have an idea for them.

" How about if we follow Aan aja, he said earlier to the location from here,"

" Deket anyway deket, yes if you meet thankfulness, if not, dapet tired doang us," said Tatik rather lazy.

" It has not been found, either in search first, Nit you WA Aan dong tell you where he is," .

Anita then chat Aan let him tell you where the location is. But said Anita Aan does not want us to follow, he said afraid that we will stray do not know the way. Aan chose to go back to where we were. This time he brought temen, if not the wrong name Fendi. Fortunately, he had brought them, so he was not lonely anymore.

Hose a few minutes Syafiul dateng also. He brought a lot of friends. Busyeetttt.

" sent.bentar... I think I know one of them,"

from a distance Tatik saw someone who was no stranger to him. Youdha Andrean Pratama Tatik's ex-lover. He said he met youdha just dated. And this time he met again but he's an ex. Well.hmm....

" who do you know?"

" But let them come first, he's no stranger to it,"

"....." Anita thought silently.

" Oh, it's really, it's Youdha..." Spontaneous Tatik who was excited to see the person called Youdha earlier.

" Youdha? Who's tuh?",

" In my ex, I met him once on the deck of the village hall!," Tatik pointed north.

" Idiihh..it's an ex.huhh...." Anita sewot answered while laughing out loud .

After passing through the five of us, I think Shafiul as his army will stop at our deck. But he stopped far from where we were. The shafiul may be uncomfortable with Aan's existence. Whynot? Yeah, well, his own girlfriend's time goes with someone else. Maybe he thinks Aan's the same Fendi was his affair. So did Youdha, she thought they were both Tatik's girlfriends. So... Anita and Tatik deny and say that Aan and Fendi are not who they are. He said that I was just dating. Diih..git is very the same you bro me:( .

Because Syafiul does not want to deketin Anita. He's permission to go home, rather than do nothing?. Maybe she's also missing Aan's and Fendi's. Because he's spilled out with the three of us, he's willing to show off his abilities. He's trekking down the street. Syafiul with his shrewd he can track the same temen in his bonceng. But luck is not on your side. When he tried to track he failed and nungsep almost kissed the road. Haha.... Who told me to also doubt, that was the result. The five of us can only laugh from a distance. Pity him, but how else would he fault himself. Haha....

Today's meeting was not clear. Neither my meeting with Aan nor Anita's meeting with Syafiul. We are all still trying to connect with each other. Maybe because it's the first time too, so we can't all be sensitive yet.

After this grueling day, we all often walk together. We played together, joking with the subject why we were together. The good news also comes from Tatik. He can turn it back over with Youdha. Almost every day we meet. There are so many stories and memories that we get from there. Same place, same location. A place that is the shade of the likes and sorrows of the three of us. The place that we are accustomed to is anchored. (Ohh.... So sweet  ³). From then on I began to discover my new life and changed drastically from my former personality. I who used to be quiet now I start naughty:( .

Lebaran is almost here. Everyone who is in the average distance goes to his hometown. Including my brothers. They returned from Jakarta. Their existence is pressing me more and more. Clear ! I can't get out of the house freely. In addition, a long vacation after the final exam of semester 2. I'm afraid my family knows that I've been with guys. I'll definitely be in a massive rage i. I also can't walk anymore with Anita and Tatik. Especially with Aan?? Huhh... Nihil !!. The one hanging from my toge tree :v .

My fears and worries haunt me every day. I'm not calm about all of this. I'm afraid someone knows that I'm hiding something. And it's true. My anxiety all this time happened too. The secret I was well hiding was unexpectedly revealed. Nagging after nagging sounds deafening. And what I didn't expect, the same sentence my family all said "Want to learn your naughty?!". I can't do much . I can only shut up and cry in my heart. For a moment I thought, yes.. It's true that I've changed a lot.

The class trip this time was very unpleasant. I just stay at home. Although it coincided with the day of Eid, but I was lazy to leave the house. Do not go for a walk with family or friends. Go to my brother's place I don't want to follow. It's not that I'm lazy to be with my relatives, it's just that I want to calm myself down. But I'm not at home too lazy. Well because I have HP again, so I can still communicate with Aan again. Although I did not meet him directly, but at least I can still chat with him.

Since I was still curious about Youdha and Shafiul, I asked for their contact with Anita. Fortunately, I could get to know them even more. When I chatted the two of them, Eh. Diha... Males is me. Mending I chatan aja same Aan, Tatik, and Anita, Rather than chatan the same Youdha and Shafiul not in response.

My wait finally came, my boring vacation ended as well. When I went to school, I told Anita a lot. I confided in this. Anita was also the same, telling the things she did during the holidays. Anita's story looks fun, while mine? Boro" seneng, senep there:( . Coinciding with that day as well, I got an amazing surprise from Echa. Eca's my best friend too. He came me and Anita.

" Uh... And... You know what??"

" What's Cha' about'?"

" I have some amazing news"

" What the hell are you, who obviously dong, what's the news?"

" That's your boyfriend Aan, he cheated on Azka in our first class!"

"What?! Aan Cheated on Azka?!, which is really you, lie cha' you don't do it!" My blood is rising on the pentok. I was shocked and shocked.

" Why do I lie to you, ask them yourself if you don't believe" .

I stopped by Anita's house and asked Aan about Echa's words. But Aan doesn't want to. I'm not lacking sense either. I'm trapping the girl. I pretended not to know Aan and asked Azka about their relationship. And true, Azka claimed there was a relationship with Aan. After he confessed without a long thought, he immediately got angry at Azka.

"Heh.... Lu tikung girlfriend cave. Dare to be. Little has become a destroyer of people's relationships, gedhe what do you want to be?!" I said with heat.

" I stabbed your girlfriend?? Not wrong??? Aren't you the one who wanted me to be her boyfriend?"

"Ehh you've become PHO songong again. What were you talking about ?! You know what about the cave relationship with Aan?!. You just know Aan kemaren afternoon and you also just became his girlfriend yesterday! You know what huh?! Gua has been dating Aan for more than 2 months. And you with a pretentious caveman who snatched your girlfriend?!. Got a face like you! Think dong!" .

" Well, she said, Aan doesn't have a boyfriend. Her boyfriend he's cheating on her with another guy. It means you were the one who cheated on him first. Where did I try it wrong?"

" Did you say the cave was cheating?? Heh lu brat keep your word yes! If you don't know, don't talk too much! Cave never cheats on cave girlfriends! Understand no! It's just cheap!"

"How come you're that angry anyway? You ask Aan if she chooses who, me or you?"

"Not much to say, look out, the cave will not be revenge kok lo, but the cave will always remember, the happiness of the cave was never destroyed because of you! And the law of karma still applies, you will feel more pain than the cave feels today! Inget is fine!"

My anger exploded. It hurts! It hurts so bad. I can't do anything after that. Crying until the sound is not out. You can imagine how much disappointed it is. But even so I still can't take Aan off just like that. Because I think he might still want to fight with me. But reality is not as sweet as expectation. Aan is still in a relationship with Azka. I was disappointed there. And in a semi-conscious state, I slashed my own hand with a cutter in front of Anita and her sisters. Form letter by letter and string them into words that say AAN. Blood came out, but I did not feel the slightest pain. Maybe my heart ache was deeper than the incision in my hand. Anita and her sister didn't think I'd do such a senseless thing. Anita was also furious with my stupid behavior that still wanted to hang with Aan even though she had repeatedly hurt me.

" You want to be enslaved in love. Why are you still busy thinking about him? Have you been hurt repeatedly? Why still survive? Don't you think the same about your own situation? She didn't think of you" Anita told me.

I don't answer much . In short, I said I didn't want to lose the person I love. And bad news I heard from Tatik. He was cut off with Youdha. I don't know much about the problem. But Anita said she was cut off by Youdha because of Tatik's selfishness. He often lashed indistinctly at Youdha. And Tatik also often broke Youdha with trivial problems. Yet Youdha still remained patient with Tatik's attitude. But this time Youdha could not stand the same behavior of Tatik. He decided on the grounds that he wanted to calm down. I tried to calm Tatik down. Even though I myself have been crushed, but I do not want to see my friends feel sad.

I just hold my sadness alone. Sometimes I tell you the same thing, too. Eh.. it turns out he is cool also in chat with. I didn't expect it, at first I thought he would just continue to be the same as me. But it turns out not. He even became interested in me every day. I told Youdha a lot about Aan. Youdha support me continue to be passionate. I don't know why I feel comfortable with Youdha. For a moment I forgot about Aan. Until in the end I was just an ordinary human, and I also had a sense of fatigue, I made up my mind to break off my relationship with Aan. But I am not sad to lose him. Because I have special people who can entertain me. Yes, exactly Youdha and his friends. At that time there were 3 people I pinned in WA. One of them is Youdha. And the other 2 temen decetnya. I'm a little lost my mind, when one close friend in all pdkt-in. Hahah. One of them really likes me. Name's Herman. He shot me that night, when he said that I wanted to be in the same match, Yongen Saputra. His name is unique, funny too. But if I didn't know the truth, because I've never met. I don't know what demon possessed Herman at the time. It was amazing, but before she never cared for me. But suddenly he shot me. Well maybe he's lonely and needs friends, so what can I do to make him my girlfriend hehe.... But honey I'm the same Herman can't last long. Less than 5 days (. Not bosen, but I don't feel comfortable with him. He was too bodoamat to me. He is rich, he is not sincere with me. And the worse is that I'm dating Herman no love to him. But I feel more affectionate and more comfortable with him. Not Yongen. Yongen has been close to my best friend from little Yeni. Yeni is like my own sister. If not Yongen Means..... ? That is exactly Youdha. I feel like he's really nice to me. I also like his simplicity. He is not the type of guy who has a fixed attitude of judges. But he was very attentive. To the extent that I harbored love for her, but I was unable to express it.

In the end, what I never thought happened to me before. I didn't expect that Youdha would like me too. Duarrr. He told me not to be his girlfriend. Haduuhh. How no? I still have the status of dating Herman.

"I want to tell you something, can't I?" Youdha said via chat.

" Can you please why not ? what are you gonna say?"

"Emm.no, I'm ashamed"

" No papa, don't be shy"

"I really like you, YOU DON'T WANT TO BE MY GIRLFRIEND?"

" You serious? No lie, right?" I was surprised to be mixed happily there. Confused as to what to answer. I'm still dating Herman and he doesn't know that.

"Seriously, if you don't want to not papa, I don't mean, you also have a boyfriend ("

"No! I don't want to waste this opportunity. This is my hope. I don't want to lie about my feelings and her feelings. I have to be frank with him". My mumbling in heart. And there is no need for further ado I am frankly with Youdha.

"If I can be honest, I actually like you for a long time. And I also want to apologize to you, all this time I pinned your chat. I'm sorry I was so excited:( "

" No papa why I actually also embed your chat, sorry also yes I am not polite. You don't want to be my girlfriend?" ask Youdha once again. At the same time I chatted Herman and asked him to break up. He is aja. I apologize to him too. He knows that I sent him off for Youdha.

"Yes I want to be your girlfriend ^_^" I replied sincerely and happily.

"You really?seriously want to be with me?" Youdha looks really cool.

"Yes, I'm serious about lying to you"

"Thank you you for accepting me, I promise I will always be with you. Thanks well sayank (^^)♡"

"Yes sayank equally, I also thank you you already want the same I ^_^"

I received Youdha at night. Exactly on June 29, 2019. And he made his first story about me a video that told him about his new love and made his old story a mere embarrassment. He captioned *Rist❤* as a favorite call to me. I was so happy there. I feel like I've never been this happy before. And from that night it was all about Youdha. Starting from my info, wa profile, Story and others about Youdha. No one can escape from one name, Youdha. Youdha to me. Everything about me. We both always promise to be together through mutual grief and will always be faithful without presenting a third person.

My days have been full of color since Youdha. I did not expect, The first person I did not like his attitude, even now he is the person I am very afraid of losing him. This time I really don't want him to leave. I don't want to repeat what happened with Aan. I always hoped that Youdha would always be loyal to me at any time.