August Waiting

a story of my life

Hi my name is Chloe Narendra.

I live in a simple family.

I was born and raised in Bali.

I am a child raised only by a single mother, to be more precise

I was born without a father in my life.

For more than 20 years I have never met my father, even I still do not know who my biological father figure until now.

When I was a child, I was always chatty and nanyain existence bokap to nyokap, but nyokap always say if for example bokap I already do not exist, but, in fact he said that bokap had long died while I was in his womb.

But until now I still can't believe that my father is dead.

Why do I not believe?,

The proof is that I never even met or just squirm photos nyokap the same bokap when they were together.

Do you know if I am a child born out of wedlock?, or am I a legitimate child?.

I don't know what I am.

Actually, I always wanted to know more about bokap than the explanation nyokap,

But because of my nyokap who always divert the conversation and seemed reluctant to discuss it, and his face always turned grim when I asked that, and his face always turned grim when I asked, which makes me have to go back and shut up not to question her again.

For many years I lived, I was always curious about my bokap, which made me not to stop looking to find out and try to dig into the life nyokap in the past.

But unfortunately the information I have been getting all this time is just a little and even that information is not complete enough for me to know who exactly bokap me.

Until finally the time came, where I knew who my real father was.

But when I found out who I really was, a few minutes later I died, right next to me.

Well, I know who my real father from nyokap, he told me about his past where he met bokap and told me how I could be in this world, he told me about his past, even he told me about the departure of my bokap, with the state of bokap do not know that I think I am pregnant with his child.

My feelings were a little confused when I heard the news.

Where when I knew the news I was happy, because I finally could know who my real father was.

for days I mourned,

after my death, I had to live sad days, where I was still not fully willing to miss me.

until in the end my cousin from Jakarta came to Bali to meet me and suggested for me to come with his study abroad.

at first I refused his offer, but my cousin was a teacher, and continued to tempt me to study abroad, which in the end I wanted, and went ahead with him to pursue a scholarship in Jakarta.

the next day my cousin and I left for Jakarta and immediately signed up for a scholarship.

after a few days I registered and took the recommended exam, finally the announcement of the selection results arrived, and fortunately I got the scholarship.

unfortunately, my cousin got a scholarship.

immediately after hearing my cousin get a scholarship, my heart began to hesitate to go to college abroad.

And I'll talk to him if I don't want to go to college, because we can't go to London together.

besides I also don't really dare to go abroad myself, especially this is the first time I will actually leave the country.

but my cousin convinced me that I could.

and my doubts began to diminish when my cousin returned to get a scholarship in Yogyakarta.

well inevitably I have to go and go to London after taking care of all the needs for me to be able to go to England.

the first time Dateng to London, I felt foreign to the place there and still not used to everything there.

and before I started college, the first thing I was looking for was a job.

well, I actually need a job to earn money for my life there.

well, even though the job I get is just a waiter at the cafe, and his salary does not matter how much, but it is enough to add to my pocket money.

the day I went to college, it was always interesting, where my life was just college and work.

believe me, for almost 3 months I was in London, I had never gone on vacation or just a picnic in the park.

until one day I met with adisty and Grace, where my daily life became cool, Seneng, well sometimes also a lot of drama, but with both of them, but with both of them, I feel like I am really reborn.

to be continued