Acha: Thank You Yoga

52. Miscarrying

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Yoga moves slowly towards the Acha gurney. There, Acha looks still closed her eyes with her pale face. Yoga tears in that second as well. "I'm sorry, Cha," he said. He clasped Acha's uninfused hand.

"Gue has failed to take care of you and our children, I failed to be a good father for our future children," Yoga continues to blame him. The doctor's statement completely slapped him, making him feel like the dumbest person in the world.

Yoga cannot imagine how broken the heart of his wife is if he knows the child he contains is gone. Yoga does not know how he will face Acha.

The sound of the electrocardiogram filled the silence inside the cold room. Yoga is still faithfully crying in its place, cursing itself.

A hand gesture Yoga could feel made him shift his attention to stare at his wife's pale face. Seen, Acha began to move her eyelids trying to open them.

"Cha," said Yoga staring at Acha's slowly opened eye bead.

"Y-yoga," Acha said in a stammering voice.

"Darling, you finally came to your senses, too" Yoga immediately scooped up Acha and showered a kiss on her pretty face.

Suddenly Acha remembered the incident yesterday, the incident when he had realized before finally his eyes were closed again. Acha's tears shed instantly.

"Cha I'm sorry," Yoga great-grandson. Seeing Acha cry made her heart pinched in pain.

Acha was silent, she was still crying about the fate of her child who could not be saved. "Cha, I'm really sorry, I shouldn't have gone that time, I should have heard your explanation first. I'm really sorry, I failed to take care of you and our son."

Acha was still silent, she was just crying a mouthful. His four-month-old baby has been gone, leaving him for all eternity. Acha closed her eyes. Sorry dear mama, mama has failed to take care of you, Inner Acha. He was sobbing more and more, it hurt so much.

"Yoga, why did he leave me," after a few minutes Acha finally opened his voice but still with a cry.

"God loves her more, Cha," Yoga replied. He tried to strengthen his wife even though he himself felt a sense of destruction. Although the baby is not her biological child, Yoga always considers the baby to be her own child, she treats the child as much as Papa Raka loves her, without discriminating between herself, Reiki and Liona.

"But I love him too, why did God take him?"

Yoga hugs tightly the frail body of Acha. Being abandoned by someone she hasn't seen is painful and Yoga knows what it's like.

"You must be sincere, I know you are strong. All this is fate and we can't fight it."

Outside, Nadin, Raka, Liona, Reiki, Dean, and Gavin are also present. Everyone was so worried about Acha.

"Yoga, how's Acha doing?" nadin asked. His tone was full of worry.

"Acha is conscious, Ma. Now he wants to be alone" explained Yoga.

Nadin let out a slight sigh of relief, at least his daughter-in-law had opened her eyes. They all understand the state of Acha, the woman must be very hard hit because of the loss of her fetus.

Reiki who occupied himself on the available bench was no less destroyed with Acha. He also felt guilty in his mind. If only he had not met Acha, if only he had not apologized to Acha and hugged the girl to the point of making Yoga misunderstand, this would not have happened. Acha and her child-to-be will definitely be fine. Reiki's heart ached every time he remembered it, again he was abandoned by a loved one - his mother and son, all returned to God's lap.

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A week after the tragic incident, Acha has been returned two days ago. After the incident that claimed the life of her future baby, Acha became a different person than before, the woman became more quiet and aloof. Now, he has returned to live with his parents-in-law so that Nadin can more easily supervise his son-in-law during Yoga school.

The sound of the door opening did not make Acha's attention seized, the woman was still loyal to her position, her eyes were so empty staring at any direction.

"Darling," Yoga sat himself right next to Acha. The man kissed Acha's cheek but found no response from the owner. The heart of Yoga saw Acha like this, his wife was like an undead with pale skin and thin body. Apparently, the departure of the baby candidate gave a big blow to Acha.

Yoga slips Acha's hair behind the ear. "Not had lunch?" tanya Yoga when he saw the tray stored on the nightstand was still full of untouched food.

Yoga took his breath. "I'm hungry, you know I'm eating, yeah," Yoga pinta. He held Acha's hand and took her to the kitchen. When Yoga's legs began to step, he felt Acha's body was not moved at all it made Yoga look back at Acha.

His wife was back crying making Yoga heart more sliced. He hugged Acha tightly. "I beg Cha, you don't keep going like this" he asked softly. He wanted to cry, but this time he wanted to look strong in front of his wife. He did not want to look weak and broken.

"Gue knows how you feel, Cha. Died by someone we haven't even seen before it hurts amazingly" the voice of Yoga began to sound raucous, although the man had tried to remain ordinary but it felt so difficult.

Acha parses her embrace. "You won't understand, Yog. How painful it is to be left by people we love so much, who even live together," said Acha finally.

"Your son is also my son, Cha. So, I know how broken your feelings are now. You know, my heart hurts like this." Yoga paused his sentence. His voice seemed choked and very difficult to get out. "Two times, Cha. Twice I was left gone forever by someone I loved dearly, by someone I really wanted to see but God didn't allow it. My father and our future son."

Acha's heart smiled, today he really is the gaze of Yoga's eyes which implies a deep sadness. Acha feels guilty now for ignoring Yoga without knowing that the man is as broken as he is.

"I'm sorry, Yog. I didn't know that you were sick just like me, either" Acha hugged Yoga, both hugging each other tightly and strengthening each other.

Nadin who saw that shed his tears. He did not expect that his son was still reminiscing clearly about his father whom he had never seen before.