
"But, Miss Lissa smiled in deep trust that the hail of bullets would not hit her unless everyone who loved her died first. Miss Lissa believes her life is worth more than anyone's life and Miss believes everyone will continue to protect her."
Kalista would not look.
"But you, Miss Kalista, you will smile even if you see Rahadyan running away, not protecting you because in your heart, you feel it is only natural that no one would bother to love you."
"That was wrong?" reply Calista finally. "Gue is living a normal life just like me now. Even I may not really believe it, but there's no problem either, right? I'm not splitting up Papa, I'm pursuing what I want, so what's exactly the matter?"
It's bad that Kalista hurt them intentionally. But it's not. Then what's the problem?
"Hmmm, that's right." Dante mumbled seriously. "You're right. No problem, right? As long as everything stays normal."
"Yes, right? Why is it a problem to try? I mean, I'm serious."
"of course. Of course, Miss Kalista. If you give someone a diamond necklace that's far more valuable than a lamborghini, of course it's only natural that he'll reward you with a heart-shaped chocolate, right?"
"...."
"If it's a diamond necklace and it's brown, as long as it's a heart, then it's the same."
Calistas can only be stunned.
*
Julio was a little wondering if he had rightly questioned that now. But after everything Julio did, he wanted their relationship to be more serious so of course he refused if Kalista was just being too ordinary.
Yes, honestly Julio is afraid that if later their relationship becomes serious, Kalista gets bored and leaves him.
"Well!" Julio sighed as his hand reached for the jewelry box he painstakingly got. "He should be the one obsessed with me, right? Then why am I even holding this super duper expensive item while waiting for her answer?"
It's a magical girl. No wonder Sergio was obsessed with him.
"Sergio?" Julio suddenly went wide, putting the jewelry back in his safe. The man hurried to his bed, opened his cell phone to realize how long he had forgotten to take care of his sister.
"Ah, shiit." Julio nodded to himself.
He was too busy looking for jewelry until he forgot that Astrid wanted to urge a wedding right away.
Julio pressed Sergio's number, hoping he would at least answer even if he was upset.
"Sergio, where are you?"
"Apartment of Astrid."
Julio slips. "Oh no's. Don't tell me you—"
"Don't tell you what? About me getting married? Yeah, finally, horay. Don't worry because you're on the guest list."
The call was interrupted, leaving Julio cursing alone.
*
Today Kalista again decided not to go to the office. But the difference, this time Kalista asked Rahadyan to skip office with her, go visit Mama's grave after a long time.
Not much Kalista said while there, because he just opened his mouth when they stopped by the Sunda food stall not far from the location of the tomb.
"Papa."
Rahadyan who already knew Kalista there must be a heart problem if looking for her mother, immediately responded to the call very gently. "Yes, honey? Papa's here."
Kalista stabbed the grilled chicken in front of her as she began to mutter, "According to Papa, should I have been born or not?"
"Baby, what are you—"
Rahadyan almost responded emotionally, but soon realized that Kalista did not need it. His son needs answers that can help him look at himself.
Rahadyan answered, "Of course Papa thinks you should be born."
"Why did everyone refuse me?" Kalista looked up at Rahadyan. "Why do people keep saying I'm a concubine's son? I'm a concubine's son, emang. But I mean, why ... why ... why is it like a curse to me?"
"Keep why isn't Papa wronged? Why am I the mistress's son not Papa the same adulterous concubine?"
Calistas do not ask questions because of emotions. The tone was very calm even though it was empty. That was a sincere question from him a long time ago.
Why himself? Why does it seem like he is wrong? Why do people not insult Rahadyan as the perpetrator but instead insult Kalista as a result of that behavior?
"It was also Papa's fault" Rahadyan replied weakly. "Papa should never destroy anyone before, your mama's special."
"...."
"Everything is wrong, Papa. You're not wrong, honey, you should have been born in a better situation instead. Wrong Papa."
Kalista. He understood and already knew the answer. But he again questioned it because Julio offended it.
"Calistas."
Rahadyan reached out, clasping her son's hand which was cold when the weather was quite hot.
"Mama's sin is none of your business. Even Papa's blood whether Mama is in your body, even you are Papa's child with your mama, it does not make our sins into your sins. Papa's sin is also not your mother's sin, your mother's sin is also not Papa's sin."
"I'm not ...."
"You don't think your mama's sins are yours, but you live for your mama's sins."
Calista pursed lips. He was really uncomfortable talking about this but he was also curious about himself. Who is Kalista? And what is he really feeling?
"Calistas, Papa wants everyone who calls you a concubine's son. Papa wants everything to die so you're happy but ...."
Rahadyan grabbed him, hugging the body of her beloved daughter. For God's sake, there would be no one in this world who could understand how much Rahadyan loved him.
"Papa."
"Yes, Honey?"
"Why does Papa love me?"
"Oh no." Rahadyan let go of the hug and shook her head repeatedly. "You told Papa to write a book that's better than a medical child's book? That's not enough to write the reason Papa loves you."
"Why?"
"Calistas."
"Yes why? Though I was not in Papa's life before, I suddenly came, suddenly troubled Papa. Why does Papa love me?"
Rahadyan is ticking. Pinches gaunt chin Kalista. "You're soooo cure, Baby. Your papa seneng doesn't understand because it means Papa's feeling is too special."
Calistas round the eyes. "Well I have a child too I'll understand?"
"No!" Rahadyan continued to exclaim, instantly glaring at the enraged Kalista. "There are no children! You are a little girl!"
Kalista's lips precisely describe the smile. Maybe he does not understand what love is except love and crazy about something, but at least Kalista knows that he .. very, very happy loved by Rahadyan.
*
"I think I'm gonna quit my internship, Pa."
Rahadyan immediately turned to shock at the words of her son. Now they were in the elevator to their unit and Rahadyan almost dropped the grocery bag in her hand as a result of Kalista's words.
"Baby, are you serious? You don't want to bank Papa, do you? Seriously?"
Calistas shrug their shoulders. "Seriously. I've given up on Julio."
"YES!" Rahadyan ended up dropping the groceries for real. Came to hug Kalista and kiss her face so proud.
If anyone saw Rahadyan now they would think that his son had just been accepted to Oxford at no charge.
*