Beloved Princess

If I didn't exist

"Mr princess" said Lita a little loudly.

"yes? why?"

"from earlier I called the princess tp you did not respond" replied Lita confused.

"ahh I was a little daydreaming earlier" Rere replied lethargic.

"hmm guess what our little princess is thinking now🤔🤔" asked Lita again.

" 🙄🙄🙄 " Rere did not answer.

"Master princess"

"what else?"

"want the road? I heard the main garden has a new kind of flower"

"ohyah? what plant?" said Rere a little excited.

"what's dad? are you curious?" ledek Lita's.

"no😒"

"ishhh ketus once, is your mood not good? then let's walk" take Lita again.

"don't want me to go to sleep"

"ehhh tumben once? usually you will be persuaded if you go to the main park of the kingdom"

"i'm lazy" he replied lethargic.

It had been a few days since his conversation with the Emperor, since that day Rere had not been to his father's study or room at all, even breakfast he also did in the room with the reason not feeling well.

Lita who could easily understand the mood of the princess always tried to comfort her, but Rere's mood had not changed at all, she was still moody and always kept quiet in the room.

"tok tock"

"get in" said Lita.

"your princess is called by the Emperor"

"hmm why?" Rere.

"servant does not know, servant is only ordered to deliver it, Emperor is waiting for you in the reading room"

"well, I'll be ready first"

"then servant farewell" said the servant retreating.

Lita swiftly helped Rere tidy up his clothes and hair, Rere who did not like his hair in such a way just in the half pigtails and given a beautiful ribbon to add to his timidity.

"dad, did you call me?"

"hmm, sit!"

Rere sat in front of his father who was still focused on the thick book in his hands, a serious face decorated with glasses still made Rere amazed and wondered why there could be a man as handsome as his father.

"hm dad, why are you calling me?" tanya Rere broke the silence.

"ti-no" Rere replied stammered.

Rere looked down for his father's answer.

"you .. Why don't you visit me?" asked Ano with a sharp look.

"i'm busy"

"ohyah? you're busy for days not leaving the room?" said Ano looking.

"i-it .. I'm not feeling well dad"

When the atmosphere returned to silence, Ano took a deep breath and threw himself into his chair, Rere immediately realized that the answer made his father dislike.

"are you angry?" ask Ano again.

"no, why should I be angry?"

"i don't like it when someone lies to me" said Ano firmly complemented with his sharp gaze.

"Deg" Rere was instantly frightened because that gaze was the gaze he received when he first came to the palace.

"sa-me .. I ti-no hueeee😭😭"

"why crying? you think all the problems will be solved when you cry?" Ano muali is upset.

"my hyx is just sad dad" Rere said holding back his sobs.

"why? you thought about the time?"

"how could I not think of him father, because my mother died, if I had no mother would have been alive and father would not have been lonely for a long time, if I didn't have a happy father with mom, if only I didn't exist-"

"grepp"..". "stop that shit" said Ano immediately grabbed his daughter.

"uhh .. uhhh huhuuhhhh🥺😭😭" Rere cried again.

"huhuuu forgive me dad, I wrong I was wrong"

Her crying still did not stop even though Ano hugged her tightly, the sound of sobs full of sadness and guilt just came out, just like that, Ano did not understand what to do to appease the princess only wayangnya can just continue to hold her.

"Baginda let me take the princess to Kamr" said Nando.

"no! let him sleep with me tonight"

After crying for hours Rere fell asleep in his father's arms, Ano took him and let his daughter sleep in her bed, her daughter's eyes puffy from crying for a long time, the face that usually always shows a cheerful look looks very suffering.

"you're not wrong anything .. not one bit" murmured Ano.

Ano just sat by the window and finished a few bottles of wine all by himself, Nando could only look at his master without being able to rebuke or speak anything, Nando seemed to remember being in this situation a few years ago.

After Ano fell asleep Nando put down a blanket to cover Ano's chest which was clearly flushed red from being beaten up by himself.

"i remember you used to be like this when someone lived, but who?" muttered Nando confused.

Nando's memory of Zizi has not returned, not knowing what made the boy unable to remember the woman he so admired.