Can I Love?

Part 34: Silence in pain

The next day, Lina woke up from her sleep in the morning. But he didn't get out of his bed at all.

He remained lying there, while looking up at the sky of his room.

Silence without a word.

Suddenly, her tears slowly dripped down her cheeks. Crying without a sound. His mind was injured because of last night.

(god, why the hell do I always do this cake thing.why are all the men I know evil? What is my fault, Lord, that you have allowed me to be carried away in this great trial. I want to be happy God. I want to be like those who are always happy living their lives, meeting good people. But why can't I be like them? Is it that hard to feel happiness? Is it because I don't deserve it? Please God, please allow me to be happy. I am tired of suffering, Lord) he said in his heart.

Her tears were still flowing profusely, making her eyelids look swollen.

Chuutt (open door voice).

"why deck? How crying? Get up first yuk" said kak jhon.

Lina did not answer the words of John. He just turned his body back to his brother.

"you why deck. You still sick? Tell my sister to let my sister know" he said

"no why brother. I want to be alone again. You can stay on my own, right?"

Lina begged her brother to leave her alone.

He doesn't want to be disturbed by anyone. Right now, he needed some alone time, to calm down. His condition has not improved, his heart and mind are now depressed.

John left him alone in the room, leaving him alone there. He knew that his brother was taking time to recover.

Although actually his heart was also wounded, he tried hard and was indifferent.

He did not want to show his sadness in front of Lina.

John's brother who is actually hardworking, willing to leave his job to keep and accompany Lina

His love for his sister was huge.

(i've never made him cry before, never angry with him. But why do people around him who even hurt him. I feel like I failed to keep him*) he said in my heart

To lean his head against the table, he was startled by a call from an unknown number

(new number. Who yes) he said in his heart, then answered the call.

"hello who is this" said kak jhon, answering the call

"this is rendy's cave. Cave dapet your number from rara."

"ohs. Why did you call the cave? What's the need?" ask jhon

"no brother. The cave just wants to know the situation lina aja kak. How is he brother? Is it better?"

"no cave. This morning the cave entered his room, the cave saw him cry. His eyes were so swollen. But he didn't make any noise at all. Maybe he doesn't want the cave to know he's crying."

"he must be really depressed, brother"

"hm"

"gua knows how to make lina better sis"

"how?"

"when the cake gini should he need the presence of his best friend sis. If it were the same, he would have been more open, calmer and definitely improved faster"

"oh yeah. The cave did not think, thank you already sniffed the cave"

"okay brother."

Kak jhon intends to tell lina's condition to his best friend, so that they can accompany and strengthen lina