Dance In Rinai Rain
CHAPTER 15
A LETTER TO THE LOVER
My dear ...
10 Years already ....
We go through life without
a sure bond together. It is not a short time for us to build
the ark of love, compassion, and care. Countless, how many times have we
playing in the sea of romance. These are the most beautiful moments of our lives.
Countless, how many times
we fight because of different opinions. I'm willing to do everything you
the pinta. I willingly, give up everything to you: Honor, dignity, self-respect,
family until there's nothing left. I'm willing to do all that
for you, even though we both know that it is an UNFORGIVABLE SIN,
sins that we shall be responsible for in the Hereafter ...
Countless more, how many
the times you intentionally or unintentionally hurt my heart and my pride
as a woman. But I do, because I love and love you
as pure as my heart. I know you love and love me as sincere as your heart
... although sometimes there is a sense of disbelief among us because of various
thing. I also know how often you argue with your parents, just to
defending my good name; only to recover my pride before them,
which you destroyed. I thank you for that, for all you have
you did to me.
We are both one soul.
I feel what you feel, and vice versa. I really
happy, truly a happiness I never got when I
living with my late husband. You gave me what I needed
(Love, affection, attention and so on). I am like that woman
luckiest meeting you, baby ....
Even if I came from
from a family that can afford to then fall.
reckon.
But, my dear ...
Did you know that for 10 years
that year ... I really wish, you took me as a woman
which works as it should in those days to come. 10 years, I
being in trouble and dilemma. Do you know, my dear ....?
I really hope, you
take me as your rightful wife. I was really expecting it. I didn't
want to part with you, baby ....
Meanwhile, you .
you're on your sweet promises that make me fall asleep ? When I asked, you
just silence noiseless. You are silent like a stone statue.
Just shut me out
bee. I want you the only one who can pluck me, suck my honey. Iwant
only you can keep me company until death.
But these eyes are wet
tears when you see you sitting in the armchair with a woman who
you didn't know him until 2 years. You smile, when this heart is sliced
a knife. My heart is broken, my hope that I have held for 10 years
disintegrated. If I may ask, “What is lacking in this self ? Is
everything I have given you is still not enough ?”
Why is this happening to me ?
A part of me is missing. Am I still precious in your eyes ? I am still valuable in the eyes of everyone
: My family and children ? Say, my dear .. say. Why we
meet but have to separate ? Although there is a gaping wound in this heart and not
I can heal, I try to be sincere. Should I still look forward to you as
wife ? My dear, this heart is already falling apart, do you know ?! Can't
I close my eyes when I see you happy with someone else. I really
expecting the woman sitting next to you is me.
Why are you so happy and
the cruel heart-breaking and love we have built these 10 years ?
Is it because of our different degrees, dignity and beliefs ?
My dear ...
Forgive me ....
forgive me if all this time has disappointed and upset you.
Even though now the bitter reality must be accepted .. I still want to go and
loving you always.
You used to love dance
which I played. Let me dance for you. Now, tomorrow, the day after or whatever
how long time running .. I hope, you always like it. Waiting
you're ready to propose or propose to me, even though I'm no longer here
this world. I'll keep dancing in the rain all season. Whichever
it means life, if it must constantly swallow disappointment, shame and hope that
futile ...
My dear ....
If you find this letter
.... I hope you remember me even though you've been living with that
others. May you be happy always and take care of yourself and health. Don't
until you're as sick as when you're lying weak, helpless and absent
no one visits you, except me alone.
Hugs, kiss and love
my darling for you
YUNITA
(NYAH SEKAR AYU PRAMESWATI )
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