Dream Writers

Dream Writer: Chapter Four

Actually, the chapter this time should contain a sweet scene. Just because I'm again.Well sad so Males....

Ahh ah. happy reading.

I let him follow me. My heart rate starts to fall apart when I'm with him. The silence between us scared me. Afraid she could hear my heart. I don't feel like I've reached home. I opened my door and walked in, letting Ken stay outside. I know I'm rude, leaving guests outside but how about it. I'm really afraid of falling.

Falling in Love.

After entering I cleaned my body and changed my clothes. Shirt short sleeve sweatshirt and shorts. I look in front of the tv. Let Ken watch from the outside. I was lazy to admit it but the sadness came back. I need a place to complain. But he's not the man I want. He will not be anyone in my life.

Y'all know?

The sadness of being abandoned is funny.You will forget it when you are happy with your friends and loved ones... memories are left behind by loved ones. The bad memory that once happened again appears.

Ok! I'm sincere about the departure of my mother and the others. But you know what? That was just my mouth. When I was with some people I was happy and cold. Like I'm okay. Y'all know? Is that temporary? When you didn't see me. When you left me. The memory appeared.sick, sad, shit!

Y'all know? When you think your friend is happy, not necessarily his heart is happy! He could have screamed! Wants to vent the emotions that he craves. But you can't help him!

Say I'm selfish! I'm insane! I'm anything! Crying to yourself, laughing to yourself... Yes I'm crazy! Because of the sadness in my heart. I shut myself up nobody cares about me. I tried to shine you guys scorned me! What wrong?

Arguing with their own hearts. Restless, sick. Everything itself! When I had a friend confide in me, some people started to insult me. Caper is, ganjen. What wrong? Teach me to be a loner?

I want to die! Die up! Die up! But I can't either. I'm afraid of death, afraid of sin, afraid of happy people watching me die, afraid I'm unwanted!

"I'm with you calm down" the soft voice from behind me stunned me. Two hands coiled around my neck hugged me, calming me down.

"Go!" I said I held back my crying.

"No, I'll accompany you" said Ken.

"GO ME! YOU CAN'T HELP ME!" I said angry, sad, sad.

"Well, I'm outside when you need me." said Ken as he walked out.

"Hm" I said coldly.

Continuing the crying loudly. Yelling even pulls my hair. I was stupid. I need it but I'm trying to get it. Even though I know I can't get close to him anymore. I can't hope, because I don't want to lose anymore. Breaking all ties is not bad and I might try.

Love is real, but love is like the devil. He pulled me into a pleasant happiness yet it was temporary. Don't believe me? You feeling happy now? With your family, your partner? Try to think far away, buddy. They'll LEAVE YOU! And it can happen whenever you're ready or not. Are you starting to understand what I mean? I hope it's not too late. Because when you're late and not ready, you'll be like me. I didn't mention the love between girlfriends. Because your parents love you too and you love her, they will leave you alone later. Wrapped in deep sadness. You feel unfair? Too late! It's too late.You still have to live it all. Looking for new happiness? With good or bad roads? The result is the same. Everything will be bad as well. That is the truth of the world. There is no happiness! There is only eternal sadness. Believe me I've felt it. And I hope you're ready. So you're not too sick.

Close the book on me. I hope someone reads it and understands it. And they're not late... 

I finally calmed down. Sleep without sadness. Exhaustion. Crying is tired you know?

Sleeping in peace.

Dreamlessly.

I woke up the next day. And I went back to my original, cold and quiet self.

Reality has hurt me. And the story I wrote was a dream that would never be achieved for me. Happy ending? I want to laugh.

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Author's Note.

Thanks to all of you who read. Want nanya.... you cry no? No? Well. not delivered dong. Forgive the author whose emotions are unstable.

Can change keep changing. Thanks again for reading. Don't forget the voment!

Love U all!

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