A House Without Window
Suryo Prayogo
December 1991, the,
I wasn't born yet, of course, but my soul seemed to see everything through that red diary. My mother's handwritten book.
As usual my mother practiced karate with her friends also simpe (karatenya teacher), who happened to be the karate teacher was my mother's own boyfriend, and my mother, so after the exercise the mother and her boyfriend spent time together either to wash their eyes at the chinatown, eat meatballs, or just hang out on the side of the road.
"Ke Chinatown aja yuk while nyari shoes, I want to buy shoes, "said Mas Adi who is none other than my mother's boyfriend.
" yuk, may, wait for me to change clothes first" replied my mother briefly.
Finally they headed to Chinatown which can be taken about 45 minutes using angkot understandably long ago there are still many who use public transportation rather than private vehicles, if today is very rare.
They had fun spending the whole day. Until finally there was a call from my grandmother (his mother jbuku)
The point is that you have to go home when there is something to talk about. Without thinking, my mother asked diabtae to go home with her boyfriend.
"Mas, I'm calling to go home now something's important" she said",
"Yes, come home and I'm anther"
After my mother's house and boyfriend came home, my grandmother started talking.
"Ti, tomorrow don't play with Suryo again huh? ".
" Heem, you can't play with other guys as well, you've been proposed to people, tomorrow the family wants to come here, he himself said he wanted to tell you, "bude Anna said at length.
" applied?? Sopo? I really don't know how can it be that decides mom is the same shoot, right that msu undergo me mbak".
"wes to the spoiled, the former pesene of your late father, no one who ngelamar our child first must be accepted, pamali because, ", continued my grandmother.
" Namane Wanto, a cooperation of yours but different parts, he said he has long ago wriggled you, he likes to come directly here, he is still a nephew of our neighbor's bude Rubiah", cerocos bude again.
"Wanto's? Which I don't know yet", full of shyok and sad not playing my mother.
" Tomorrow also know, tomorrow you and a beautiful man, he comes with his family" replied the grandmother.
The conversation that afternoon stopped there, the mother went into her room full of anger, anxiety and surprise of course. And what about Suryo? My mom thought they had been dating for about a year.
The next morning, the mother again went to the factory where she worked, she deliberately waited at the security guard post while asking the security guard which person her name was Wanto.
"Sir Edo, I want to sit here first yes, just want to ask sir whose name is Wanto sir", sir",
"Aduh mbak Isti Wanto which, right whose name is Wanto there are 3, well that's the new entrance gate it's name Wanto already 30 years of work here, until now so embah embah, like he said he's an elder of factory workers here".
"ohh, uhmmm what is that? Wanto who is a motorbike marker tuh, his son Bu Ningrum just graduated SMK yesterday continues to be entered here with his mother.
"not ah, cook a child", I replied slowly.
"emange why to mbak Isti, strange aja kok an", Mr. Edo while curious.
"lha what is it mbak that way again, wear a blue shirt, which has a mustache you know".
Is he huh? But I don't know him, yes maybe met a few times at work but have never met a greeting, because according to the news that circulated, he is a arrogant person, he is a proud person, moreover, he is still the brother of one of the office people in this factory. From the looks of it, it seemed that he was a rude and stubborn person. But what can make it all happen.
I go home from work, I want to immediately lay down on the bed. The whole body hurts today. I accidentally bumped into that Wanto.
"hai Is, may you be happy, how am I going home? ", he said he offered my mother.
" thank you, don't" I replied.
Outside the factory gate was an old red CB who always accompanied me when Suryo and I were gone. Suryo?? How do I start a conversation with him? I'm really afraid of hurting her heart, but I have to be able to, I don't know. I approached him, and Wanto was no longer seen the trunk of his nose, had gone home probably.
"Is, I'd like to see your mother, would like to express my heart if I want to be serious with you. "
Like being struck by lightning during the day, on the other hand I was so happy but I was sad, where he could be accepted while Wanto's proposal yesterday was accepted.
He immediately pulled me over without giving me time to explain everything.
He took me home, on the way I told him that I had been proposed to, "god, I'm sorry, I'm confused how to talk to you.".
"what the hell are you saying?".
"mas, I have been proposed", I said, hiding tears.
"yes, I'm the one who's asking, baby" she said in disbelief.
"it wasn't you, someone else proposed to me, and Anna's mother accepted the proposal. "
He stopped the bike suddenly, I understand if he was so to me, he would have been more surprised than me.
" congratulations, Isti, thank you for this wound, I don't blame you, but somehow my chest is tight to hear what you said earlier, I don't know who to blame, I don't know, but I was also wrong not to directly propose to you, because I was still afraid to marry, but that doesn't mean I wasn't committed, I was traumatized by my own family who divorced when I was a toddler, and it hurts so much" Suryo told me without pause.
"forgive me, that's all I can say, "
At home, Anna does not welcome Suryo. Suryo asked about the truth of the news I had shared with him. Suryo returns home with a broken heart. I'm sorry Suryo, it's all so painful. I was injured, and Suryo was injured. Without saying anything to me, he headed for the bike. Suryo was furious. When I saw him from the terrace, Suryo spat at me from the top of his bike. Our togetherness was just a memory, better memories should never have existed, because they only hurt. I chose my family, not that I didn't love Suryo, I loved him very much, but my mother everything for me, I couldn't deny it including about my personal life, I think even though my heart was in revolt. Suryo forgive all my mistakes. Suryo was an adult but I saw the deep sorrow from the look in his eyes, not just grief but disappointment as well.
