BLOOD CHILD

Hope and prayer

We had a wonderful month as newlyweds. Leo has extensive wishful thinking for his new family later, whether it's children, inheritance and old age. Of course because it was from the beginning I did not eat injectable KB or pills to maintain my fertility. And believe that everything is set for our future. Leo really wants children, especially Leo really likes children.

The problem is, because we are still new and do not know things as of today, I began to be confused because my period comes always, always, although I did not use KB but still as when I was a virgin, my period came with irregular dates. I chose to watch youtube about my condition because many newlyweds who were married for 1 month already got good news about pregnancy. I did not choose to consult a doctor because as a newlywed I was still very embarrassed to tell others about my personal matters. As a result, my very irregular periods hampered pregnancy. At first I blamed my husband for certain things. I even had time to suspect that this was a sign from my mother who had not given me permission to get pregnant. Actually after marriage, I was advised by my mother to use KB first, so that I enjoy the time together with my husband first, so that I can enjoy my time together, and so that my husband and I can save for the future first. But I did not comment on my mother's advice and chose not to use KB.

I started using advice suggestions on youtube for my irregular menstrual solutions.

But still, in the 2nd month of my marriage, menstruation came a sign that I was not pregnant yet too. Sometimes it pops into my mind that there's a problem between me or Leo. But Leo insisted that I was the one with my irregular periods. Until Leo found another solution, namely by telling me to take medicine/milk pregnant program. I regained my spirit with Leo's determination. Yes, even though it looks like me and Leo are a bit excessive, because my marriage is still 2 months and not yet pregnant, even my thoughts are where..

There are 3 sheets of medicinal pill program and one box of milk program that I must consume. Leo also took the pill. Well, this is how it feels if you want to quickly have children. Must be regular consumption and drinking discipline. Although sometimes I feel anxious and accompanied by fear, fear that something is wrong in my body. But still I'm only sure and sure.

that's a question that's still embarrassing to me. Maclum, newlyweds.

My mother didn't know that I was taking drugs and drinking pregnant programs. I kept it a secret because my mother's wish was, I had to wear kb. But I saw the look of hope in my husband's eyes. Where he always prayed for sustenance to get a child from me, a child who is righteous and righteous. I can't hear his prayer. Until I chose to continue taking the drug program pregnant than the drug KB..

Sometimes in the heart, "what if I get pregnant later? what does mom say?. mom hasn't given me a chance to get pregnant , mom wants me to enjoy work and saving time for tomorrow ".