ATHENS (TAMATE)
the chapter 40
"I'm home.."
"Waahh... Have you come home, baby?"
"Hmm. auntie! why is aunt home? is aunt's job done there?"
Aunt Zahra came up to me and rubbed my hair gently while smiling warmly "aunty's job is done there baby. And oh yeah. auntie cooks your favorite food!"
"Oh yeah?"
"Let's go to the dinner table!"
we walked to the dining room there was neatly arranged food that was still warm there was sauteed broccoli, corn soup and fried duck and also warm rice all ready to be served.
"Sit down... What do you want? fried duck? or saute broccoli ? or corn soup ? which one do you want?"
"Whatever side dishes your aunt gave me I'll eat. "
"Well.how about... hhmmmm... fried duck and also sauteed broccoli ?"
"Byeah, "my word. Then auntie Zahra painstakingly put every meal into my plate starting from rice, fried duck and sauteed broccoli did not forget she poured me a glass of water.
"Please enjoy.. "
"thank you. "
"Beloved one by one, " the reply did not forget the smile that made my heart warm again and again was given sincerely to me and did not feel my tears fell looking at the sincerity that Aunt Zahra gave me.
"Hhhmmmm.. It's so delicious. You know dear auntie cooking all full of precision from start chopping vegetables, cleaning the duck and also the seasoning that aunt put in, you know, aunty does not want to cook aunty later salty or tasteless or even could not be worth eating. Aunty doesn't want that, auntie doesn't want you to be unhappy with your aunt's cooking" aunt Zahra said by eating her food again.
I just silently stared and heard aunt Zahra's words, stared with thousands of questions for aunt Zahra and heard with thousands of answers to my questions from aunt Zahra.
"You know baby when I work everyone there praises my cooking she says my cooking is delicious and loved by everyone and also-... Heii...why cry is the cooking bad?" asked aunt Zahra in a panic.
"No, cook aunt Zahra good."
"I can see.I can see that all the cooking that aunt made was delicious.."
Aunt Zahra clasped my hand "what's up? "
I shook my head while wiping my tears "nothing."
"Someone who says nothing happens to her, actually something happens to her. It's just that he's not good at covering it up. What's up, honey? "
"Hikk... I. i.. hikss.. I just think why aunt can give me everything, want to accommodate me, love me like her own child, even want to send me to school. Wh why? why can aunt give me all that? hikss. I'm just a stranger who comes to be accommodated no more. "
"Shhhuuuttt.heard you are not a stranger, you are my son, my daughter, I send you to school because you deserve an education, you deserve to fight for your ideals, you deserve to be loved, you deserve to be loved, you deserve all of that."
"I'm afraid.I'm afraid.aunty is disappointed later."
"Willful why? did you make a mistake? or what?"
I shook my head again and rubbed my tears back "disappointed because of me. because I can't be perfect for aunty.. "
Aunt Zahra came up to me and hugged me tightly "you don't have to be perfect, be like yourself. I'd be proud if you could be yourself."
"Would you forgive me if I would make your aunt very disappointed. To me."
"Whatever your fault may be, no matter how small your mistake, if you want to stop and learn from your mistakes and also regret your mistakes, even if you don't ask your aunt to forgive you. Auntie will forgive you, baby. All have the right to be forgiven if he wants to regret it and take responsibility for his mistakes. Although there are wounds to be inflicted but all deserve to be forgiven. "
"I'm afraid.bii.. I'm afraid.. "
"Don't be afraid baby.there's an aunt here, your aunt Zahra will always be there for you. Don't be afraid, dear. Don't be afraid, " said aunt Zahra full of sincerity.
I'm crying more and more in Aunt Zahra's arms I don't know why, it's just that I'm tired. I'm tired of all this, that past, that past that scares me to walk forward, it's like a dark, creepy shadow and it's ready to kill me.
06-02-2021
