CHARM GIRL LOVE (CONGRAT)

Counteracts

"Meet money?" ask Buk Siti after I get back to her sanity.

I'm shaking. "Not met, Buk," I said resignedly.

The group of mothers who were here this morning, are no longer here. Replacing with other mothers who seemed to whisper like they were rubbing me. Certainly the incident that happened to me this morning has become a trending topic among mothers around here.

"Where's the money ?" ask one of them.

I'm shaking. " Possibly at home" I replied weakly. At least they just kepo doang, not the intention to nolong or help to digasi solution that.

"His husband has been asked, Ma'am?"

I'm nodding. "Already," I'll just answer.

"Ooh." He's mangosteen. "It's nothing, Ma'am, men today can't be trusted anymore. Strangely enough their behavior out there, if it has been separated from the observation. Play girls, drink, play gambling, we are the mothers who are victims. Sometimes we lose our money in the wallet, we also accuse the thief. Uh, don't even know tuyul gondrong who took."

 One thousand kept on shying at length times wide which made my head more and more frown dizzy. Occasionally, other mothers ask questions or connect the contents of his words. Not at home, not at the stall, so this morning is fun with the tausyiah people only. 

I went home with a plastic crackle containing groceries that I just redeemed. After struggling to wait, he begged Bang Diki to lend me money.

"Well, eat the same you money it all! Let your heart be satisfied" he said, throwing a piece of blue money he just took out of his wallet.

"The first time I married you, I just added my burden," he snapped.

Again my heart was pounding like it was electrocuted. It hurts to be treated like this by your husband. I don't know where all the sweet promises she ever made were. And I do not know why Bang Diki suddenly changed after not long we had a baby.

I went into the house and found her lying on the bed while playing hape. If it was his turn to come home from traveling and caught me playing such a phone, of course he would complain and say that I was just good at playing the phone. Lazy, slovenly and other despicable words. Does a man always do that when he sees his wife relaxing? Or was it just my husband who fought like that?

But let it be, maybe Bang Diki is still upset with me because of my carelessness earlier. Especially considering the difficulty of finding money today, because of the difficulty of finding passengers during this endless pandemic.

During this time, Bang Diki worked as an Ojol driver. In the early days, his income was quite a lot so he was serious about proposing to me. Even though we were young at the time, I wanted to accept his proposal because he was so kind and considerate of me, as were my mother and sister. My father has not been in this world for a long time.

At that time, I felt that I needed someone's shoulder to be just a place to lean on, who could take care of me and accept my family. And Bang Diki accepted all my requests. He promised to make me happy and be ready to meet the needs of my family. In spite of all that, it turns out to be just nonsense and false promises.

After I finished cooking and some house, I went into the room again to wake up my son who was still sleeping. I saw Riki had woken up and played with his father.

"Labour, Bang?" my question, when he saw he was still relaxing.

"Come Riki! here the same Mother, let the Father take a bath first." I stretched out my hand to lift him up, but he refused.

"Say you, you don't work" said my son with a chelate.

Not work? so, what are you going to eat tomorrow?

"Yes Bang, don't you work?" I confirmed what my son said. But, Bang Diki did not answer, he just kept silent like he did not have a mouth.

"Yes Mother, said the Father he wanted to play with Riki. Isn't that right, sir?" My son answered as if he were his spokesman. While grabbing the hair of Bang Diki who is still cool mainin hape continues from earlier.

"Yes, let's take a bath first!" I still persuaded him.

"No way, Riki wants to take a bath with you."

"Mr is about to go to work, baby. Riki here just the same mother, let me take a shower first." I still keep on persuading him. I hope he will follow my wishes and his father will understand that we need money for tomorrow.

"No. Riki wants to play with me. Is that right, sir?" Again my son was in revolt and continued to cling to his father for protection. In fact, even his father did not care at all about him.

Either because you feel annoyed from this morning or feel not appreciated at all by children and husbands. It feels like my mother's power is thrashing uncontrollably. My head just wanted to break and my emotions were overflowing. Actually, I was very upset with my husband who seemed indifferent and did not care at all, but my son was the target.

"Here you go fast! being a kid is wayward the next time you. Not yet grown later, do not you exemplify the nature of your father's buluk. Let's take a shower, hurry!" I shouted at him while dragging and pinching his arm furiously. "I'm tired of working from morning you don't appreciate it at all." I'm getting annoyed and ranting.

My son screamed and thrashed when the leprosy was forced. I deliberately did rough things in front of my husband, so that he would know that I too could be angry. I want to see what his reaction is like. He thinks he's the only one who has emotions and can rule this house. Oh, naw. I can do that too. I don't know what he looks like when I'm angry.

"It's good you take care of anjir's son, you don't get tired I'll eat for you guys. Even a day I want to rest with my son at home, continue to be the treatment of you," he snapped while robbing my son back from my grasp.

Finally, he also seemed to be hooked. This is the moment that I have been waiting for a long time, after all the full moon just silently endure the pain. And today, I will prove that I can fight too. Let it break. What could he be.

"Nobody's not gonna let you relax in a star house, but you're gonna have to do it as a husband, and then you're relaxed." I don't want to lose, challenge his words. This is the result if you dare to wake a sleeping lioness. Let mamp*s all. 

I also no longer want to call him Brother. Why appreciate people who don't appreciate us at all. Durhaka, dehaka deh situ.

 If it is a matter of sin, just a little calculation in the end. Now the most important thing is how to fight for our self-esteem as a woman so as not to be trampled on by irresponsible men. The emancipation of the modern woman must be maintained.

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