Because Me Santri's

04. ADMITTING MISTAKES

It turns out I don't remember it at all. I forgot Wahid, alone in the library. If I hadn't woken up. It could be until dawn he just woke up. I shook Wahid's body, firmly.

"Hide. Wake up. What time is it!" Excruciate. Moments later. Wahid's awake. Vaporized, stretched his body, still with his eyes closed. "Alhamdulillah. As soon as it became my body, my seals became bright" he said first, when he woke up. Opening both of his eyes.

"Dream just now, Hid. I think it's so exciting!" Wahid was surprised, apparently there was someone other than himself, in the library. With reflexes he turned towards me. "Lha, are you... are you here?" Wahid still looks confused. He also didn't know if I woke him up.

Wahid looked at me, still with a glare. He did not understand clearly what my purpose was to come to the library. "I just had a dream, around the big cities, Rid." Answer slowly.

"The dream is cool, try me to come, of course exciting dong". I tried to mark it. She smiled a little. Then bow his head. He seemed to understand, exactly. If what he did was wrong.

"It's true that you didn't come to my dream." said Wahid lirih. I patted her shoulder. "Why indeed?" My toot. "I... Just overslept, Rid" he said guiltily.

I sat next to him, looking at his face that still looked tangled, after waking up. "Yes already. How about it again! His name is also sleeping. Not on purpose, Hid" I said casually.

Wahid smiled, for a moment. "Thank you, yeah." said Wahid. "But, by the way, what's the need for me?" Ask Wahid. I just grin. I don't understand why he could forget, just like that. In fact, just this afternoon. But if I forget, I am grateful. Alhamdulillahot.

"Emmm. Actually I'm looking for you, make it.." I hesitate to say it. This will be an opportunity for me. To escape punishment. If I forget completely, I can find another topic.

Did he forget, or just pretend. If he. Then I could have lied to her, if there was an event... Or other activities... My mind started to go unguided. Lots of wild and crazy ideas. Fulfill my mind.

Wahid tapped his forehead, with his index finger. Like someone who thinks hard. "Oh..." Wahid rounded his mouth. "You're here because, it was noon'kan!" Wahid continued. I nodded as I let out my smile, forcedly. My heart was happy. It quickly became indescribable. Like a very lush tree, but instantly, the leaves fall all.

"Yes.." I said flat. "Good, you're sensitive, man. Thanks!" Said Wahid with a smile curling on his lips. From the look of his clear eyes, instantly. He seemed to know what to punish me in?

I swallowed spit. Awaiting answer. My mind is filled with shadows. Which is when I'm gonna be in law. "What kind of punishment?!, easy is not heavy." Batinku.

"Yes, just buy me a pentol curry near the cottage road!" Answer it lightly. Like not having trust. Or his duty. As manager.

"Seriously!, pentol sauce!, I'm not in the law?!" ask me with a high note. I really didn't believe what he said, just now. Wahid chuckles. He looked at me with a wild look.

"Yes not!, stay in the law. Just clean the hall, nyapu!" Said telling. "Iye" I replied lazily. Actually I was hoping, when he said 'buy a strong pento'. That's my chance of one in a hundred. But he was just joking.

***

I lay down in front of my porch. My body feels all limp. "Huh... Pretty tired as well. Though only a little" murmured I felt exhausted.

"Is science like light?" I ask myself. I let out a breath. Trying to think clearly and calmly. "I think yes. It's the same as a lamp without light." Answer me in heart, straightforward.

"If science is like a lamp, it must be true. A man without light is like a lamp without light. Can't light up another. And... Even the lamp itself doesn't light." My neighbor, by muttering.

I grin. I feel like laughing. Laughing at myself. Who's not so good at things, as always. "Huh. I know that science is very important. But how can I catch everything... If I alone wasn't so good at those things!" Narrator.

I closed my eyes. To try to let go of my burden, for a moment. Yes, with sleep. Not a few minutes yet. I was struck by someone, who suddenly stepped on my left right arm, though not as strong.

I opened my eyes. Setiawan. He stood beside me, smiling. "Where?, has kelar antum been done.... Sama Wahid" asked Setiawan calmly.

"Yes, that's it" I replied, slowly.

"Kok, looks like lemes amah. Ants?!"  Said Setiawan, who then sat beside me. He offered me a drink. Smilingly. "This, Ana bawain, tea drink. Yes can to, make the antum thirst disappear." He said, while putting the kiss on my stomach, which was still lying. With fatigue.

"Antum is great" he said.

"Great?, great why, Wan" I asked.

"Yes great. Antum dare to admit wrong. Most of them do not want to be punished. And I feel guilty too." Setiawan.

I grin. Then a little laugh. For some reason, he said something I didn't expect. Although I usually only talk to him for a brief moment.

"Yes, that should be so. We must admit our mistakes. Although heavy. We have to keep admitting it." My word. Setiawan turned to me. He drank the tea he brought.

"Take a. Antum is right!" Said in a hurry. Almost choked.

I want to laugh, see it. "It's okay why" I cried. He just nodded, continuing to drink his tea.

"Because my teacher once said. If our fault is with another human. Not in this world. Later will be redeemed in the afterlife, Wan. And if it's even heavier there." I'm telling.

"Oh... That's yeah. Ana so know sekerang.kamasih Antum already told me." he said. "Yes. Science should be shared. Even if it's small" I said, giving a smile.