CHARMS

Chapter 21

“ I pretended to be strong so as not to cry, but in fact I was just a woman, no matter how strong I held back tears, still let out better than having to hold her, pretending to be strong is very painful. And I hate it.” ~ Syena Anjani.

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This is where Elvano and Syena spoke, in a park not far from the apartment. Syena mute without looking at Elvano, it feels right now he really does not want to know Elvano, but what can do if Elvano has filled his heart that has been quiet for a long time, but Elvano was also the one who made his heart quiet again.

“ Syena,,!! ” Elvano crouched down in front of Syena and clasped her hands.

Syena was just silent with whatever Elvano was doing right now, for her at least this was the last time. He only listened to Elvano's words without looking at her, because the look in her eyes would make Syena feel sick. He tried to hold tightness in his chest which was very.

“please see I” refer Elvano

“quickly say what you want to say, I don't want to be too long here” Syena said coldly, without wanting to look at it.

“forgive me, I know the reason why you canceled our marriage, honestly I was wrong, but you have to listen to my explanation” Elvano said softly

Syena thought, he already knew everything, but there was no harm if he had to listen directly from Elvano.

“Explain”

Elvano took a deep breath, then began to tell. “The woman was Laura my ex-lover, I used to love her so much, after our relationship went a year, she left me, I searched here and there but never found her, ever since I lost it, I've spent time drinking, and then I decided to go to this country so I could forget it, and then I met you at the club, I was curious about you then I started looking for your place to live, and it turns out you live in the apartment next to me, you know ? I'm so happy to know that. The day I started liking you was no longer out of curiosity but out of love, the days I was happy when I got close to you, I was comfortable, fear started to grow, fear of losing you, fear of losing you, afraid that you might go with another man, afraid that you would leave me,,,” Elvano took a deep breath and continued her story.

“ And I realized that I had fallen in love with you, no longer curious or just wanted to have and then let go, No ! I really love you, my love makes me afraid of losing you. And you know what ? when I was with you, I never thought about Laura, nor did I think about her, because you had my whole heart.” did not feel tears dripping into Syena's hands and the tears were not from Syena but Elvano.

Syena really felt tightness in her chest, even tears had been flooded in the eye sinks, she held back from falling, she did not want to look weak, she did not want to look weak, even though he was really weak and broken right now.

Even just now when he saw Elvano coming with a very bad appearance, it felt like he wanted to run hugging and treating Elvano's face, and asking why he could be like that, he said, but considering the mistake Elvano made is very unforgivable, and that's why he no longer cares about Elvano.

Elvano wiped her tears, she did not care, let her look weak in front of the woman she loved.

“ a month ago, after 2 years of his departure, I met him again, honestly there is a longing for him,! I'm sorry, ” Again tears escaped his eyes.

“But to be honest it was just a feeling of longing, somehow the time nearby was no longer what it used to be, which made me flutter while beside her, maybe like I said that you had mastered my heart, in explaining his departure from his parents' accident in Paris to death, I felt sorry for him, when he asked for help to accompany him to the bar because there was a problem and I did not know what the problem was, I accompanied him until I was drunk, in the morning I was already in the hotel with him, we did that, and I really regretted it,”

Elvano sees if there is a change in expression on Syena's face, but it turns out that nothing, even with Syena's tough attitude makes her really feel very guilty.

“after the incident, I no longer met him, I regretted everything, and I thought I would never want to see him again, I proposed to you through all the hardships to ask for his blessing, when everyone agreed to it I was very, very happy. But when we were going to fittings, he brought news that he,,,”

Aaaarrgghh..!!!

Elvano did not continue his words because it was very painful. He screamed and hit his chest which was very painful.

Tears that had been resistant Syena finally escaped also wet her cheeks. The reality that he heard directly from the person he loved, was really more painful, it felt like he wanted to disappear right now. His defense so as not to be weak turned out to be defeated with reality.

“ No !! do not approach me.” Syena said full of emphasis.

Elvano silently pecked, her heart breaking when the person she loved did not even want to come into contact with her.

“you know ? you're the first man in my heart, you're trying to break my heart for you to come in, and you're succeeding, you hear you're succeeding, you're making me really fall in love with you, you're, but look at the end you're also the one who broke apart my heart”. Syena said with great emphasis, her tears flowing profusely, she erased harshly before continuing her speech.

“RIGHT NOW I HAVE TO HATE YOU OR WHAT ELVANO, OR WHAT?” shena shouted, she felt completely crushed in the betrayal of Elvano.

Suddenly, there was a burly hand pulling Syena's hand and making her hit the chest of the field of Elvano. Elvano hugged him tightly, he did not care about Syena who continued to thrash and beat his chest, but in the end Syena's power weakened, he was like there was no more ability, he was not able to, because it was drained away with the destruction of his heart.

“ I beg you not to leave me, you can no longer afford to lose a second time. Please ! give me a chance to take care of everything, I promise I'll get this over with quickly, It's okay if you call me selfish, for sure I won't let you off my side, I can't, won't be able to Syena.”

Syena cried so badly in Elvano's arms, and shedding all the pain she had endured since yesterday, Syena returned Elvano's embrace that would be her last. Syena let go of her embrace and shook her head, I don't know what that means.

Brug !!

Elvano bowed to the ground and propped up with both knees.

“I beg you, you are my life, all my body souls are with you, if you go how about my life. I can't live anymore, please give me a chance Syena, Please” said Elvano cupping both hands in the chest, and tearfully.

Syena turned her face away, she could not bear to look at Elvano's truly pitiful face.

“ Whatever your reason. Sorry !! I'm not going to change my decision, I hope our relationship starts well, so make it end well too, even if it's not possible. Should have been before you did, you should know with the consequences, I have forgiven you, but not to return to you.”

Elvano stood up and pulled the nape of Syena, and****** her lips. There was no passion in that kiss, but rather a kiss to represent the destruction of their hearts, even a kiss full of tears. Syena did not reject him, but instead retaliated.

Syena pulled her head to finish it all. “ I hope you are happy with your little family candidate, GOODBYE, FORGET ME”

Syena ran as hard as she could, after saying their parting words, at least she already said ‘parting’.

Elvano shouted to her name, but Syena continued to run until she was no longer seen. Elvano bowed and grabbed her hair in frustration.

Aaaarrggh.!!!

“BODY, why am I so stupid, Aaaarrgggghh ,!!!” Elvano shouted as hard as she could, and beating her chest, it felt really painful, even more painful than leaving Laura without saying goodbye.

 

Syena ran into the room, she did not care about Berry who kept calling her.

“Fuck, you're so fucking Elvano, I hate you so much, hiks , hiks , I'll never see your face again” cried Syena, she doesn't care even when it's early morning.

Berry felt very sick, when she saw Syena who was the first time she saw, very fragile. It feels like Berry really\is going to kill Elvano.

Berry promised after this, she would never make Syena meet again with Elvano. Berry will take Syena as far as possible, so that Elvano will live in regret until the next.