BUCIN (SLAVE OF LOVE)

Chapter 10

COCONUT (10)

Author: Daoed Soelaeman Shobari

Della took off her grip after making sure Andre wasn't following us. He took me to the cafeteria. Ordering a drink and sitting down.

“What's up, anyway, actually, Del?” ask me after a while. The white girl replied with a smile. “They, really, even messem-mesem so. Your base, Del.” I'm curious, there may be some interest in Andre's invitation. “You're jealous, yes, if I meet Andre?”

Della tickles. Bummer. “Execuse me? What did you say?” Not a question, but more in the direction.

“I just want to. It's not important either, right, make an answer,” I said a little guilty.

“Don't even you who started to like ama si Andre, Lya,” Della suddenly said. “Gue once saw you two sitting close together. Hhmm ... when, yes?” The girl thought.

“Yes, ndaklah, Del,” I replied hurriedly. ‘You are mistaken, it is precisely what I like that ... About Bram. Look at you, Del.’

“What I saw at that time, you both talked seriously. On what the fuck, anyway? Kepo me.” Della.

“Ndak not say anything, kok, Del. Only about the material of the excavation.” Forced lying. I don't want Della to know. Could Andre have wanted to ask my response about that huh? “Kan, all this time you know yourself almost every time we are together. So .... “

“Andre it's handsome, you know, Lya. Many of these college girls hope to be able to deket same him.” Della sipped the ordered drink earlier. “Emang you don't have that feeling ama tuh guy?”

I nodded slowly. The problem is not that, but ....

“I want to focus on college first, Del. Far away from the village to this big city, just to find a prospective companion? Hhmmm, if it's time to be a match, wherever I might be able to get it.” I have to be dishonest again. “I want to achieve my goals and to be proud of my late parents, Del. Nothing else.”

“Serious?” Della. I'm nodding. “But there's no harm, right, while preparing for the future, you are also eager to make your soul mate later.”

I almost smiled wryly. Della's words were similar to what Andre had said before. “I leave it all to God, Del. Let time answer it.” To reduce the pity of the topic of conversation, I also drank the order.

“Which I asked that, you. Not time, Cuy!” Della was laughing as usual. “ ... or do not-don't already have someone you assess, yes?”

“Uhuk!”

Almost the rest of the drink that was still left inside the mouth gushed out. Some have been swallowed and entered the nasal cavity. At once embarrassed to be noticed by visitors to the canteen.

“Why you, Cuy?” della asked, offering a piece of tissue. Staring sharply at my reddened face. “Slow down, dong, if you drink.”

“Sorry ... “ I replied on the sidelines wiping my lips with a tissue earlier. A few moments of silence. Quiet in each other's minds. I don't know what's on my best friend's mind. He momentarily glanced at me, then stared outside the canteen area. Like looking for another person there.

“You really don't like Andre, Cuy?” della asked back. Makes my forehead wrinkle. “Why, anyway, did you ask about it just, Del? You like her?” askaku. Just wanted to explore what was in his heart.

Della smiled wryly. There is a picture on the face of the girl. I don't know what it means. He didn't answer immediately. Until finally ....

“According to you, Cuy, is love to be fought until it is owned or is it enough to surrender to the fate that will determine?” The first serious question that came out of Della's mouth, after a long time together and knowing her. “Elu will fight or choose to keep until its own time who will answer?”

“That's a question about you, right, Del?”

Della took a breath for a moment. “This in general only. Can be about me, or you too.”

I must carefully answer it. Worried that it will be too late to open its own secrets. Especially this is a sensitive issue.

“I think, depending on how much love you have, Del. If it feels like it will be the biggest part of life in the future, why not try it to fight? Even though you have to be prepared for the consequences. Happy or otherwise.” I try to be more focused and careful. Della's question was like an interrogation. Especially with his papa.

All of a sudden I have to be a hypocrite. Frequently protecting and lying to yourself on the basis of peace. To be honest, I want to finish this show as soon as possible. Be with a loved one, Om Bram, or leave behind all these crazy fantasies.

For me that man is so perfect. There was no shortage of sight to him. Everything is interesting and beautiful, because it is covered by my great love. Too old and not comparable? Ah, that's just an assessment of human conscience. Because what can complement each other and provide comfort is not physical, but a mind that is rich in love.

“If it turns out that the person you want is not in accordance with wishful thinking, how? Will it still maintain the remaining expectations, Lya?” della asked back while toying with the glass on the table.

“You mean he's not good or how?”

“He does not want our presence, Cuy,” Della sharp.

I'm thinking back. It's not easy to answer such a thing. The same if Om Bram did not want me to be a replacement for his late wife. They actually choose adoption, for example. Crazy one! Really wouldn't be willing. A lifetime will be haunted by his own feelings every time he meets the man.

‘I don't know, Del. I haven't thought in that direction myself. Perhaps he will forget or continue to pursue it until he is willing to accept? But if deemed necessary, why not just ask directly. I love you, Om Bram.’

“Alya ... “ call Della. “Eh, yes. What's up?” I'm appalled.

“They, really, are silent?” push the girl.

I'm shaking. “Sentah, Del. I myself am confused.”

“Kok, confused instead? Just answer it. What's the trouble, anyway?” Della's still pushy.

I stared at his eyeballs. “Actually it's about you or me, anyway?”

Della slipped backwards after opening her phone. He rushed to tidy up the bag, preparing to leave the cafeteria table. “Class entry, yuk. The dosage is already there tuh.”

“Masa?”

“Iya. Cepetan!”

We immediately stopped the conversation. Nothing to conclude. Except for a few questions; Della was confiding or trying to save me. Don't he suspect that I've liked his papa all this time? The danger! This is something to avoid.

Suddenly my phone shook. There is an incoming message notification. Thankfully, his voice was silenced. Della didn't notice when I opened the notification balloon. From Andre.

[Alya, do you have a minute? I want to talk to you directly. Please, answer yes.]

Della was still walking slowly in front. Then I replied to that message as soon as possible.

[Just for a moment, Lya. Please.]

I thought for a moment before deciding to return back.

[OKAY. Where's where?]

[Current perpus room.]

[Alright. But not for long? Fear Della suspected.]

[OKAY. I'm waiting now, Lya.]

[Yes.]

After putting the phone in the bag, I rubbed Della's arm. “Del, you first, yes.”

“Where are you going?” ask Della for wonder.

“Toilet. I'll go to class, deh.”

“Ya, it's there.”

“OK, Del.”

Damnit damnit! I had to lie to my best friend. Again for the reason of force.

Andre was already in the library room as soon as I entered. The man smiled happily. “Thank you, yes, you already stuck to come,” Andre said as soon as we faced.

“But don't take long, yes, Ndre. There is class, though. Asdosnya has come,” timpalku while sitting in a chair. “What's up, anyway?”

“Quiet aja. Asdosnya not yet come, kok.” Andre grinned.

“You mean?”

“So I told my friend to send a message to Della, if the dosage has arrived.”

“Tega very, hell, you, Ndre!” I'm so worried that Della will be looking. Then we found ourselves sitting together in the library. “Pettings, deh. What's it gonna take, anyway?”

“OK, briefly .... “ Andre breath. “You remember, right, our conversation a few weeks ago in that college park. When you again wait for Della who said she was facing the lecturer?” I'm nodding. It has begun to be able to guess, let alone the chat that will be present in a moment. “Sorry to me, Lya. I just want to make sure of your answer. I tried to endure and be patient. Until the end of today, I should be able to get certainty from you immediately. How, Lya?”

Suddenly my tongue was gone. It feels so hard to move. I don't know what to say. Some of the time can only be silent while adjusting the breath a little tight.

“Lya ... “ call Andre remind.

I raised my face. Look at the man's greenish-colored eyeballs. White faces like the Erofa people there. Climics without leaving thin feathers as well as ... About Bram.

Yeah, God! At a time like this, why was it that such a flamboyant man was present. I need to stay focused and control my senses. After all, the figure in front of it is not Om Bram. He's Andre. The young man waiting for an answer.

“You seriously want to be close to me, Ndre?” I ended up with all my might coming out of my mouth. “Of course, Lya. I'm not kidding anymore. It's a matter of the heart. Not to be played,” replied Andre reassuringly.

“You are ready with all the possibilities, if you find something you don't expect later in me?” Frankly I doubtfully said. “Of course I'm ready, Lya. I really like you,” Andre said back.

I'm down. It felt powerless to look at the motion of the man's eyes so sharply piercing. Huge expectations of him so that I would meet his aspirations. “I'm not the right person you make someone to prepare for your future later, Ndre. Many shortcomings I have.”

“I don't care about that, Lya. I love you and I'm ready to accept everything that's on you. In fact, if you do not have the same taste though.”

“You mean?”

“You don't have to love me, Lya. I'm enough to love you! For me it's enough.”

Crazy one! Totally ‘bucin’ this boy. Even he was willing to crave himself to me for the sake of his personal ambition. Just like I felt for other men. About Bram. Him again!

“Today I really can't forget you, Lya. I was tortured before knowing your answer,” Andre stressed. “ ... or are you afraid Della knows about us?”

I'm shaking. It's not just that.

“If you want, we can move to college from here. To my family's country of origin in England. Let's not be dominated by your friend. We got married and went to college there, Lya. How?”

It is crazy to think of this man. He thinks I'll be tempted by all his offers? Uh, Andre. Is that how you judge women? Our way of thinking is not that simple. Everything should be planned carefully and clearly. It also cannot be used as a reference to draw conclusions. In a short while, everything could change in an instant. Because our way of thinking is often based on mood.

Recalling my conversation with Della just a moment ago, it felt like fulfilling a dream to be with Om Bram was very risky. Not wanting to hurt the girl, with the consequences of missing another coveted opportunity. Dilemmatic.

Now in front of me was someone offering a romance of some kind. Of course it will be different. It's because my heart is fixed on another figure ....

I nodded slowly.

“You accept me, Lya?” ask Andre not to believe it. Throw her voice so bright. Between happy and happy. “Yes, God! Is this true, Lord?” exclaim Andre repeatedly. He looked at me with a smile. “You want .... “

“Cuy!”

Suddenly someone's voice sounded. Not far from where we are at the moment. As soon as Andre and I turned to the direction where the voice had come from.

“Della?”

The girl stood with her hands folded on her chest. Staring at us with a sharp look.

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