Baby In My Husband's Hugs

Kaku

I was still dissatisfied at Mas Arsen's reply which said confidently that he seemed to have the right to do as he pleased. There was no answer from him that satisfied me or at least clarified the heartbreak that he had good will to fix this marriage and fix things, then clarifying that his expression just now was just an involuntary emotion with the flickering of my question.

All night I couldn't catch an eye, this chest hurt, these tears didn't stop dripping, I couldn't stop, even I was tired and wanted to fall in the contest but never mind about the pennghianatan disappeared from my head. I saw the holy verse of the Quran in the distance there sounded soothing and heartbreaking, he was not even able to comfort the heart of the wounded to pieces because of the actions of Liliana's father.

The sun gradually showed itself, as I sighed slowly and opened the window, stepped into Liliana's room and checked the state of the children, my daughter is still sleeping beautifully so is the baby who is still in her crib, I landed a kiss on my son's forehead and pity it because it turns out secretly his father brought a baby brother who will be a rival position in the heart of Mas Arsen, who is a baby boy, it seemed sad to imagine that Harry would be more important than our son. I believe with great confidence that Mas Arsen will attach importance to his dark child who is now an orphan compared to Liliana who is still a mother figure to cope with him. Slowly in my chest came a grudge and a hatred for the toddler sleeping in front of me. I hated him and somehow he got stuck in this house in my foster care, but I didn't want him.

I also hate my husband who never wanted to open up from the beginning that .. ah, whatever reason he should have told his wife!

Perhaps distracted or feeling my energy and presence not far from him the baby squirms and begins to whine, he looks scared and agitated especially when he meets with the look of my angry eyes.

I sat in front of Liliana's bed planning to ignore her cries, enjoy the suffering from her fear, and let the baby cry as hard as she could to death from thirst, my heart froze! I want the baby to die soon and get out of our family!

But then I realized, that this baby is just a newborn child, he could not choose to be born from whom and what kind of relationship background. If he dies because of my actions, then I cannot forgive myself either. My consciousness suddenly returned and as soon as possible I picked up the frightened baby and hugged it tightly, miraculously, the baby stopped crying in an embrace, so that this heart became filled and pity. eroded hatred and revenge leaving tightness and sin, I then cried so much, roared, whimpered and wailed while hugging the baby. Why is my destiny and destiny such a thing?

I changed the baby's diaper and gave him a bottle of warm milk to eliminate hunger, and soon the baby went back to sleep. When I put him in his bed, Mas Arsen went into Liliana's room and found me there. He was stunned for a while, then asked where his work shirt belonged.

“Yes, well I'll get it,” I replied as I stepped with a cold face past it.

“You're fine, right?” tanyanya touched my arm.

“Let's just say I pretend to be okay, so care about me,” I replied indifferently, without looking at him at all, waiting for him to apologize and admit his mistake. But his heart was moved to start the conversation.

“You're still mad at me?”

It's ridiculous the question. Of course I'm still angry as long as he hasn't given me clarity on the matter. His statement last night was still ambiguous, what and why, everything was clear, so I could not open my heart, even look into his eyes I was disgusted.

“I'll explain everything if I'm ready, please give me time, while it is, please remain an understanding and loving wife,” she asked with a slow nap.

It's good that he keeps asking me to understand his mistakes, while I have to keep my attitude and keep my patience in front of him, and still serve him and his descendants like a servant who has no right to protest to his master? How easy!

“Yes, I wait for your explanation, keep waiting patiently until that patience runs out by itself,” my reply is cold.

"Why do you answer that, anyway?"

"I don't know how else to deal with you, I want to go But I love you so much Liliana, that what happened yesterday-yesterday was just a dream, but it's still a reality." no longer able to cry back slid on the cheek.

"I'm sorry," she came to hug me but I brushed her off.

"If we still have to be together, please give me the answer tell me everything from start to finish, so I'll understand whether we'll stay together or part ways" I replied with tears