Ana Antazric

01

Heart rate that is felt very quickly is not as usual. His heart felt the sudden heat and the racing it should he calm down.

"Oh God, what is this feeling? Aiza's eyes are no stranger to me. Those eyes that were so shady made me feel something of comfort in themselves as I looked at her. Is it true that Aiza is someone you predestined for me?. O Allah, I know that you are All-Knowing, so I ask you to show that what I feel and think is true!. All I've done to you, God." Write Arkan in his diary.

After leaving the boarding school and going to a lake in the pesantren. Arkan often goes there if he is sad or dizzy with his work. The lake became Arkan's favorite place to calm himself down.

While in other places Aiza has mingled well, with all the ustazah who are in the pesantren's office. While Aiza was chatting with the oara ustazah who was fighting there, there was the sound of someone calling and approaching Aiza.

"Assalamualaikum." said Umi Ayu

"Waalaikumsalam umi" they answered simultaneously.

"Aiza, can I talk to you for a second?" Ask umi ayu.

"Yes, what's wrong?" Aiza.

"How about you start today just enter the pesantren?, From today you will stay in this pesantren!. Ayu Umi to Aiza.

"Can I umi?" Tanya Aiza hesitated.

"Of course I can. Umi asked this to both of your parents. They also agree with the advice of umi" explained umi ayu to Aiza.

"Alright umi, Ais agrees. But all of Ais's clothes are still in dad's car!" Aiza.

"Just calm. Umi had already taken down Ais's clothes. Because I want Ais's father to get a call from his business partner and they have a very important business so they do not have time to tell Ais that they have come home"

"HM, yes I don't know" Aiza replied. There was a sense of disappointment that he felt when he heard what Umi ayu said. But there is also a sense of happiness because from today he will often see Arkan.

"Yes, then Ais's son can enter and see the room that Ais will stay in. Later ustazah Sofi who will deliver Ais to your room, yes you will become roommates later. Oh yeah Ais's clothes later Imi asked Arkan to take her to Ais's room. " Umi ayu.

"Thank you" said Aiza.

"HM, yaudah tuh you can join Sofi later she will show you the place. All of you rest. Nak Ais must have been tired of traveling long ago. Hopefully, Iis will feel at home and there will be no problems later as long as Iis is in this pesantren" said Umi Ayu with a smile.

"Yes" replied Aiza.

"Yes, let's go Ais. Sofi. We start with umi assalamualaikum" said Sofi and answered by umi ayu.

After greeting her and getting her answer, Aiza and Sofi left the boarding house. Aiza and Sofi walked towards the room they would occupy together later. After walking for about two minutes they finally arrived at the room referred to by umi ayu before.

"Well, pretty big. HM are we just the two of us here or are there still other ustazah who also live here?" Ask Aiza. Because he saw there were several mattresses and cabinets in the room. Yeah, I don't think that's possible if only Sofi was here alone.

"Na'am. Here we have three before, there is me, Ratna and Tasya. And now it has grown to four people, namely Ais" Sofi replied with a smile towards Aiza.

"Oh, rame dong. Where are they both now?" Ask Aiza.

"Yes they teach now. Because different levels of education. They've been home longer than Sofi. Yes he said the same as the level of SMP. But Sofi also does not know, because Sofi is also new here.!" Said Sofi

While busy chatting about Sofi's experience while in the boarding school. Suddenly someone said a greeting from outside their room.

"Assalamualaikum" Arkan said

"Waalaikumsalam" they answered simultaneously

"This was ana told umi to bring this here. He said it belonged to Aiza." Said Arkan while putting his luggage near Aiza.

"HM. thanks. Sorry to bother Arkan to bring Ais luggage from the house" said Aiza who felt bad for Arkan.

"Na'am is not papa. Excuse me first. Assalamualaikum" said arkan and answered by Aiza and Sofi. After that Arkan immediately left the place.

After Arkan's departure. Aiza immediately tidied the clothes in the closet that had been provided in the room, Sofi also petrified Aiza of course. After finishing cleaning their luggage, they rest. At a break suddenly Ratna and Tasya came in. They finally met each other.

days pass. Aiza died down at home in the pesantren.there is no regret because at that time she decided to serve in the pesantren was very rushed, even Aiza felt very happy. the worry that he used to feel because he would not be able to adapt to the new environment while he never felt. now in fact, he is very comfortable even very comfortable to be here. Aiza has a new best friend and can also see Arkan every day because Aiza and Arkan teach in the same place so they meet more often.

the cool breeze hit Aiza's face.reminds how her life is unlucky in terms of love.Yes even though she sees Arkan every day.they are like someone who does not know each other. they are busy with their own activities. Aiza could only remain silent without saying anything that her original purpose was in this pesantren. Aiza opened her diary and began to reveal her heart in the book.

"love in silence is a feeling that is so deep. This is quite often the case in men and women. these feelings stored in the heart cannot be conveyed because there are various conditions that force a person to take action to hide his love.

love is sometimes distilled to be expressed and can not be forced . some reasons make a person harbored the feelings he feels, although heavy and sometimes make someone feel sad, sometimes make someone feel sad, but they still prefer to harbour his feelings.maybe because there is fear of rejection that will make the pain even more later.

the words 'love in silence' is a feeling that must be harbored without having to be expressed.it certainly can cause pain and sadness that is very deep, regardless of any reason. of course this feeling is quite difficult to live because there is always fear in acting whatever you want to do.

it is true that human instinct has a feeling of love.the arrival of the feeling of love is sometimes unexpected.sometimes there is someone who feels love and it is easy for him to convey to the person he loves, but there is also the opposite.There is a sense of love that is very difficult to express and convey. Maybe I am one of the people who feel how difficult it is to convey this love.

this makes me only able to hold this feeling of affection and love in silence. because there is fear of people I love even being in love with others. although heavy and sometimes sad but still I can not get rid of this feeling of love. ana antazrik mas Arkan. I wait for you ~M.A~