AFRAID OF MARRIAGE ??
Episode #1
I grew up from a fairly well-established family, my father was a construction service entrepreneur, and my mother was a businessman in the culinary and basic food fields in the city of Jakarta.
Our life was actually quite good, all my needs and my sister were met well. I am the eldest of two brothers. My sister Nely just went to college, and I was last semester at the Economics faculty.
Until everything changed, when my dad had WIL (Other Dream Woman) known by mama who suspected papa all this time.I did not believe, at first, but in the end I believed that papa had cheated on us and betrayed us all, especially the mother who had loved him so much
Mama was frustrated that once she found out papa had WIL, she finally decided to divorce from papa.
The business that has been pioneered by the mother also experienced an impact, income began to decline, so that the mother finally borrowed money in the bank with collateral assets of cars, motorbikes and land certificates.
Initially our business can survive, but over time it also has an impact on the decline in income so we have difficulty paying installments to the bank. I also tried to help my mother according to my ability.
So devastated mama, when one by one our assets were confiscated by the bank. That made mama finally depressed and had to undergo psychiatric therapy at the Mental Hospital.
I don't know what else to do, the only thing left is a house. It's impossible to pawn either. Inevitably, disliking it, I finally decided to do odd jobs so that my sister and I could survive.
For the sake of a mouthful of rice, I was willing to work into anything from building porters, taxi drivers, cleanliness all I did.
I don't care now about the living status of our family . Finally I decided to quit college, to pay for our lives .
I can't take the reality of life for granted. Right now at home there's only me and my sister Nely. I don't want Nely to quit college, I always support her so she can stay in college no matter how tough our lives are right now.
Why did this have to happen to my family? why do we have to go through this?
Why would you let us be what we are today? I think you're prettier than any other dream woman papa.
Is this the sanctity of the marriage? if in the end there is someone who is hurt?
Why is there always marriage in this world? when marriage is worship, what is wrong with my parents' marriage?
Right now I'm more concerned with my family's situation, let alone mama who needs extra attention. So I had to visit him every day to the RSJ to give support to my mother so that she could recover from her depression. According to the doctor my mother can be restored if she regularly takes medicine and invited to chat, do not let mama empty her mind.
" Nely, you should stay in college. Don't quit your college. My brother tried his finances "
" But bang? "
" Have not worried about brother, your duty while taking care of mom and take care of mom if she has been allowed to go home from the hospital huh "
" Yes bang" Nely replied
I tried to encourage my sister, even though in my heart it felt like crying because the current situation is so difficult. And there's no way I keep asking for mercy from my mama's family all the time, let alone having a life of their own. So I have to work hard to get everything.
No more in my brain right now for Love, I erased all the memories of love, even though in college I had a boyfriend, and I decided to break up with him. Rather than just making him miserable. What I'm thinking about now is how I can stay alive and meet the needs of my family.
Little by little from my income I leave it to my sister, for her to manage well. I only take enough for my needs .
With the current economy in short supply, I decided to quit smoking. I'm a little calculating and stingy at the moment. But I did it all for my mom and my sister.
