ALANA: Pursuing the Love of a Stepchild

Between Husband and Lover

It was very difficult to calm down today. Hendru always follows me wherever I go. It felt sick, followed by this old man, until I felt like yelling, but still liked the position of this stepmother in order to have Raikhal later.

Be that as it may, whenever I feel fed up, I can only take a deep breath, then exhale it slowly.

"Maas ...." I called out softly Hendru, this time instead of using the 'sister' frills, so the old man beside me immediately widened his happy eyes when he saw me. "I want to be alone, okay? I'm still... nervously after the wedding. Please ... Give me some room for adaptation, will you?" With a gentle tone, I persuaded, so easily, this old man nodded at my request.

"Oh, okay. Sorry if it makes you uncomfortable. You are now free to do anything at home" replied Hendru, with great enthusiasm.

"Thank you, Mas ...." I smiled broadly, so that Hendru would get weaker towards me, with which, I could more easily use it for my own needs. "I .. want to make a cake. What kind of cake do you like? Raikhail?"

"Whatever you make, we'll love it" replied Hendru quickly.

I nodded gently, then stood up leaving the television viewing room. During the trip, my eyes rotated once as it was upset with this marriage, especially all of Hendru's attitude. It may be true said people, the older a person is, the more childish his nature.

Damn, I'm hard to bear with all Hendru's attitude. Sick of it! Especially if plus the proximity of Raikhal and Eliza, it feels .. I just want to swing a knife on Eliza and Hendru, so that Raikhal is only mine alone.

Luckily, for now, I can still think healthy. My logic still works, so .. I canceled the intention to hold the knife— chose to open the top cabinet, as well as the refrigerator to make biscuits. I can't use violence in every problem. Must stick to the gentleness, with which I can master many things slowly.

The corner of my right lip lifted into a cynical smile. It feels happy, even if only imagined, and I promise, this is not just a dream. Someday, Raikhal being mine will surely come true.

Now, I'm going to make a cake that Raikhal always compliments me every time I take it to the orphanage. Because this will not be enough to get rid of Eliza and Hendru alone, but I also have to know the reason why the man can not like me, instead choose Eliza whom he even only knows for a few days.

Is it because Eliza is beautiful?

The movement of my hand stirring the dough immediately stopped thinking about it. Yeah, I admit, Eliza is very pretty with milk-white skin because she is an Indonesian-Russian crossbreed. Her nose is perfectly pointed, with beautiful blue eyes. His hair was tanned, as soft as silk.

My breathing changed rapidly, as the resentment grew harder for me to contain. The activity of stirring the dough using the hands turns to be rough. Even on purpose, I hit the dough like I was hurting Eliza.

If it is true that the physical determinant of why Raikhal dropped the choice on Eliza, then .. I do not have to finish Eliza, but enough to ruin her appearance.

The knife I pulled out of the place with my left hand. An optimistic smile surfaced as I looked at the sparkle the blade displayed every time I moved it.

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I was excited not to be a bitch when Raikhal very greedily ate all the cakes I made earlier. Luckily, I left it in one special container for her, because otherwise, the greedy Hendru almost finished all my homemade cookies.

"I'm cool if you like it" I said.

"Alana is really great for making cakes. Everyone who eats, seems to be addicted" Hendru said, giving his pointless response.

"So, I'll grab a drink first." Raikhal stood up from the sofa, about to prevent it, but stopped because Hendru suddenly held my arm so as not to move.

"You've been avoiding me all day, Alana. Is something wrong?" ask Hendru.

I smiled gently, though it was actually very lazy to respond to this man. "No, Mas. Why think that? I'm just ... again an adaptation. One house with new people—even though we already know each other, still a strange feeling with me."

Hendru nodded, as if understanding what I said.

"Then, we can practice while you try to adapt."

In response to my question, Hendru shifted his sitting position closer to me. Next to his hand that had originally grasped my arm, it now moved to my face, giving a gentle swab that gave a goosebumping effect. I had to squeeze the clothes over my thighs to survive the sensation this old man caused.

I understood his 'exercise' intent immediately as the man advanced the face with half-closed eyes. Suddenly, I dodged it by staying away to the end of the sofa so that this man could not reach me.

Despite being married to Hendru, I was determined to give my body—especially my first kiss—only for Raikhal! In any case, I should be able to avoid Hendru, and all the demands of his bed.

"Why?" asked Hendru, a little disappointed imprinted on his forehead, and I did not care about that fact at all.

"Later Raikhal came back here, what? Ih, Mum! It's delicious, it can be arbitrary. I'm ... still a girl .. I'm ashamed, if in a place like this."

"Yes, let's go to the room!"

Hendru wanted to stand up, but I held him by gripping his arm using both hands.

"I still want to watch, Mas .... It's also eight o'clock." I whine spoiled, because only with this can I melt Hendru as I see fit.

Sure enough, this man was obedient. His smile widened, with blushing cheeks. He even wanted to defeat the young men's bucin, even though he was four heads old! You are unconscious!

Hendru grabbed my shoulder, to lay me on his shoulder. Along with that, Raikhal also came back to the living room, this time bringing along his laptop and mobile phone.

"Why don't you study in a room, Rai?" ask Hendru, care.

"Not learning, Pa," Raikhal replied, without taking his eyes off the laptop screen.

For some reason, my anger immediately rose when I imagined Raikhal was engrossed in making out with Eliza via chat or phone. However, I have absolutely no solution to prevent this from happening.

Uh, think of something, Alana! Think .... Don't let Raikhal and Eliza get any closer.

"Rai, can I study with you? You see some material I don't understand, understand, slow brain." I made a sound, and made Raikhal look up with a surprised face for a moment.

Raikhal was seen staring at his papa for a while, and I also looked at Hendru, so he immediately nodded giving permission.

"By, Lan." Raikhal. "Nanti—"

"Can now? Mumpung luang." I will not let you both be happy and friendly!

"Oh, okay. Can." Raikhal assented nervously, and I smiled at him.

"Study in your room, huh? Don't bother me" I said again. Then glanced at Hendru asking for permission when Raikhal looked uncomfortable.

"Sana, you guys study in the room." Hendru did not mind allowing.

I smiled with satisfaction. Time for PDKT with my chatter without being disturbed by my husband.

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