Against Julid's In-laws

Sorry, Son

"Bagcases... Ayuu..."

It was an hour ago that I reached Bagas' house, but no one opened the door. Do they hate me so much ?

"Dye... Bagas.. hiks, hiks."

I sat on the floor crying. Feeling very sorry for hurting a very devoted child.

"Ohuk ... uhuk..."

"Da-rah ? Bagas..."

My chest feels so tight. Can only lean. I tried to knock on the door, but there was no answer. The voice slowly weakened, because it was blocked by the coughing that continued to interfere. The throat also feels very sore.

"Mom, astaghfirullah."

Ayu ran from the car. He hugged me to get into the house. His face was very panicked at the blood on my hands.

"Bagcases... Ayuu..."

Bagas stared at me, without saying much he carried me towards the car. Ayu did not come, she carried her children out of the car.

"Mas, take it to the nearest clinic first, I'll follow you how. Want nitipin kids first." said Ayu. Bagas.

My position was sitting on the front bench, beside me was Bagas driving. He didn't want to talk, but his face was very worried. My lips were tightly locked, speechless. There was only a sense of haru, realizing Bagas' immense affection. Maybe he was hurting me, but did not hesitate to help, and worried about my situation.

"Sorry, son."

The tears of Bagas collapsed like rain at night. Likewise with the rain stubs on my cheeks, it had been not willing to stop. My body was limp, my heart was crying, I held it tightly to Bagas' arm.

"I'm sorry, son."

Bagas was still unmoved, his lips locked. Only facial expressions and tears represent the heart. I cried as much as I could, not holding back any regrets.

"Ohuk... uhuk..."

"Astaghfirullah, ma'am, there's more blood" said Bagas. My lips smiled at the sound I missed so much.

"Mommy's fine, Bagas. But.the heart of the mother is not okay. Forgive me, Son. All this time I was not paying attention to you. But one thing you should know, you're a mother's biological child, you love you too, son."

The car suddenly stopped. Bagas drowned his face in the car. She was crying as much as she could. I understand the pain he feels. Not hate, but miss the love of a mother. I was a loving mother, but I could feel Bagas still loving me so much.

"Bagcases... I'm sorry, son."

I rubbed his head just as he was a child when he was crying. I grabbed her hair so she could calm down.

"Mom, Bagas misses a mother like this." Bagas hugged me tightly. The warmth of Bagas' embrace cooled my heart. Don't want me to let go again. All this time, I've been too cruel to forget her feelings. I don't know when I've been ignoring my son.

"Bu. da-ri used to be Bagas cu-ma ma-u hugged like i-ni. Bagas longs for the need of i-bu, hiks, hyks."

"I'm sorry, son."

My heart aches, hurts, hears this heart-piercing word of longing. This is so evil of me, O God, wherever I have been that Setega has neglected my own son.

Perhaps, I thought that the boy should be strong without being pampered. In fact, loving and supporting children is a must, want a boy or a girl.

"We need to see a doctor, Mom." Bagas regained his senses from his cries, he immediately grasped the steering wheel.

"I'm sorry, son, please." Bagas nodded with a smile. The burden on this heart is instantly gone. Along the way to the hospital, only happiness shrouded my feelings.

...

"Sus, please take care of my mother immediately."

"Antry first, Mas."

"My mother is in bad shape, Sus. He coughed up blood. Time has to wait."

"Yes, just go to the ER."

Bagas took me to the ER. He faithfully waited until the doctor came, then the doctor told him to come out. The doctor examined me and gave me an infusion because my condition was weak.

"Mommy has a history of lungs ?"

"Yes, Doc, another six months' worth of medication."

"God, ma'am, danger well, don't be. Later we X-ray again to know how severe the growth of tbc bacteria. This is the effect of taking the medicine is not as recommended by the doctor, so it gets worse and the disease gets stronger."

"Sus, his mother will order a sputum test, yeah. Put on the infusion hose first."

"Ready, Doc."

The doctor left me with a sour face. A few minutes later Bagas went back into the ER room.

"Mom, the doctor has told Bagas about the mother's illness, later the mother should take the drug regularly and regularly, do not think again."

"Yes, Gas, I'm sorry. I'm too busy taking care of a brash kid like Dita, until I forget about my own health." Bagas looked at me flatly, without responding to my words.

Maybe Bagas did not want to discuss Dita, instead diverted the conversation. He's out taking care of the registration. While the nurse moved me to the ward. I exhaled a rough breath. I was tired of going to the hospital so many times. Maybe it's karma, until my old age was filled with the pain of suffering from illness.

***

"Mom, eat first, well." said Ayu.

"Can't you, I'm being fed Bagas ?"

"Yes can dong, Mom. Good in fact, so sweet, as sweet as Javanese sugar. Moment of steps." Ayu held a plate filled with food from the hospital.

I smiled broadly as Bagas bribed me. It feels so peaceful and happy. This is what it feels like to be grateful for the presence of a very devoted child.

"Mas, you eat too, well. Yes, I am masakin. It's the gas we eat, hehehe."

"What cooking, baby ?"

"Perkedel equals your favorite capcay."

"Capcay without cabbage ?"

"Rubber, Ma. I know also Mas Bagas' favorite food."

"Yes, it used to fit SD, Bagas to add two dishes because of eating capcay."

"Eh, seriously, Mas ? How come you never get fit me masakin capcay ? Just fit your body SD like a Doraemon doll, hahaha."

"Hust, naughty you, baby."

"Mom, later if it's healthy masakin capcay, yeah. I want to see my husband fat, huh."

"Ready, Ayu. Same as your favorite chicken."

"Kok mom knows ?"

"You used to make sambal geprek. Mother who likes to take her fried chicken, sorry yeah."

"Hehehe, relax, Mom. I'm seneng loh, now mom is comfortable with us. Later the mother just stay with us, if the mother is not at home, at least stay in Jakarta until repent the way is done."

"Well, my mother lives with you ?"

"Yes, no papa, ma'am. I'm serious, a time of lies."

"But I don't deserve your care. I've always bothered you, but I can never help you."

"What the hell, Mom. Do not remember about the past, the important thing is now that you are aware. We're gonna fix our relationship going forward."

My eyes glazed over hearing Ayu's words. Even though she is the type of woman who is outspoken by the way, but her heart is very good. I willingly accepted in-laws like me to stay with him.

"False Ayu, Bagas. Mom must be at home. I bribe ya."

Ayu and Bagas nodded. I bribe them with a spoon. Ayu and Bagas smiled happily. This simple thing creates happiness. Enough to give love to children and ghosts.

Drrttt drrttt

"Mom's phone is on." I looked at my phone, and it was Dita who called me. I'll shut it down immediately.

"Who, Ma'am ?"

"I don't know, people are misaligned." I'll keep the phone again. The number will then ask to be replaced. Or I don't have to hold a cell phone. I want to enjoy a happy life with Bagas and Ayu. I want to help them before God calls me to see my husband.