DOCTOR COLD I LOVE YOU

full-blown crying

This morning Brian started his career for the next three days. Staring at Naya who was having breakfast with a lethargic look. Naya who felt noticed glanced at this husband. 

"You take care of lemes. I guess I still miss the old photos." Naya herself wanted to see how Brian reacted. 

Brian took a deep breath, looking at Naya, "Ra, you can persuade Mama." Naya Brian's guess is still selfish. Still sad about those photos. Naya shook her head she did not want to be made a scapegoat by Brian to get the photo. 

"Your past belongs to you but my future belongs to me." Naya stood up she had no appetite for continuing to eat when Brian himself instead begged her for the photo. 

"I'll help you pay off your father's debt" Brian says, making Naya look at him in a slick, self-important way. Just last night Brian gave the name love now he wants to start a fight again. 

"I don't think the same about you, Mom. I can't afford that I pay the debt." Naya stared flat at Brian, he was tired of all this indeed it seemed like he had to go home. "It's like this. Instead of us noisily continue mending you cepet go. " said the final Naya. They are now facing in the courtyard. Naya can see how Brian is coveted by others, how Brian is that perfect in the eyes of others. Indeed his body, his brain, as well as his complete physique. Unfortunately, everything on earth has its flaws. Brian's feelings are hard to control. 

"I'll be home every dawn." said Brian, he wanted to give reassurance. 

"You didn't go home, either. But you go home just as well as not go home to rest at the end." 

Brian frowned, "you forbid me to go home?" 

Naya smiled flatly, "capek Mas you keep two sips home for what? If not for a break." 

Brian nodded, "if you go to the hospital and bring me food and supplies." 

"Because you're staying at the hospital, I asked Permission to go home." 

Brian thought for a moment. Looks like Naya is a little saturated in this house, "yes. Sorted by Mr. Toto." 

Naya assures, Pulling Brian's hand to shake. "Be careful." 

Naya looked at the shiny white car, with a troubled feeling. He really wants to go to his mother's house, he who is used to a mother's backrest must now be a wife and must know which one to tell and keep on his shoulders. 

Naya herself has not felt the name shoulder to shoulder in the household, has not felt the name struggling together. Indeed, the new household as long as corn is very prone to shock. But he wanted him and Brian to hold hands to get rid of the shock unfortunately before holding hands he had to make Brian look away to get to him. 

 

*****

Now the second day Naya slept without a house with her husband, it is not too significant she felt the loss. Moreover, she and her husband also did not sleep in the room making it not too unthinkable. Moreover, he is now staying at the house of Mak Pomegranate, he satisfied his desire for three days stay at his mother's house.  

Naya stared at this hedgehog doll that her husband had given her, so many thoughts were speculating in her mind. But how else he is not a detective who can fully investigate a criminal. He can only wait and hope that all the problems are solved. 

*****

A chicken crowing in the yard of a neighbor's house makes Naya wake up from her sleep. Last night he had a creepy dream that he had met a black cat staring at him so intensely that a small white cat, very beautiful, smiled and walked away with the black cat. Unfortunately Naya can only cry without being able to act, even screaming she can't. 

Naya's breath was wheezed, he hurriedly took ablution water to perform tahajud prayers. He did not want to speculate anything, just wanted to surrender to the creator. If that's a good sign he begs to give you a hint, but if not he begs to be abolished. 

"Allahuakbar," both his hands said Khaliq. Naya consciously stood up to give it all up, she just wanted to get inner and physical calm so that whatever would happen to her she could live and accept it steadfastly. 

"God my heart is not a heart of steel that can hold anything for any length of time. My heart is not a rubber heart that can be elastic to be patient and accept everything. My heart is but a lump of flesh that if a little bit of wound can not disappear. 

Now I lean on you, for I am not strong if my husband does not love me, then open his heart, for only you can turn the heart of man upside down. But if it's not my soul mate, then give me a better replacement than that. 

I'm tired, god." Naya sobbed, all her tears sliding profusely that second as well. He couldn't stem the feeling in his chest. It was so sad for him. 

"I'm tired! O God I am tired, change my husband so that he loves me. Turn him into a man who obeys you, so that at least I can smile even if he doesn't love me." 

Only God created us who knows the heart of every human being, Naya just tired, she was afraid if later he told his mother. His mother will regret having agreed to marry Brian. 

Naya prostrated back. 

*****

Brian took a quick glance at Aldi who was now being helped by holding a scalpel that would be used to perform Caesar on this patient. The night was still filled with stars suddenly there was a mother who had been nine months in an accident with her husband. Until he who should not have given birth now has to remove his baby who suffered a collision resulting in placental abruption, which is a condition when the separation between the placenta from the uterine lining. 

After installing the infusion. Brian held the mother's stomach, of course the mother allowed it, because if he did not accept it, what he used to do when his own life was over the horns. 

The mother was exhausted from shedding so much blood. He was already feeling dizzy which made his head twitch, but the mother continued to force herself to continue to be aware and fight for the baby in his stomach to be safe. That's what a mother says when she feels at the tip of a horn approaching a black hole. 

Brian looked at Aldi, his mother's stomach slightly hardened. He looked at his mother and went to explain everything to the family.

Aldi looked at his husband with pity. He is not a god who can rule anyone who lives, anyone who dies. But he could only try and pray. Aldi explained that the mother's stomach was a little hard, if only four minutes were not saved then the two would not be able to survive, but he is also not necessarily able to save the baby because of the process of the accident long enough to get to the hospital. 

Aldi took a breath, had the father sign the consent file, "sorry, God loves the boy more."

Aldi's thundering voice in his ear made his father cry helplessly. He can only hope that both of them survive but if one of them cannot he can only save the mother. 

"Let her mother survive." 

Aldi looked at Brian giving a warning to everyone in the operating room. On the door of the operating room changed red indicating the operation is happening. 

Aldi gave anesthesia to the mother so as not to feel pain when doing surgery, unfortunately when the opening of the mother's uterus fainted. 

The sisters berjibaku gave blood transfusions to the mother some sisters also formed to absorb the blood that came out. Brian held the baby who was not moving also slightly frozen. Brian cleanses the uterus and secretes the ari-ari in it. And closed sew the mother's womb. 

somehow the operation this time made him feel a sense of heartbreak.

****

You know it feels good when we can tell stories and cry at the same time without being laughed at and without being considered one eye. Unpityfully. And that's all I got in my bow to you, Rabbi. 

Naya Revina Mahesa's