Cassandra Diandra

Striving hard...

After a week since my return to Jakarta, Mas Bas has never called me. Did he really forget me or was there some reason he kept quiet? He didn't even explain to me, let alone apologize for his actions.

I was confused as to what attitude to take. Should I survive in such a state? However, I was also unable to let go because to be honest, I still loved her very much. What about my son later? Did he have to lose Dad? If Mas Bas is with me, what about Chloe and Brian? Lord, let me be strong and decide what is best for us.

Now I have to get up and start my life. I have to work because my son needs money to survive. I cannot endure all this suffering because I did not do it.

"Good morning, Kristin."

"Dian, good morning. Have you improved? You can't be sick, Dian. Think of little Bastian. His health should be your priority. Oh yeah, Dian, why hasn't Bastian come home when work is done? You met him yesterday, right?"

"Yes, Itin. Mas Bas is still in Bali. He's taking care of the project I visited yesterday, with Mr. Riko."

"Oh, so Mas Bas continued the project again? How could that be? Does he not think about you and his son? Did he forget that he already had a wife, even a father-to-be? Buses should be taught a lesson. It's not easy being a pregnant woman, is it?"

"Itin, yes it was. I have to go to my place and finish the report yesterday, get us delivered."

"OK, The. Should I be with you, huh?"

"OK."

"Good morning, Mr. Riko."

"Good morning, Kristin. Diandra's in, right?"

"Already, Sir. But he's busy finishing the report."

"Diandra, to my room now."

"Good, sir."

"Good morning, sir."

"As you see, Ko. I'm confused what to do. Should I stay or end it? I can't determine, Ko. It hurts, it really hurts."

"Diandra, now calm down and listen to your heart. That's the best. Oh yes, you were invited by your mother to the house."

"For what, Ko?"

"I don't know, I'll pick you up."

"OK, Ko. Has Bastian contacted you?"

"Not yet, but maybe he's also confused as to what to do."

"Yes. The decisions you make will have to be thought out as well as possible."

"OK, Ko. Hmm... Do I have to tell my parents? Then how later? What about them? I'm ashamed, Ko. I don't know, what my sins in the past were so heavy, that I have to face this now. God, I can't stand this cross."

"Diandra, you need to calm down. You can't be like this. What about your son later? You have to think about it too, because he never asked to be born. Only you and Bastian want it. So, remember, if you're like this, what about the situation in there? And being in your position, I've felt it too. We must not be weak, we must be strong in the face of everything even though the world laughs and bullies us. We have to face it and we can't run."

"Ko, I can't. I should how?"

"Diandra, look at me first. I've always been by your side and I'll always be with you, whatever it is. I know everything you feel. You must be strong. In that case, let's go out for a minute and calm your mind."

"Ko, I'm at the office."

"Yes, I know you're in the office. Therefore, I'm taking you out. Let's go for a walk."

"Ok, Ko."