BLISS

CHAPTER 4

Be ill. Eun Ji felt an unbearable pain in her chest. Even Myung Soo, whom he only knew today, was able to make him feel the pain he felt last week. The pain of Kyung Won. And right now, the pain of a Kim Myung Soo.

“You don't understand.” cried Eun Ji in the middle of her prank.

Eun Ji's strength to face Myung Soo. He knew he didn't deserve to have a friend, not even one.

Eun Ji raised her head when Myung Soo was right in front of her. I have no idea since when the man crouched before him, pulled his head, and brought the eyes of the two of them together. Eun Ji's tears couldn't help but stop flowing, but also she couldn't remove them. The look in Myung Soo's eyes really affected his body.

“Explain to me,” Myung Soo said more gently, “What I don't understand.”

Eun Ji's cry broke right after Myung Soo's soft voice flashed in her ear. For the first time she cried in front of a man, whom she had only known today. Previously, Eun Ji was not interested in crying in front of men, except for the boys in ZIA. His family.

“At that time, just when it was the first anniversary of my relationship with Kyung Won, we left together. Me, ZIA, and Kyung Won.” Eun Ji imposes one thin smile on her face, “Only regular dinner, and Kyung Won promises to trick the kids. I believe and we went in a different car. Kyung Won is with me, and the kids in Kyung Won's other car.

“We ate at one of the restaurants in Gangnam area. After being there for quite a while, the children returned to the orphanage first in the same car, leaving me with Kyung Won. That's where it all happened. Kyung Won gave me a drink and after that left me alone there with the excuse of going to the bathroom.”

Eun Ji closed her eyes for a moment, pulling Myung Soo's hand that had been on her chin until recently. Grasping it and not letting go. His body trembled, those bad memories back should be told.

“There, the pain attacked me. It hurts so much that I can't stand up and find Kyung Won. Although in the end he came and took me away, without asking, I let him carry my body into his car, taking me away to his hotel.

“I realize what happened and what he did to me. Be ill. It was the first time for me, and I was still not used to the pain. Until finally something shot into my stomach, leaving a warm feeling in it, and again calmed me down. You know what he said?”

Myung Soo shook his head, asking Eun Ji to continue the story.

“’all that happened tonight, completely restore your happiness’. It's totally bullshit isn't it? I was foolish to believe all his words. We did that again and again, until I finally knew what Kyung Won wanted from me.”

“What?” ask Myung Soo quickly. Faster than he himself predicted.

“Administration. He took ZIA's place and he used me. I don't mind myself being used, because I know what he says is true. That drug or what I did, managed to make my problems go away, even for a while.

“Since then, my children and mother have had to evacuate to a safer place. Minhwa and her friends found a bull and invited my mother to stay there. However, she prefers to go back to her old house. And I still have to be in charge of ZIA..”.

“The color of the drug helped me calm myself. Help me regain happiness in the world, even in the wrong way.”

Eun Ji lowered her head, embarrassed by all her bad stories that didn't touch anyone's heart. He knew what reaction he would receive from Myung Soo, the man would definitely look down on him and leave just like that. Just like the others he had met before.

Whether she gets the courage from where, Eun Ji is sure Myung Soo is the one who hugs her. Eun Ji has no idea what Myung Soo is thinking right now, which she knows she is currently in a mess and has to do something to get rid of her mess.

In the middle of the hug, Eun Ji heard something, and she was sure Myung Soo heard it too, because then the man picked up the phone right in front of her.

“Ya... What... Where.. Alright.”.

A short but clear chat also signifies a busyness. Their eyes collide again and Eun Ji feels anxiety in Myung Soo's eyes.

“I have to go.”

Eun Ji knows a story has an end. And this is the end of the story today, a farewell. As he usually does. Everyone has chosen to part with him.

Eun Ji held back her tears, timidly spilling in front of Myung Soo who was still staring at her intensely. There was a little regret in Eun Ji's mind, why did the man have to come if he finally had to leave Eun Ji's life?

Without waiting for Eun Ji to answer, Myung Soo steps towards the only entrance and exit. Eun Ji in her place, just looked at Myung Soo's missing body behind the apartment door.

For the umpteenth time, Eun Ji cried. Weep at her stupidity and cry over everything that happens to her. Why is he so stupid when it comes to choosing men?

Recalling today, Eun Ji again realized her happiness was gone when Myung Soo stepped past the confines of her apartment. Get out of his life. It was not his heart that wanted Myung Soo to exist, it was him who wanted a Myung Soo who was able to make this day feel more pleasant.

Feeling her happiness gone, Eun Ji took an injection needle and filled her tube a few milliseconds. After being convinced of his decision, he looked at the syringe and brought his arm closer to the syringe.

And the next minute the phone call was heard.

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