ANACHAL
32. He Shouldn't be an SSJ
...'Shouldn't He Like Same Kind (Lesbian)'...
Alara woke up from her long daydream. Then Alara went to the first floor to grab a drink in a long-sleeved nightshirt, but only wearing a hijab did not wear a Niqab because it was late at night, and there were no men at home either. Actually to grab a drink, can call a aunt, but Alara again does not want to trouble the aunt today.
There was a voice calling Alara's name from behind Alara.
"Al...., you still haven't slept?" Ask mama Alara.
Alara did not answer, she was busy fiddling with the contents of the refrigerator. I don't know what Alara was looking for, if the drink was in her hand. Maybe that's how she got away from her mom.
"What are you looking for, baby? How'd the fridge get ruffled?" Ask Mama Alara with a smile.
"I'm not looking for anything. And mama, stop pretending to care about me!" Tukas Alara slowly walked away from her mother.
Mama Alara stopped Alara's steps. And tell Alara that they both need to talk. So that the problem during this time is quickly resolved.
"What do you want to say, Ma? Don't be clear with me. I know everything ma. Including the relationship of the mother with the girl's friend. Lesbian mom ma!" Alara.
'Plakk's'
Spontaneously mama Alara slaps Alara. Mama Alara was not aware of her actions. Her hand seemed to just move to Alara's cheek when Alara said she was lesbian.
"Slap me and hold on." Snap Alara.
"What I'm saying is true. I saw firsthand, the relationship of mama with mama's girl friend, more than just a close friend. No one said friend, but hold hands together in a hotel room. Just two ma! There is no other! You guys looked so friendly back then. You guys are like dating guys. And I also know, mama went to America, just like her! Mama wants to live together with her! Without thinking, if there's still me, mama's son in this world!" Strictly Alara with tears that she can no longer bear anymore.
"You said it was all true!" Firm mama Alara.
"But now my mom is conscious. That's why my mom returned to Indonesia. Make you baby!. Sorry dear mama!. Mama is scared, son". Said Mama Alara while stroking Alara's hair.
Alara put her mother's hand off her head.
"Mama knows it's Al! But the condition of the mother who was very bad at that time, made the mother out of control. And at that time, you also hate mama, only she is a friend of mama who is always there for mama, until mama is comfortable with her. And he felt the same way Al. More than a friend. Mom traumatized with Al men. Enough of your papa who has broken the heart of mama to pieces. Mama also knew, at the age of the mother who was not young anymore, the thing that mama did, was very inappropriate in imitation. Especially when mom became a mother. Now my mom realizes it, baby. That's why my mom came home to Indonesia, improved and asked God for forgiveness, for what you've been doing dear. So please understand from you dear. Please help me get out of this shackle. My mom has changed, son!." Obviously mama Alara.
"Why did you bring papa in this matter ma....?" Papa has no mama still blame papa continues!". Alara said in wonder.
"Because it's your papa, who made Mama like that Al!" Mama Alara.
"I mean mama....?" Alara was confused.
"Now is the time to know Al. That, papa you know well, and care all along, he's a lecherous man, and a striped-nose man, who likes to play girls." Said mama Alara.
Alara was shocked and did not believe what her mother said.
"Mama why the ma! Papa does not have ma. And mama, it's still ugly papa!" Alara said with annoyance.
"May be hard for you to believe, baby. But that's the truth. Mama tried to hide this as you love, so that you are not hurt like you felt at that time. The incident that you saw first, when mom and dad quarreled, because mom already knew you were cheating with another woman, and that woman was pregnant with your dad's son Al. Papa said, it happened a long time ago, and he has never been in contact with the woman again. My mother felt betrayed for years. Mama was very angry, and banged your papa, until finally mama got out of control, papa you got pushed hard by mama and fell from the second floor down. Mama was also shocked by the passing of your papa Al. Mom was stressed and depressed at the time. You saw for yourself at that time how my mother's condition was." Mama alara.
Alara was silent for a moment, and tried to understand and digest the sentence that I just said her mother.
"I still can't believe that I'm that kind of person. I know how papa. You know how to treat women well. Papa can be a good father to me and always be there for me whenever and at any time I need papa. I can't believe it!" Said Alara withholding her cries, as she passed away leaving her mother.
Alara fell asleep while her cheeks were still moist because of the tears that continued to flow through Alara's cheeks.
Alara woke up in the middle of the night, she wudhu, then tahajud prayer, to calm her heart and all of you convey her grievances to the creator.
It took Alara time to believe her mother's explanation of what really happened years ago. Alara could not swallow what her mother said. Not that she doesn't fully trust her mother, but Alara has to find her own evidence and the true events that happened in the past. He had to solve the mystery of his own past so that Alara would believe and understand why his mother was so angry at his father at that time. The mystery must be solved by Alara one by one.
Perhaps Alara's nature has not been able to completely change, her nature is still the same as it used to be. But if he feels restless, and sad, now he has become accustomed to divide all his complaints on the one that is Allah SWT. Because with that, the problem was a little more raised and his heart became calmer.
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