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10. Get far

Dormitory.

The atmosphere of the pesantren was still gripping after that great battle. Fear haunts the students if the attack will happen again. On the other hand, Zidan already includes students who must be protected. But on the other hand, the assault included Zidan's own personal affairs. Somehow his fate is now.

" i swear, I saw Zidan so cool!" 😍 said Marwa broke the silence.

" cool what?! To be battered so' so hotshot him!" naira grumbled because she was indeed a little upset and worried because Zidan was injured.

" yes, Naira's real. Why not call the police?" bela Fatma's.

" are you sure the police dared to stop them?" 😒 ask Shofa in disbelief.

" why not dare?" 🙁

" the fifteen of them carried a cleaver, cerulite and other sharp tools. It's been a miracle, Zidan can come out in one piece from there." - Ayana.

" hush, don't be ahk! The police also have a gun. With just one shot into the sky they must have dispersed." said Naira.

" that's it." said Fatma.

" about Zidan how are things now? Is it possible he'll be taken out?" 😥 said Marwa.

" don't know." replied Shofa.

Naira was silent. He wasn't sure to go there. Plus he hadn't been to that place in a long time. Zidan couldn't be there either, right? He was so embarrassed after Zidan suddenly said that he liked it. I don't know what kind of likes, but Naira obviously wants to stay away from him. But the more shunned, the harder it is. Another way to get rid of this bad taste is to make Zidan himself stay away from it.

" guys, I'm going to the office?"

" ahh, yes. What about the next lesson?"

" just go ahead."

" oh, okay." they answered.

Naira quietly went to that place. I wish there wasn't Zidan there. But what he saw was the opposite. Still with a blood-soaked glove and a wound on his left forehead, Zidan was sitting pensively on the wooden chair that Naira used to sit on before.

" assalamu'alaikum Zidan." 😊

" wa'alaikumsalam, Naira? Why are you here?"

" can't you? You forgot who owns this place?" 😒

" Allah SWT. If not, it must be Abi Yusuf."

" it's pinter, you." 😑

" i want to be alone again." said Zidan.

I don't know why, but that sentence really pierced Naira's heart. Is that the ganster of Gandaria? Why was he so flabby after fighting against the fifteen youths earlier?

" you're hurt, does it hurt?" 😟

" you're the first to ask me how I am, thank you."

" how would anyone ask you how you are, you're hiding here." 😒

" how would they care about my situation, after the fight, everyone would stay away from me."

For some reason, Naira who had wanted to approach Zidan felt guilty. If only his father hadn't held Naira back then. He was too afraid to break his father's orders.

" i'm sorry, Zidan."

" it's okay, if you I get it. You're Hasbi's future wife, you can't look close to another man."

" Zidan's.."

" what?"

" i brought you this medicine box. I can't treat you, but at least I care about you."

" it's okay, it's more than enough for me."

" and if you can.."

" get as far away from me as you can" I said heavily.

" i already know, you'd say that."

" don't worry, I'll also stay away since I know you'll be betrothed to Hasbi."

" this.. Nothing to do with my matchmaking and Hasbi."

" don't comfort me, Naira. My internal and external wounds are already hard to treat."

" i'm serious, there's not the slightest intention in my heart to want to marry Hasbi. I tried to persuade Abi, but I couldn't. Even for years I tried to postpone it, Abi would still marry me to Hasbi."

" it's still Hasbi being your excuse, asking me to stay away."

" that's not it, Zidan. I'm sorry if I'm wrong, but my heart says that you like me. I was afraid to go deeper. I can't stay away, so I beg you to stay away from me."

" oh, so.." ☺

" why are you smiling?" 🙁

" you don't realize what you're saying?" 😄

" huh? What's?" 🙁

" you said I should stay away from you, because you're hard to get away from."

" yes, then why?" 🙁

" you're so innocent, that means you have the same taste as me." 😄

" has the same taste? So I like you too, don't I?" 🙁

" well, you can easily express it. I'm so embarrassed." ☺

" uh! No!! I don't really! Just now.. I'm.." 😰

" now just awaken? Let it go, it's out of your mouth too." 😆

" enough! I don't mean it." 😫

" yes, yes. I-i understand. I'll stay away from you as much as possible. It's for our own good, isn't it?"

" yes, that's it." 😰

" if I want to be with you, what should I do?"

" thank me first, you can be with me."

" halalkan? Are you haram?" 🙁

" not the concept either.. I am haram for you, and for other men who are not my mahram. But I'm not haraam like pigs, wine and stuff."

" oh, so. How do I justify you?" 🙁

" meet my father, if you dare."

" just like that?"

" yes, if my father agrees. After that you just asked me."

" i'll ask your father later. Now let me ask you first. Do you want me to justify you?"

" why not?"

" the order is not so! Ask my dad first!!" 😫

" yes, yeah okay." 😆

" remember this saying. Cut or halve. If you want to leave then don't see me again forever. If you're going to banish it, then stay away from me in the meantime for our good. If a soul mate would meet."

" then I choose to cancel."

" don't answer in front of me too!" 😫

" can't you?"

" ahh, you're making me worry right now. Nevermind! I have to go back now." said Naira about to leave.

" wait!"

" what else?!" 😫

" do you have your dream wedding? We will rarely meet. I need to know what my future wife wants a wedding to be like." 🙁

" i'm not your future wife yet! I don't really care what my marriage will be like. I just want my future husband to give me a surah dowry Ar-Rahman, that's all."

" surah what?"

" Ar-rahman! Already, yes! I gotta get back. Assalamu'alikum." ☺

" wa'alikumsalam."

Naira just disappeared. Leave wounds and happiness in one moment for Zidan. He is sometimes surprised by Naira's attitude which he finds difficult to guess.

" this girl, as if giving me a code to immediately justify it. But he was so adamant about asking me to stay away."

" does men and women not get that close?"

" surah Ar-Rahman, huh?" 🙁

" i'm sure that surah will be very long." 😑

" a Naira Humaira won't give an easy thing to a man who will fight for her."

" but I'll try." ☺

" because he didn't even forget, to smile when he said hello to me."

" although that may have been our farewell."

Abi Yusuf's Room.

Naira was really nervous when someone said Abi Yusuf was looking for her. After Zidan's battle, Abi must have seen clearly how Naira's attitude changed. Naira regrets that she has gone too far past the boundaries.

" sit up Naira." said Abi Yusuf when he found out his daughter had arrived.

" what did Abi call me?" ask Naira directly.

" Naira, is the princess's dorm safe?"

" safe, Abi."

Naira clearly knew, this was just her father's stale base so as not to be too visible the real subject.

" Ra, don't repeat Zahra's mistake?"

Finally the question Naira was afraid of arrived. He was nervous and afraid that his father would know everything.

" Naira doesn't know the details of what Zahra's fault is, Abi."

" you must have known, Brother Zahra could not have kept quiet with you."

" sister Zahra really doesn't say much about it, Abi. Brother just said that I shouldn't date before marriage."

" right, that's the important point."

" why did Abi bring this up?"

" Naira knew it wasn't adultery and everything that approached her was haram?"

" i-yes, Abi." 😞

" Abi won't blame you, because adolescence and puberty are human. But, Abi as your father has no right to educate you?"

" right, Abi."

" you're going to obey Abi's wishes, right?"

" yes, Abi. As long as it's good for me, then I won't refuse."

" all right. Stay away from Zidan, will you?"

" Naira was never close to her Abi." 😰

" Abi does not know and does not want to know how far you are close. Anyway, Abi wants you to stay away from the new santri. Not hard, is it?"

" of course not, Abi."

" good. There will be nothing wrong as long as you intend to be in the way of Allah."

" but Abi, Naira has a condition.."

" what is that?"

" if Abi asks Naira to stay away from Zidan, then Naira asks not to bring another man closer as well. Including Hasbi. Isn't he a man, Abi?"

" ahh, yes, okay."

" and Naira doesn't want any more rumors about the matchmaking. Naira's soul mate has been arranged by Allah SWT. Naira wouldn't argue if it was Hasbi or not. But Naira doesn't want to be associated with any man as long as Naira isn't alone."

" well, forgive Abi. It's been a lot of stress about that rumor."

" it's okay, Abi. Forgive Naira too, for letting Abi down."

" no Naira, you're a very proud son of Abi."

" thank you, Abi. Then Naira pamit. Assalamu'alaikum."

" ha'alaikumsalam."

Naira came out with mixed feelings. At least he's met Zidan before. So that he does not become misunderstood and continue to disturb him. Let him stay away first. If destiny is determined, nothing is difficult to achieve.

On the other side.

" Naira, is it now that I can only see you from afar?" 😟

" may my name always be tucked in your prayer, as your name I will never forget in my prayer."

" i know, I'm not a nice guy. But I'll try my best to deserve to be the one chasing you."

" well, at least so."

" wait for me, Naira." bitter Zidan in his heart. Seeing Naira's steps getting away and lost.

To be continue..