Choosing to Marry Young
01. An Achievement
My name, Kanza Azzahra, is an honorary teacher. Through a long journey to get to the career I have now. From the slump to the humiliation I once felt. My life was ruined after my parents' divorce but as time went on I was able to become now, in addition to being a teacher, I was also an assistant lecturer at an open university in my city. In addition to taking economics, I am now taking my S2 in Psychology. Once again I am proud of my achievements now, it is not easy.
Maybe some people think, only such things are proud, but seeing from what I have gone through, I must be proud of myself who had felt failure.
The story begins when I was in high school, when I took vocational school, and took office administration classes. My shadow used to major in it, it would later become a secretary and work in an office but I was wrong, even before my time passed it came up. Just a nod to someone who wants to make his little family happy but broken because of the destruction of my small family as well.
I now have a small family of my own and have 2 children. It could be said that I was quite happy with my husband, because he was one of the people who always gave me support all this time and I am grateful to know him even though it was a mistake at first but maybe this is the most beautiful mistake.
And this is my story.
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2008
I'm getting ready to go on my first day of school, excited? Sure, because I'm gonna make a new friend. I hope I can adapt quickly to my new school. Although there are some of my Junior High friends who applied to SMK who I enter now but still, I am enthusiastic for my first day of school.
But when I was getting dressed and getting ready for school, I got into a fight with my parents. Things I didn't like very much at this time. Whether I feel like my dad's been different these days, he's not even shy about yelling at Mom in front of his kids. And I happen to be 3 brothers, I'm number 2 my own sister after my brother and sister.
"Mom, I'm leaving." I ventured to walk towards my mother who was in the kitchen after getting scolded from my father.
"Let your brother deliver you." Mother replied to me.
"No, let me be alone. Brother must be tired." I replied.
"I'm leaving."
Before I left, I said goodbye to my mother first. About My Dad? I don't know where he went after scolding my mother. Maybe he went to work. Yeah, my dad's one of the private employees in my town. He's been weird for a while now, he's no longer a warm dad, I thought he was my first love. Wasn't the girl's first love her father? Yeah, I felt that but after seeing my father's treatment of Mom, it felt like it was gone. Maybe I'm a girl too, so I feel the same way.
Arriving at the school, I walked to the class where my name was there. And it just so happened that I got into APK1 (office administration 1). I went in and saw some people I knew in my Junior High School and my new friends. They looked tense, some looked relaxed.
I then chose a seat like the one on the dena that was installed on the blackboard.
"Hi, good morning." said someone in front of me. Looks like he's gonna be my friend.
"Good morning too." I said.
"From which school?" tanyakanya.
"SMP xxx, you?"
"I'm from Yyy Junior High. And yes, I'm Nurry" he said, extending his hand as he asked for a handshake.
"Kanza." I reply while shaking it.
"Hopefully we can be good friends" he said, smiling at me. He looks good, and is also quiet. Because ever since I came in, Nurry's been sitting on his stool.
At least my first day at school wasn't as bad as my morning at home.
That was the beginning I met with Nurry, he was a friend who was friendly even a little bit gesrek, but he was exciting. The two of us being one must be ridiculous, but he can be serious too. I used to cry in front of him just because of my father's treatment of my mother and myself.
"What's wrong? Is your dad doing it again?" ask Nurry.
"Have not cried. I'm with you. Do I need to report my actions to the school?"
2 Days ago, I got hurt because of my dad. I originally wanted to protect my mother when my father wanted to slap her, but when I tried to block her. I was pushed away by it and I fell towards the table not far from where I was standing, when my left shoulder was hit by the corner of the table and bruised it. When I told Nurry he was so angry, he even wanted to report my father's actions to the school so that the school would help him report my father's attitude to the police. But I forbid it, I thought I was okay, it wasn't entirely my father's fault either. Either every time my father behaved well and confessed his mistakes I went back to tears. Yeah, after that incident. My father apologized to me, he felt he didn't do it on purpose. After all he was my father and I forgave him without thinking that my father would do it again.
"You're still gonna cover this up?"
"Yes, I'm sure my father will turn into a figure I know first." I said, I should think that my father was feeling tired and behaving like now.
Time went by very quickly, my friendship with Nurry was also almost 1 year. I was close to her parents, and so was she. He was also close to my family. He was a polite kid, though a little weird, because he always behaved strangely when I was sad. He tried to comfort me with his strange attitude, but I smiled when Nurry had behaved like that.
And about my family, the more days, my father's changing. He rarely goes home either. After getting a mouthwash, my dad had another woman behind my mom. It's not sure if it's true or not, but when I wanted to make sure of it, my mother prevented me from running over my father with her mistress.
"Have it done, son, let it be your father. Mom's okay." said my mom.
"At least if you want to get married again, you should divorce Mom" I said angrily.
I don't know why my mom can talk like that, every time I want to hit my dad, my mom's gonna ban it. He was kind in front of his son but I know he had a wound in his heart without showing himself hurt to anyone else. That's what made me salute my mother. He is very loving, he is also patient. Not once did I feel a pinch even a blow from him. He is a gentle figure.
Right now we're just three, me, my mom, and my sister. My brother was married a few months ago. And it breaks Nurry's heart, because when Nurry's home, she'll act like my sister's boyfriend, although I knew that it was only a joke because he also had a girlfriend who I myself was also confused by their relationship. He even pranked the bride during the reception procession at my sister's wife's house. Indeed, Nurry's basis, she acted as her bride in place of my sister-in-law. But all that was just a joke, which is a sign that Nurry has become part of my family, not only a friend or friend but he is also part of the family for me.
"Mom, how about I just work? I want to help you make money." I said.
I was not born from a rich man but I am also not lacking but still, my mother had to work hard for my family because my father did not give a living since I entered SMK. Only Mom works hard to make money for me. I even felt sorry to see my mother when she looked so tired but had to finish her job. Mother opened catering services that she had lived before I was born. After I was born, my father asked Mom to stop because Dad wanted my mother to focus on taking care of her children but now my father has left my mother without certainty.
"For what? Your job is just school. Don't be like Mom. This stupid one. I want my son to be successful, that's all."
"Isn't education important, son, prove it to others, especially your father's family if you can. Not like Mom."
"What did you say? That mother, my greatest mother. No one can replace you."
I hugged my mother's body, I knew that she often got insults from my father's family. They were often rude to my mother who they thought my mother was uneducated. Even now they still blame my mother for why my father could change. My mother carried a very heavy burden, she had to listen to the babble from the people around her and become the backbone of the family now. Although my brother would occasionally help my family's economy but it wasn't every time because he also supported his own little family.
This morning I was surprised by my father who had just come home and shouted at my mother. All I heard was that he came home to get his clothes and Mom forbade him to leave but instead of obeying what Mom said, Dad was angry with Mom.
"Are you deaf, get out of my sight."
"At least greet your son before leaving, some days I'm not coming home. Rio's asking you constantly."
"Other than deaf, are you mute? I don't think so either. Can't you just tell the kids that I'm out of town on a job?"
"Until when should I lie to them when their father is engrossed in another woman."
"Shut your mouth." Dad clutching Mom's monkey shirt.
"You want to slap me again? Let's slap? Isn't it common for children to know his father's attitude like this."
"This is what I don't like about you, you always argue with what your husband says."
"Disputing? All this time I've been quiet, but you still think I'm wrong. If I'm wrong and you don't want to be with me anymore, divorce me." said my mother. I could only stay in the room hugging my sister who was already crying hearing my parents fighting in the morning blind like this.
"You are useless" said my father as he walked away from my mother who was crying in front of him.
My father walked out of the house while carrying some of the clothes he had picked up in his room. Maybe it was common for my parents to fight in the eyes of those around me but still, I felt ashamed when everyone looked at us because of my father's attitude.
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