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Disappointment...

I don't understand what this view of my sister tells me.

But well, the torrential flow of current development from within my heart, what can I do besides ride this very sweeping little wave.

Will my sister Lia always feel this kind of sadness? If he was really sad, this meant that he had felt pain, it must have hurt.

No, it should be quite the opposite, right. I should have wanted to make the pain she felt that could be shared with me equally.

It was because I always wanted to say, my dear sister Lia, while I wanted to see the hallucinations of her face Lia smiling which was full of sincerity.

With a look that already seemed to be in distress as I slowly glanced towards her dry, chapped lips then gulped her saliva, and this time my sister seemed to need some more water to drink.

“Adik, are you thirsty?”

“Kakak, please get some water! I'm thirsty.”

My sister's sweet voice sounded so slow. As usual, I said so with a smile, hiding my unhappiness.

Lia didn't have much reason to tell me to take the water that was on the corner side of this room. He just acted as usual and lived with some free time. However, it was indeed unnatural for him who was sick to be allowed out of the scope of this hospital for longer.

I even helped her to put down the glass after she finished drinking. It is a sense of caring that I spend a lot of time on him.

After you finish drinking water, put it back. Not long after that the woman who called herself the nurse had come.

Lia's downstairs to something she seems to already know.

I wonder if it's okay like this?

This is. Earlier when the nurse came to my sister Lia's room, this was actually not what I wanted right now.

On the occasion of the examination of the condition by checking his blood, even at this time, I showed myself who could not do anything.

That's why it seems like Lia was disappointed in me and let me go.

Even that, I can't leave her alone in a different room. Now I can spend my time in silence in the hallway and see what's behind the little glass door that's on the other side of the room. Then, I can wash the traces of the lonely world from my hands and become the older brother who has always been there for her.

But... What's with this sad feeling I'm experiencing?

After that, I don't know anymore. Disturbed by the annoyance and sadness I felt, mixed with even curiosity as well, I spent my seat waiting for them to finish checking on my sister.

 But, because of that, I myself unintentionally saw Lia in an unexpected place, as I sat down in the hallway chair with a curious feeling.

I saw it as I left my seat next to the large pillar. My legs involuntarily shook, when I saw Lia's behavior like that before my eyes, when I wasn't by her side.

Since Lia didn't notice that I was behind this door, it once again seemed that I was peeking out from the other side behind the small glass door.

For some reason while taking her blood, Lia was already faceless to want to rebel out of this room, it seemed like she did not like this.

After ten minutes later, Lia was downstairs to her room again.