
Pain and disappointment that haunts me for 2 days, the phone of my best friend,adit, hmmm including agra and also his best friend, I did not respond, even one day yesterday I locked myself in the room, I was not there,hmmm and finally my body fell down like now.
TOKTOKOK (door knocking sound)
“log aja”ucapku.
“emmm darling, how has it subsided not yet hot?or is there still a feeling?”said mamah who sat beside me while carrying a bowl of porridge in his hand.
“iya mah, it's been a little late ko, aja males to school, hate to see that person”ucapku while turning lazy eye.
“sayang, have mamah said right...., horrin first explanation agra, what if you are wrong see?”mama said while stroking my hair.
“but mam, I really hate him, it really hurts me.”apku with a jutek face.
“but darling, which you told yesterday, you feel sure, you misunderstood the great”ucap mamah while holding my shoulder.
Flassbacks
When I got home, I went straight to the room without saying anything, you also seemed to start suspecting, as well as clara and even papah, I immediately locked the door of my room, it really hurt, really hurt,can not be said by the word, which I want to just cry as it happens.
“sayang,open dong, why are you?mamah worried, yu”ucap mamah story from outside the room, while continuing to knock on the door.
“iya dong tea,open tea, do not make us worry oruh..”soil clara.
“what's the hell mah?”papah sounded a bit whispering.
“stttt, have the same papah clara enter the room first, if gini surely you will want to open the door”ucap mamah.
“oh okay deh papah same clara entered the room first, then veritain loh mah”ucap papah who whispered but still heard.
“but reward me...”not finished clara talk directly in cut by papah.
“ayo ah we to room”ucap papah.
“nak, dear,plis open yes, same story dear...., open your door”ucap mamah while continuing to knock on the door.
“mam...hiks”ucapku sabil crying, I opened the door for mamah to enter the room.
When the door was opened, you immediately hugged me, at that time these tears really felt can not be held, so fragile and sick.
“yaampun darling why can rich gini?dear story”ucap mamah with a worried tone while continuing to hug me and stroke my hair.
“mam...hiks..aga evil hiks”ucapku who was brick-styled for crying.
“why dear? Let's sit here first the story to mamah”ucap mamah who let go of my embrace and immediately took me to sit on the sofa room.
“mam hiks actually earlier hiks agra said if he wants to do something hiks, he said I should see it hiks, but just as I want to nyari agra, he said,I saw him again revealing love to sisca hiks mam, why agra evil”ucapku while stammered and directly hugging mamah.
“time anyway dear?how was it?”mama who sounded shocked.
“so he looked for alesan that mah hiks, he said he said I just misunderstood my hiks”ucap who still continues to cry.
“sayang...dengerin mamah, you do not easily emotional first, you are gorak events that really, you must have a habit of listening to the explanations of others first dear…..if you can be honest, you know ok from the look of Agra, if you he likes you”ucap mamah while stroking my hair.
“hmmm nah mam, mam permission I made myself first yes, I actually want myself at this time”ucapku while looking down.
“but dear...’aku directly cut off the mamah greeting.
“plis mam, this time aja”ucapku who pleads while holding the hand of mamah.
“hmmm yes dear, if there is anything to call mamah ya”ucap mamah.
“iya mam,pasti”ucapku.
Mamah also came out of the room, all I did was ask questions, my head and my heart were at war, but.omogan mamah there really is also, hmmm just that I did not want to be so quick to deny and forgive him, but,my heart really hurts.
Lots of notifications of messages and incoming phones, my friends, and friends of Agra, I really do not want to answer it, I decided to turn off the phone, I really want to be alone.
But somehow my body was hot, I was shivering, how could this be the effect because I was crying all the time?hmmm maybe, finally mamah entered the room and checked into my adaan, only mamah is allowed to enter my room at this time, I am also permission to go to school for one week,I can't concentrate on my situation anymore, I hate to see Agra.
Flassback.
“sayang, this is eating yu porridge”ucap mamah.
“ngga mah, I gamau eat pokonya”ucapku who still chuckles.
“sayang,mamah really worried, you should eat ya”ucap mamah very anxious.
“mam,tinggalin it on the table, let me eat later, now mamah can come out, I pingin myself”ucapku while putting a flat face without glancing at mamah.
“hmmm yes dear, but do not forget to eat yes, mamah dear you”ucap mamah while kissing my forehead.
I only replied with a nod, after leaving the room I locked the door again, sat on the sofa and faced the window.
TOKTOK(sound of room door)
“I TOLD YOU!PINGIN MYSELF USED”yelling me pissed.
“la, here I am the same princess,la do not gini dong, we are your friends kan”ucap naina that sounds sad.
“iya la,plis don't do it dong”sobung putri.
“BUT I BEG YOU GUYS FEEL MY BEST FRIEND, YOU HAVE TO NGERTIIN GUE, GUE BENER BENER PINGIN ITSELF”Yaku back, I actually do not have the heart, but this time I really want to be alone.
“hmmm okay deh la, healthy leo yes, do not kill yourself lo in dalem”ucap naina sad.
“hush,lo by the way keep tai”ucap princess on naina.
“iya maap,la.if so, same daughter go home ya”ucap naina.
“don't be late to eat la,inget,we love elo la”so the princess.
I don't answer their words, I'm really sad to be like this to them, but still, I want to be alone.
Arrived this afternoon a big rain, the mama porridge that I have not touched yet, I really did not taste, I sat back on the sofa while looking at the window, hmmm yes, all I did was daydream.
TOKTOK(door knocking sound)
“CK, WHO ELSE SIH”yaku pissed me off.
“gue adit la”ucap.
“adit?”muttered.
I immediately opened the door, yes, only Adit can make me melt, my tears came back out, I ran and immediately hugged Adit.
“adit hiks,dit”ucapku while crying.
adit hugged me heard me tight and rubbed my head, why I was comfortable in that embrace, I felt safe in that embrace, was loving me, he never made me cry, sometimes I let him down, I let him down,tap Adit is always there in my time of distress, like there is an inner bond, when I am difficult,adit always comes on time, on the spot, I beg you to stay with me this time, do not go, do not go,I really need you.