
Hi readers sorry old new update. During this half a year a lot of things happened and I will tell all the events to you readers.
My name is Moon, 30 years old. I have been married for 6 years and 2 months and have not had any children. But my husband remained patiently waiting for our baby with an unrelenting wait for divine mercy. My husband and I kept knocking on His door of blessing, not knowing the morning and the night, hoping that His door would be wide open for both of us.
January 2020, the,
The doctor said I was pregnant, my husband was very happy not to play until I gave thanks for my pregnancy.
" A right, baby?".
My husband's cheerful voice while kissing my forehead.
As time went on, I continued my daily activities as usual. Although sometimes short of breath, for the sake of my baby and husband willing to sacrifice and tired. Moreover, we 4 years ago adopted a child from the hospital, a cute and wise boy.
Our household life was so complete, my husband was so dear to our adopted son. How not? A handsome and charming Paras, wise speech, charming smile and a cheerful and cheerful nature.
Tired, tired and tired of being treated if you see the brother (our affectionate call) smiling to welcome our return from work. What an indisputable favor God has for us.
The day went on and passed, July 28, exactly 6 months and 2 weeks of my pregnancy. I started to contract, but it was not yet time for me to give birth.
" I can't take it anymore, it looks like this baby is about to be born!".
I said to my husband withstanding the excruciating pain. How not, life like at the end of the crown and extraordinary pain is not playing FAVAT.
" So how? Not yet time, baby! Don't scare me!".
My husband said softly whispering in my ear as he stroked my stomach slowly.
" Take me to the hospital, baby! Help me not stand it!".
I screamed while grimacing in pain. My tears kept pouring so hard, like rain.
" Sad it's still 1 at midnight. I'm afraid to take you out of the house, too cold and dark. Are you sure....?".
Ask my husband while hugging me tightly.
Instantly I saw his face so tired and frightened to see me who was holding back pain. I just caressed her cheek.
" Yes, let's get ready to wait for morning to come!".
I said to go to the room and open the closet.
Two days ago I had all my baby clothes ready with my brother. Because we adopted it from a newborn. No need to buy new clothes anymore.
Time goes by quickly, at 4 am blind. When the sun is still hiding spoiled in the eastern horizon. My husband and I went to a hospital far from home. Because the Ba*Du*g Hospital person said it was good for maternity. We're heading there.
The IGD has started to bleed a lot. My husband was getting scared and panicked, especially when the doctor said it was time to give birth.
" You come with me for a minute!".
The doctor ordered my husband and they spoke some distance from where I was lying.
I could hardly hear the doctor talking to my husband.
" I'm sorry sir! The baby's coming out, if we can hold it. Because they are not old enough. His heart and lungs might not have cooked yet, and his weight was too small to last!".
The doctor said, just resigned.
" How good is doc?".
My husband asked worriedly while throwing a smile at me.
" I was USG, 25 weeks too young. The water is too much, that's what makes contractions happen. The chances of the baby surviving are small. How's it?".
Ask my doctor.
" He's been holding back the pain for 2 more nights. The good how? The doctor knows, right?".
Ask my husband to come back in panic.
" Just the mother alone may be able to survive, maybe the father's son has not windfall. Pity to leave her mother if you keep this up, sir!".
The doctor explained.
" I just want my wife safe, if our son can have any more. As long as he survives it's no problem!".
My husband said firmly despite the tears.
" Okay sir, I understand!".
The doctor said and they walked towards me.
My husband's smile is fake, I know that. I know what he's thinking, lying if he smiles.
" Patience to you! The doctor is trying! Patience yes!".
Said the husband with a smile.
" I want to go home, I will fight even if I have to die. I want this baby safe! Let's gohome!".
My tears broke and tried to get up from sleep.
" Patience buk, calm down!".
The doctor smiled, looking at my husband.
My tears kept breaking and I rebelled about getting off the bed. My husband held back and held my hand tightly.
" As long as you're not in pain anymore, you're healthy. I don't mind baby, our son can have more!".
My husband hugged me tightly.
" Don't...! Don't...! I'm his mother, I've been looking after him all this time. I can still bear the pain, we'll just go home...!".
My cry to my husband.
Shortly after, the doctor injected something from my intravenous needle. And I felt an excruciating pain, the nurse held my hands and feet tightly instead of playing. My water broke and I was shivering instead of playing.
In a few seconds, I pushed hard. My whole breath I felt no more. My life is hanging, and my eyes are pitch black.
" Push the buk! Comeing! Keep going...!".
The doctor said to scream at me.
Ohhh!!!
I heard the cry of my baby, placed on my stomach. As soon as my smile bloomed, instantly my gaze brightened, in a flash the doctor took my baby away. Followed by my husband, they left.
" Where is my son? Where's she?".
I asked with confusion.
" Brought in the baby buk! Patience!".
Says the nurse while doing her job.
The doctor came back and dealt with me again, I don't know what he's doing.
" Buk, be patient. Young age, if the child is not expected again. Maybe not windfall! Patience!".
Said the doctor who I thought started sewing the part.
" Dok, where's my son?".
Ask again.
The doctor and nurse were silent.
Finished working on me, before long my husband came in with his fake smile again. He kissed my forehead and stroked my cheek.
" Where's our son?".
I ask again to hope.
" I'll get the cloth!".
My husband said briefly and left me both with the sisters.
I was scared and confused by their attitude and the bad feeling I felt. I started crying again.
" Don't cry buk! You will bleed! Patience is buk!".
Said the nurse patting my feet softly while giving her spirit.
" Where is my son? Why did you separate him from me? What wrong?".
Cry broke.
Hu....hu..
Then my husband came again and the nurse left us to talk.
" Where is our son? Why hasn't he been brought here? She's complete?".
I asked and hoped well. I smiled while shedding tears.
" I'm sorry, baby! Our child is no longer there, the important thing is that you are healthy and not in pain anymore!".
My husband said crying, hugging me who was silent.
Duuuar....!!! ⚡
Like a lightning bolt, my world collapsed instantly. My eyes were pitch black and tears kept dripping. My lips were tightly closed and my tongue was stiff. Did I forget who I was? Where'sme? And why me?
" Oh my God, in an instant you took my little daughter! Forgive my sins!".
I said quietly without realizing.
My world collapsed instantly, a world that I had painstakingly created with her labors for over 6 years. I felt the darkness, I just kept quiet.
" I haven't even hugged you yet, baby! That easy you leave mom, son? Don't you deserve to be your mother? Am I so sinful that you refuse to be my son? I gave birth to you! I've been looking after you all along! I share life, blood and food with you! I am also the one who always invites you to talk while you are in my womb! We're breathing together, baby, is it that easy to leave mommy? Oh my God, what trials did you give? I'm not as strong and tough as you can imagine. I'm fragile and sick, I'm not that strong!".
My husband kept hugging me and stroking my hair.
" Patience dear! I love you, strong. We can have another child later!"
Husband says. I can't even see him in front of me.
That same day, my little girl... My angel of heaven was brought home to my parents' house. Clipped by my sister, the funeral was held at my parents' house.
From then on I could cry for no reason alone. Sometimes I can laugh for no reason. During my 2 days in the hospital, another mother breastfed her child. But I don't, I can only see them laughing happily.
That is why when the baby comes to the room, surely my husband will close the window curtain so that I am not sad and see the baby. Even when eating she bribed me but I couldn't open my mouth.
How can I forget the child I gave myself? How could I forget that little cry I just heard?
I didn't cry but my tears kept flowing slowly, especially when I heard a baby crying from the next room. My husband covered my ears with both hands, knowing that I wouldn't be able to hear.
My world is broken, my heart is broken like glass. All mothers hold the baby, and I don't. For 2 days it felt like a century.
And when I got out of the hospital, I passed the baby room. My feet stopped stepping and looked out of the glass at the many tiny and tiny babies inside.
My eyes see, my heart grimaces pain not play.
" If you still had, baby! Maybe you'll be like them, small, white, clean and holy! Even I haven't hugged you, you're gone baby! I am a mother but will never be called mother by my own son! It's smirking! Baby, I missed you!".
I said in my heart to see from the outside many babies sleeping there.
My husband pulled my hand and hugged me tightly.
" Patience dear! Our son has become an angel of heaven, you must be sincere! We can still have kids! You have to be strong, remember me and your brother are still there. Don'tbeafraid!".
My husband said as he walked slowly.
Along the way, I kept shedding tears. I was led by my husband and mother-in-law, but my eyes were pitch black. I can't tell the difference between day and night.
Along the way, I just kept quiet without saying a word. My husband kept hugging me tightly, sometimes I realized even for a moment. I saw her swollen and tired face, her tears flowing too.
" Have I hurt the person I love the most?".
I asked in a small heart.
That's how I feel right now, sorry readers that I haven't been up for a long time.
For those who read, ask for prayer for my little daughter. My angel of heaven.
" Aisha Bint Haidir"
Born/died: 28 July 2020
Al-Fatihah for you, baby.
Wait for me son, don't be naughty and crybaby darling. I have to take care of our brother and Abi, later if mom catches up we will see you again. We play the same and mom will hug you forever. May Allah fill your stomach and take care of you as well as the Prophet and his apostles. Dear mother Aisyah, every second of my life will definitely remember Aisyah.
I'm learning to try to be sincere, rearrange my heart like it used to be. Wait for my dear.
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Meanwhile at home far away. My father and mother were busy making things up like every day in the store before the open began to be crowded with buyers. Thankfully, our store has been selling well lately. That is one of the blessings and blessings of God that I cannot deny.
" What's he doing there, Dad?".
Ask your mom while enjoying a cup of coffee.
Father glanced at mother gently and a small smile while shaking his head. I patted my chest and approached my mother.
" Why don't we just visit, he'll be happy too, won't he?".
Said father kissing softly mother's forehead while hugging her.
Mom smiled little,
Cie....cie....cie.....!!! 😘
Someone is falling in love again. Old love is back.
Gas keeps dad, don't get saggy. Roughly suitable? Wrap....!!! 😂
So quiet, peaceful and so comfortable. The condition of the parlor is so pleasant and makes the heart cool. Alex and I were sitting under a tree having a snack, because Ric and Rika had given gifts to the children.
The mother-in-law looked at us from a distance full of heart and happiness. His small smile adorned the face that looked old and tired, thousands of experiences and pain he had lived.
" Thankfully... Everything's fine. It turns out that God still gives me a chance to meet angels in this world...!".
Said the mother of the parlour stroking the chest.
Then Alex started to prank me,
" Dear?".
Ask Alex casually.
" Yes....? What's up?".
I answered a bit jutek.
" The company will hold a Tour to Bali. You're not coming?".
Alex looked at me sharply.
" Don't look at me like that, creepy you know...? That's fine, as long as you come with me too!".
I answered while taking a long, rough breath.
Understandably most of my waist sitting feels very sore and hot. It turned out to be able to make the attention of the Lightning God collapse.
" dear? You why?".
Ask me while approaching me who grimaces.
" Ayeah no! Oh, that's natural! Now that my stomach is getting bigger, it makes my movements more limited and slow!".
I answered with a smile, making him no longer messed up.
" Thank God, baby! You almost made me die a hanger!".
Said the God of lightning with relief.
" Oh yeah so we're USG to the hospital? Isn't Hua the best doctor? I don't trust him yet, when?".
I asked her while eating a handcake and in front of us.
" When you want to come home from here, you can too! It's up to you, baby!".
He replied while drinking mineral water, it was only natural that I had not seen him drink a drop of water.
Suddenly I saw Ric walking back and forth towards us with a panicked face instead of playing. Followed by Rika's crumpled-faced sister, making me astonished.
Ric approached us and whispered to the Lightning God very carefully. Understandably, I didn't hear any soft horn.
" Hm? It looks so important!".
I murmured inwardly as I glanced at those who were serious.
Alex just nodded his head and looked at me sharply.
" What's up? Is there a sudden or emergency? Let's just go home! Aren't we done, baby...?".
I said while fixing the bag and luggage.
" Yes baby, it looks like tonight you have to sleep alone. Yes, at least for 2 days! Sorry yeah!".
Alex said slowly to me.
" No problem, let's go home!".
I said with a small smile.
At home it was still noon, and we didn't go to the hospital. I really saw the nose of the three of them at home. They disappeared and held a closed plenary meeting. Even a drink was delivered by the waiter.
" I don't understand what happened to them, just disappear like a ghost! But thank goodness I was freed from the Dutch colony!".
I said I was satisfied while laughing alone in the tv room while watching cartoons.
Shortly after I finished eating a fruit snack, the house bell rang.
Tings....!
The keg...!
I stood and opened the door alone. And how surprised I was to see who came....?
Yes, mom and dad visited,
My heart flowers 💞💞💞💞
" Dad....! Mother....!".
I shouted while hugging the two of them happily.
It's like you think it's in the heaven of the world, ah! 😍😍😍
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Luv you😘😘😘