All My Heart's
Episode 17's
Three years passed, inside a famous Architecture Company in Seoul.
“Jin Ho, wait a minute!”
A tall man with a field back and brown hair immediately stopped his steps and turned around. His extremely white skin contrasted so much with the white shirt suit behind the pitch-black suit he was wearing.
“Oh, Hoon Min, what's up?” said the man named Jin Ho.
“So our supervisor called me. He said you should see him at 10:00 during the office break.”
“What else is it?” jin Ho asked with a frown, “aku, right, already took care of the administrative registration for this seventh semester,” his scolding.
“Entahlah. But, I suggest you meet him if you want to survive and graduate on time,” said Hoon Min casually.
“Haah... I understand,” said Jin Ho half annoyed, “I finish the report first, 15 minutes I go there,” he added as it passed away.
Different, yes, quite a long time passed and the figure of a Joon Jin Ho seemed to change drastically. He grew into such a handsome man with his stern jaw. And with his intelligence he became the best scholarship student.
Because of this, his life in Seoul became more secure. He managed to lead a branch company from one of the largest architectural subsidiary that has given him the cost of education.
And now, in the largest room of the office, Jin Ho looks busy cleaning up the papers and maps scattered before his gaze is fixed on a figura in the corner of his desk.
“Hai, Big Miss Cha In Hyeong, since you have a boyfriend I rarely contact you. You stupid girl, how do you know that I miss you here.”
For a moment Jin Ho fell silent with his typical cold gaze before finally leaving the room. Meanwhile, in Busan after three years had passed, In Hyeong looked so lousy.
“In Hyeong, are you okay?” eun Hee asks who keeps knocking on the toilet door.
And a second later, In Hyeong came out with her already wet chubby cheeks flooded with tears. She grew up to be a cute girl with long hair and a model body but, for this time she looks very messed up with paled lips.
“Kak, what's up?” eun Hee asked in panic.
“Eun Hee..”
Watching In Hyeong who couldn't even continue her sentence and directly hugged her so tightly, Eun Hee became even more worried.
“Ka, Brother, what's up?”
“Kak Dong Hwa...” said In Hyeong after taking off his arms.
“Ke, why? What did he do to you?”
“She...he bullied me, then just cut me off for no apparent reason. Though he promised to marry me after graduating from college later.”
In Hyeong's cry broke again while hugging Eun Hee who looked furious at the news.
“How dare he do that to you. You guys have even been dating for two years,” Eun Hee's nag, “just relax, I'll tell our friends about this. Let them beat him up.”
“Ng...” says In Hyeong while nodding briefly.
“Already. The college friends are all home. No more classes after this. We buy ice cream in front of the station just to calm your feelings.”
“Ng..”
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“So, I mean Teacher Kang, I have to prepare some titles for my final assignment next year?” jin Ho asked the man before him.
“Yes, your values are also more than enough to meet the requirements of compiling this final task. So, prepare yourself as best you can.”
“Alright, I try this week to leave some titles to you,” Jin Ho said excitedly.
“Good. I wait.”
After bowing for a moment, carrying the happy feeling that filled his heart at that moment, Jin Ho stepped out. He rushed to contact his parents and two sisters. However, when about to press In Hyeong's number, there was doubt from the look on his face.
Turning his phone around, he stepped onto one of the chairs in the courtyard of Inha University and sat feeling the spring sun along with the gentle breeze that rubbed his skin. A second later, he lowered his head while tightly grasping the phone with both hands. Several times he slid his hands firmly to his forehead.
“You drink?”
He immediately woke up and raised his head.
“Jun Su?”
Tegurnya who then welcomed canned drinks from his little friend.
“Haaa..”.
Jun Su's breathing still looked the same, only his body was getting taller and denser. He sat down by Jin Ho's side and for a moment they quietly enjoyed each other's drinks.
“Jun Su?” reprimand Jin Ho.
“Hmm?”
“Fall in love with it.. Does it have to be this sick?”
For a moment Jun Su fixed his seat and leaned back while crossing his legs.
“If in my opinion, falling in love should be fun and as if the world belongs to us only.”
“But, why until this second do I feel only pain?”
“Find another girl if you want to erase that pain.”
Sontak Jin Ho looked at his best friend with an uncomfortable feeling, as if he disagreed with the expression. However, Jun Su who was completely indifferent remained relaxed while looking at the students who were around the park.
“You see that purple haired girl?” jun Su asked as he gulped down a bit of his drink.
And without a second thought, Jin Ho turned his eyes to the direction in question.
“When semester four I had one room with her and besides being beautiful, she was smart too. I don't know why some of them stayed away from him but, likely due to his jovial nature,” Jun Su explained excitedly, “his name is No Hye Mi and I think he is not much different from your current “girl”.”
“I never once wanted to make you suffer. Let alone crying or miserable because of people who only think of you as a trash girl. Because to me, you're like a rainbow that always makes my day, time, and life more colorful. Never once did I want to see you cry and waste your tears in vain. I just want to see you smile and laugh like now. I hope, tomorrow and beyond, you can stay like this.”
Remembering again the words of In Hyeong who was so imprint and until this moment was still recorded perfectly in his brain.
“But, how about you die first? You won't be able to take care of me anymore... But I wish I would die first. Because I don't want to cry and be weak because of you.”.
“Jin Ho? Jin Ho,” reprimand Jun Su, “HEI! JOON JIN HO?”
Jin Ho suddenly regained his senses from his daydream when he heard the scream. He blinked quickly and momentarily looked at Jun Su who looked annoyed with a dazed look.
“Oh, sorry, Brother. I go first.”
Jin Ho hurried away after patting Jun Su's left shoulder which could only resist the irritation due to his attitude. Meanwhile, Jin Ho had now driven on the highway leading to the Han River. And moments after parking his car, he was silent looking at his picture with In Hyeong when in the amusement park four years ago.
“Why should you enter my life?” ask her with a stifled voice, “haaa.”.
There was a sigh before leaning back after removing the seat belt. He stretched his tie a little and now, he closed his mind full of words written on a piece of paper.
Paper wrapped neatly with a green envelope. First love letter to the first person who can melt the heart of Joon Jin Ho. The first person to make Jin Ho's life turned 180 degrees without changing himself. The first person he really wanted to protect and wanted his presence.
Like waking up in a dream
When I know you
There's no greeting
However, your smile can confirm me
That I love you
Your happiness, I feel it
Sad you, I'm trying to erase it
Until without you knowing
You are like the sun
You were my spirit when I woke up from sleep
Trying to always take care of you
So that the sun may shine
Don't change the rain
You're my reason for survival
You are my reason to be grateful for destiny
You became my life purpose
Because you're my eye
Note: Cha In Hyeong, I'm waiting for you after school at Haeundae Beach.
Who always wanted to take care of you
Joon Jin Ho's
His memory turned back and saw the incident when he returned In Hyeong's textbook, where he inserted his love letter.
“This is your book. Thank you.”
“Iya.”
In Hyeong's sweet smile and joy at receiving the book back did not cause Jin Ho any suspicion. However, when the lesson began, In Hyeong simply shifted the book to the left side and did not touch it at all until the lesson ended.
Anxiety also haunts Jin Ho until he gets a reprimand from the teacher for not paying attention to his explanation and after school he rushed to Haeundae Beach. Long, hours until the time showed at 12:00 midnight, he who was worried finally decided to return to school.
Running down the dark hallways of the school right in front of their class, Jin Ho was silent to find In Hyeong's book in the trash. Without a second thought, he grabbed the book and opened the middle page.
Hasn't he read it yet.
Looking at the letter that still looks good and does not appear at all indentation or other signs that indicate if the object has been opened, he also sat down and blinked with an empty view. Long until he decided to go home after putting the book in his bag.
And the next day with a feeling of annoyance he pulled In Hyeong who was busy listening to music without caring about the strange gazes of the students. He clasped In Hyeong's wrist tightly until the girl screamed as she threw her hand at them behind the school building.
“Hei! What are you doing?!”
“I?! What am I doing?!” jin Ho won't lose.
“Iya. What are you doing, Joon Jin Ho?!” in Hyeong shouted louder.
“Why did you throw away the notebook I returned yesterday?”
Instantly In Hyeong's forehead wrinkled. An annoyance still enveloped him for being pulled and yelled at for no apparent reason. But, after hearing Jin Ho's question, he looked silent and urgently answered it.
For a moment he just stared intently at Jin Ho while holding his wrists reddened and made Jin Ho feel guilty.
“Sorry, does it still hurt?”
Doubtful however, he slowly approached In Hyeong and touched her wrist. He carefully massaged her to make In Hyeong look down and get deeper. He who initially thought that In Hyeong was only embarrassed because of his treatment was shocked when a drop of water soaked his fingers.
“Hey, I didn't mean to hurt you. No cry. Ma...”
“Sa, right now it's not my hand that hurts but, my heart. Ka, Brother Il Woo broke off the relationship that we have been in for almost three years unilaterally yesterday the day after tomorrow, without hearing whether I agree or not. Sa, until this moment I still can not accept such a way. Da, and too many names as well as the words he spoke to me were written there. I threw it away because even if I deleted the entire article, it would still be.”
Silent, alone with both eyes still closed, Jin Ho put both hands on the wheel of the car and rested his head. Until his body seemed to shake and his sobbing slowly sounded clearly remembered the guilt he had felt since six years with In Hyeong.
